Rated: T | CW: panic attacks | tags: established relationship, hurt/comfort, pre-s3 steddie
Prompt: Get behind me
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Steve is shit at keeping secrets. He should be used to it by now, considering his stack of NDAs is now undoubtedly longer than any book heās ever read, but usually his lies fall on the ears of his oblivious parents, on the unknowing school nurse for why heās back for the third day in a row for a migraine, on his teachers who berate him for falling asleep in class. Itās notāSteve is bad at keeping secrets from those he cares about, and Eddie Munson is very high on that list of people.
Steve still canāt believe itās real, most of the time: that who he was his first years in this school hadnāt scared Eddie away completely, that he was worth Eddie giving a second chance to, that when Steve had kissed him Eddie hadnāt punched him square in the nose, that Eddie had kissed him back.
It still makes his chest hum, when he thinks about it too hard. Makes his lips twitch when heās spacing out in class, when heās eating dinner with his parents or when heās driving to school: because his mind is on Eddie. He thinks about what Eddie might be doing. If his day has been okay and if anyone gave him any shit, if all of his deals went smoothly or if Mrs. OāDonnell still has it out for him.
He wonders if Eddie ever thinks the same about him.
Steve⦠likes to think he does, especially at times like this. At times when Eddie has Steveās head pillowed on his chest, when Eddieās fingers are in Steveās hair and their legs are tangled together, when the movie theyād been watching is glowing blue on the screen, the tape over, and Steve canāt find it within himself to get up and turn it off.
Eddieās fingers are scratching behind his ears, and the pattering of rain on the trailerās tin roof is lulling Steve into a pleasant sort of doze. Sleep always comes easier with Eddie next to him.
āSweetheart?ā Eddie murmurs, and Steve likes this the most. Sweetheart and honey and baby, names that fall so easily from Eddieās lips like Steveās something sweet. Like heās something worth savoring.
He hums and doesnāt move, Eddieās fingers still in his hair.
āItās getting late,ā Eddie reminds him, āyou spendinā the night?ā
Steve shouldnāt. His parents will ask questions he canāt answer and every night they spend with the Bimmer out front is another night of gossip they hand over to Eddieās neighborsā
But Eddie is warm. His hairy legs are locked around Steveās like he doesnāt want to let him go and his lips are so close to the crown of Steveās head he can feel the breath of his words and Steve thinks maybe enduring a phone call with his parents is worth it. He could borrow Eddieās boxers. He could wear one of Eddieās more neutral shirts to school tomorrow and the two of them would be the only ones who knew.
āYou gonna let me go if I say no?ā Steve props himself up on his elbows, the question falling from his tongue because he canāt help but tease, because Eddieās face always flushes like heās in awe of it.
Eddieās legs flex and lock, his arms wrapping possessively around Steveās middle even as his cheeks darken. āIf I had it my way,ā he murmurs, tilting his head close, āIād never let you go.ā And Eddie kisses him. Steve parts his lips as Eddieās tongue slips inside, warm and wet and coveting, licking behind his teethā
The lights flicker. Steve can see the flash of the them through his closed eyelids and even as he tells himself itās nothing the hairs on his arms stand on end, his ears begin to ring as his senses heighten, the only noise still the rain on the roof and the wet sounds of their mouths, until it happens again.
Steve breaks their kiss, dread pooling low in his belly as he hovers over Eddie, his gaze darting around the room as he searches for anything he could use to protect them both.
āSorry,ā Eddie exhales, āshoddy electrical in this thing.ā
But Steve can barely hear him as the ringing in his ears grows, his skin beginning to tingle as that familiar surge of adrenaline begins to flood him.
āSweetheart?ā
The lights go out.
Steve scrambles off the couch, nearly taking himself out at the knees over Eddieās coffee table, and lunges for the lamp on the side table. It wouldnāt be enough, but it would be something. It would, if Steve was lucky, be enough for Eddie toā
āSteveā?ā
āGet behind me,ā Steve interrupts, his palms slick as he wrenches the cord from the outlet, holding the heavy wooden base of the lamp high above his head.
āStevie, baby, maybe the power doesnāt go out on your side of the tracks but over here itāsāā
āPlease.ā Steveās voice cracks over the vowels, desperation flooding him: he canāt lose Eddie. He canāt. Just the thought of itāthe thought of Eddie anywhere close to what lies beneath their feet makes his palms slicken, makes his heart jackrabbit in his chest and his blood thunder in his ears.
He canāt let it happen.
The couch creaks as Eddie rises, their backs to the wall as Steve holds up his lamp, unseeing, into the dark.
For long minutes thatās all they do: the only sounds are Steveās uneven breaths and the pattering of rain on the roof, and Steveās gaze flicks between every point of entry as his eyes adjust to the dark.
But as the rain patters on, as lightning flashes outside and as the adrenaline begins to wane from his blood, as the lamp heās been holding over his head begins to feel like it weighs a ton, embarrassment begins to fill him instead.
It was just the storm. It was the rain, and the wind, and the trailerās old electrical system, and Steve had forced Eddie into a corner over nothing.
Steve sets down the lamp, his arms trembling as the adrenaline surge leaves his muscles tired and shaking. He licks his lips, his mouth bone dry, and brings the heels of his palms to his eyes. Heavily, he sits back on the couch, unable to look Eddie in the eyes. āSorry,ā he croaks, āthat wasāā but he canāt explain. He canāt explain because that would open Eddie to a world Steve wantsāneedsāto protect him from.
His teeth begin to chatter, and his hands are trembling so badly he curls them up, pressing his fists into the sockets of his eyes just so he doesnāt look like heās losing it completely.
The trailer floor creaks, and Eddie, slowly, sits beside him. Just the weight of him makes Steveās nerves ease, his jaw unclenching.
āI donāt like heights,ā Eddie murmurs into their quiet, and Steve has no idea why heās bringing this up but at least heās talking, at least heās not throwing Steve out the door for losing his shit. āJeff has to drive when we go over bridges.ā His hand rests on the small of Steveās back. āIām gonna go get some candles, yeah? Iāll be right back.ā Eddie rubs a soft circle against Steveās spine before standing, his footsteps rapid before he clatters around a closet just a few feet away.
Heās quick, and within a minute thereās three mostly-burned candles flickering dimly on the coffee table, and Steve no longer feels like his heartās going to beat out of his chest when he can finally meet Eddieās gaze. āSorry,ā he says again, lamely, his voice still shaky, āitās normally not that bad.ā
Because itās not. Because adding Eddie to the mixāthe mere potential of itāhad sent Steve into a panic.
āItās okay if itās that bad,ā Eddie states, simply, like thatās all it boils down to, like what just happened isnāt completely and totally fucking insane. Eddie takes his hand, and Steve realizes how cold his own fingers are against the heat of Eddieās palm. āIt can be that bad around me.ā
Tears, unbidden and unexpected flood Steveās lower lids and he has to stop himself from blinking so they donāt spill. He sniffs hard, instead, and squeezes Eddieās hand.
āStevie?ā Eddie murmurs, his voice gentle and probing, āthis is why you have that nail bat under your bed, isnāt it?ā
Too fucking smart. Eddie is too fucking smart for his own good and Steve is livid at himself for falling for someone whoās smart enough to connect any of the dotsābut Steve is weak. Heās weak, and he nods instead of denying it, because as desperate as he is to keep Eddie away from it all, to be understood by him, even in this small amount, is a relief he canāt resist.
āWayne always thought there was something wrong with this town,ā Eddie mutters, and Steve canāt help his choked breath of a laugh because of courseāof courseāWayne would know. āAlways said the government was out here covering it all up.ā Eddie nods, like without Steve having to validate any of it, he already knows. āHe always says theyāve got ways of keeping people quiet.ā Eddie mutters. He stares, and Steve realizes that, really, was a question.
He barely moves, but Eddie is watching, and his eyes widen when Steve tilts his head, just slightly, forwards.
And then Eddieās scooting closer. Heās wrapping Steve up in his arms and the smell of cigarettes and cedar wraps around him, and his face is pressed into Eddieās warm neck and Eddieās fingers are back in his hair.
āYouāre okay,ā Eddie murmurs, and then, after a moment, like he was hesitating, adds, āand Iām okay, too, sweetheart. āS just us, here.ā
Steve clings back, his fingers pressing deep and desperate against Eddieās back, like his very hold could be what keeps Eddie next to him, safe.
And Steveās not letting go.
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And then they lived happily ever after and nothing bad happened to them ever again š„°
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The Gift that Keeps on Giving - Part 2
Part 1
minor TW: Cheating (you'll see)
Working out how to tell Eddie they canāt keep this up is harder than it seems. How does he say that heās too close to falling for him and they should just go back to the beginning and make this a business transaction, or forget Steve even asked? Backing himself out of this corner isnāt easy. He types out so many messages and deletes them, his thumbs hurt. He finally sends something short and to the point. A quick āI canāt do this anymore, but thank you for everything.āĀ
Thatās met with radio silence. He checks the chat later to see that itās been read, but thereās no response. No little ellipses bubble telling him a reply is forthcoming. No thumbs up or impersonal got it. Just nothing. He goes to their account and sees itās still actively posting about the tour, so Eddieās been on and had a chance to reply, but he hasnāt. Before Steve can let that sink in and ruin his day, thereās a knock on his door.Ā
Thereās a courier there, an inconspicuous man that Steve frowns at. He isnāt expecting anything from his father, but he takes the envelope and signs for it. The contents surprise him. The small Stevie written at the top that he runs his fingers over in disbelief. He doesnāt remember telling Eddie his address. Maybe there are perks to having a legal team and record label behind you. It doesnāt really matter how he figured it out. Because out falls two tickets to the Corroded Coffin show in Indy. The show thatās just two days away.Ā
Eddie followed through on his promise. Steve thought heād forgotten all about the reason they started talking. He certainly was flirting enough to make Steve forget. Thereās the possibility that Steve was reading too much into it. Tone is hard to gauge over text. Eddieās probably like this with everyone. Playing it up to maintain that rockstar image. It probably didnāt mean anything to him, while Steveās insides were molten lava every time his phone pinged with a reply from Eddie.
Itās bittersweet to be holding these in his hands after everything thatās happened over the past few weeks. He got what he wanted, but at what cost? The realization that he doesnāt want his boyfriend. He wants Eddie Munson. Who he has no chance in hell with. Does he even deserve to take his boyfriend to this show? Eddie never shouldāve sent the tickets after Steve lured him in and ghosted him with a quick message and no further explanation. He should probably tell his boyfriend the truth, hand over the tickets and admit what a failure this relationship has become because of him. All it took was a rockstar paying attention to him to make him stray, so how good of a boyfriend can he be, tickets or no tickets.
Turns out the distance between him and his boyfriend wasnāt one sided. When Steve walks in on him with another man that night, ready to confess and hand over the tickets, it should be more shocking, or at least more devastating. Heās all too aware that the anger he should feel is nonexistent. Steveās been cheated on before and itās never a pleasant feeling, but it feels hypocritical to get mad at him, given where Steveās thoughts and feelings have been over the past few weeks.
Steve heads home with a weight off his chest. Lightest heās felt since Robin pointed out his honeymoon eyes over Eddieās messages. Thereās not much love lost on this relationship, but he doesnāt know what to do with the tickets now that his boyfriendās out of the picture. He doesnāt try reaching out to Eddie again, unsure how anything heāll send would even be received. But he doesnāt want to just let them go to waste, not after everything.Ā
He winds up dragging Robin to the show. Sheās not into this kind of music, and Steve wasnāt either, at first, but Eddie is electrifying when he performs and Steve was drawn in from that first music video and hasnāt stopped listening since. And Robin loves Steve. Sheād do anything for him, and heās never more thankful to have her at his side when he hands over the tickets and theyāre ushered backstage.Ā
There wasnāt anything out of the ordinary on the tickets as far as Steve saw, but something must have tipped the system off that they werenāt run-of-the-mill tickets. Security guards escort them into a tunnel, where they get on a golf cart and get whisked away to an unknown destination. Robinās whining under her breath that they shouldnāt have come and Steveās having flashbacks to herding children through the back of the mall when he was slinging ice cream and getting bullied by Nancy's younger brother into free movies for him and his friends.Ā
The destination turns out to be a suite, or a dressing room of some sort. A door labeled Eddie Munson that sticks out amongst the white painted concrete theyāre surrounded by. Heās not sure if theyāre under the stage or behind it, but thereās a loud humming sound and bass reverberating in the cavernous hallway. He doesnāt get much time to process his surroundings before the security guard is rapping on the door with a curt Mr. Munson and stepping aside.Ā
When the door flings open, a man with intentionally windswept hair and tight leather pants greets them. By greets, he stares dumbly at them, slack jawed and eyes on Steve, like he canāt believe theyāre real. Steve doesnāt know what to say anymore than it seems Eddie does, with his doe eyes and surprised tilt to his head. After a beat of silence that goes on too long, Robin clears her throat.Ā
āHow drunk was I?ā Eddie asks, brows furrowing as he takes in Robin. āI couldāve sworn you said boyfriend.āĀ
āEx-boyfriend,ā Robin chirps, grinning like a maniac.Ā
āDo you mean, you were a boy and now youāre a girl?ā Eddie leans against the doorframe, perplexed, and Steve is distracted by the way his shirt rides up and reveals a sliver of pale skin to tease him. He can see a santa hat sticking out of the back pocket of his pants.
Robin gags at the thought of being Steveās partner in anything other than crime. She points at herself, āRobin Buckley, always a girl,ā then she points at Steve, āalways a dingus,ā and sticks out a hand for Eddie to shake. āPlatonic lesbian best friend, at your service.āĀ
āEddie Munson,ā he says, shaking her hand but looking over at Steve, a bemused grin dancing on his lips. āWhat happened?āĀ
āYou did,ā Steve says, a little breathless.
TBC
Footsteps pad down the hallway as Steve and Eddie make their way to their bedroom at an honestly irresponsible hour given that they both have work in the morning. Yawning, talking quietly. They get ready for bed one at a time in their small bathroom, Eddie settling under the covers with a book while Steve finishes brushing his teeth.
There's a smile in Eddie's voice when he speaks, the words muffled to outsiders by the rustling of sheets as Steve climbs into bed. Whatever it is, it makes Steve laugh, which makes Eddie laugh too. They fall in and out of bouts of talking and giggling, the only two people in the world - or at least it must feel that way, alone together at such an absurd time of night, in the familiar comfort and quiet of their shared bed and shared home.
They don't know that their teenage daughter is still awake in the room next door, listening to their laughter floating through their house's thin walls. She smiles to herself in the dark, warmed by the simple and genuine joy in that sound.
They don't know that this is far from the first time she's heard them laughing together in private. They don't know that she's absorbed every smile they've given each other, every kiss and kindness and warm conversation she's ever witnessed them exchange, and with every one she has learned what love looks like. She may make a whole dramatic show of gagging or pulling a face at some of her dads' displays of affection for each other (she is Eddie Munson's daughter after all), but they don't know how much she actually appreciates the fact that her parents are still so happily in love, that after nearly 30 years together they still genuinely enjoy being around each other. Their relationship began long before her and the love they have for each other continues still not because of her or in spite of her but simply alongside the love they have for her in equal measure.
There is so much love in this house, of that she has never had any doubt. She loves her dads, her dads love her, and her dads love each other, and those are facts, fundamental truths that have been shaped into the very foundation of her bones as she's grown up. No argument or mistake or disagreement has ever been - or will ever be - enough to waver that. Even in moments of anger there has always been love, unquestionably. They don't know just how deeply she knows that. They don't know just how much she values that.
Sleepy and sentimental, she thinks of friends she knows who have grown up in broken homes and are drawn to broken relationships, and she feels so incredibly grateful for the happy childhood Steve and Eddie have given her and the example they've set of such a healthy, loving relationship for her to look up to. They don't know that she knows how lucky she is to have them.
One day I'll tell them, she thinks as she rolls over onto her side and lets her body grow heavy with sleep. One day I'll thank them for teaching me what love is.
Actually, I love the thought of Steve seeing that Hopper is letting some things slide with him because heās in the party and taking it to mean that he now has crime immunity. And then goes wild with it.
Itās a sight to see because Eddie kinda thinks heās hallucinating when he skips out on some drug awareness rally just to walk out to the parking lot and see Steve Harrington breaking into the Chief of Policeās car.
Eddie, standing there like an idiot: Umā¦what are you doing?
Steve, pulling Hopperās spare key out of the sunvisor: Wanna get a milkshake?
Part of: Steve Deserves Good Parents, Actually Debbie and Fester Addams One | Two Rick and Evelyn O'Connell One Harley Quinn One (you're here!) 10th Doctor and Rose (on the way! might take a little, I have plans for this one) Scooby Gang (there are also plans for this one lmao, so plz be patient with me orz)
I'm a simple woman who believes Steve deserves to be a little unhinged sometimes, and having Harley Quinn as a mother is the perfect excuse to make that happen lol
Anyway, I know I haven't updated some of my other series in a hot minute; I've just been busy with work and a little sick ngl
If you'd like to be tagged for any new parts in this series, let me know!
And, as always, if you see any typos, no you didn't ;)
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Steve's earliest memory is of being tucked into bed with a Batman night light plugged into the wall and his mother squeezed in next to him. She's wearing her softest pajamas, and Steve idly rubs the fabric under his thumb. In her lap is a huge book that she flips through, humming "Pop Goes the Weasel" under her breath before finally stopping on a page. "Okay, Dumplin', let's read about Narcissistic Personality Disorder," she finally says, wiggling some to get comfortable before clearing her throat.
Her voice is soft and a little nasally, and Steve obediently closes his eyes when she starts reading. After a few minutes, she gently cards her fingers through his hair, her palm warm as it slides over his scalp. Eventually, he drifts off, his dream so vivid that he still remembers the oversized hammers with their white doctor coats and floating clipboards.
The first time Steve's mother is sent (back) to Arkham, he doesn't realize anything is wrong until Uncle Bruce picks him up from school. Steve had been waiting long after the other kids were picked up by their parents, a misshapen pink-and-blue coaster for his mother that he made in art class in his hands, when one of Uncle Bruce's fancy cars pulled up to the school.
The passenger window rolled down, and Bruce looked almost pained as he met Steve's eyes. "Hop in," he said, leaning over to open the door from the inside.
Steve walked up to the door but didn't get in. "Mom said I should only go home with her," he said, "unless you know our secret code."
"Cognitive Behavioral Therapy."
Steve stood for a moment longer before nodding and climbing into the passenger seat. He closed the door, pulled on his seat belt, and carefully held the coaster in his lap. "Where's Mom?" he asked, watching as Bruce turned down the radio and slowly pulled away from the school.
"Your mother is....going to be away for a while," Bruce said, gripping the steering wheel tighter. "She did something bad, and now she's going to stay in time out because of it."
"Mom says you shouldn't dumb things down just because I'm young. She says it's not good for my development."
Bruce got a slight smile at that, his lips twitching up as he glanced at Steve. "Is that so," he said, his grip on the wheel loosening some. He seemed to think for a moment before saying, "Your mother blew up a warehouse. She was apprehended by Batman and has been sent to Arkham for a few months. Since I'm listed as your godfather, you'll stay with me until she's released."
Steve didn't reply. He just looked down at his coaster and wondered if he'd be able to convince his Uncle Bruce to visit Arkham so he could give it to her.
He did not, in fact, get to visit her at Arkham during that stint. But Steve did get to visit on her next one, which was almost three years later to the day. Steve's first visit to Arkham was on his 8th birthday, and he was chaperoned by Uncle Bruce and Nightwing (he wasn't allowed to call Dick by his real name when he was in costume, so Steve just didn't call him anything at all).
That was also the first time Steve truly experienced Arkham's lax security. Through no fault of his own (and he would continue to argue this point; how did two superheroes let an 8 year old wander off?), Steve had somehow ended up in another part of Arkham altogether.
This hallway had large cells with reinforced glass walls that allowed Steve to look inside. He could name most of the people he passed, recognizing Killer Croc and Riddler and the Penguin by his mother's descriptions of their defining features. Most of them tried talking to Steve, but he pushed ahead, eager to see if his mother was at the end of the hall.
She wasn't. Instead, Steve found another woman. She had green skin and bright red hair and Steve hadn't been able to contain himself. He'd practically squished his face against the glass and asked, "Are you Poison Ivy?"
"Oh, her he talks to," the Penguin said, his tone mean and his voice carrying.
Poison Ivy ignored him, choosing to instead open one eye from where she lay on the bed. She stared at Steve before sitting up. "Do I know you?" she asked.
"Nope! But my mom knows you. She talks about you all the time. She said you're the baddest badass to ever badass," Steve said.
"Oh. You're Harley's kid," Poison Ivy replied, walking over to the glass and crouching down to meet his gaze. "What are you doing all the way over here?"
"It's my birthday, so Uncle Bruce said I could see Mom."
"Well, happy birthday. Now, what are you doing here?"
Steve blinked, looked around the hall again, and realized for the first time that he was, in fact, a bit lost. "Uh, I'm not sure. I was with Uncle Bruce before."
A moment passed between the two of them in which Poison Ivy said nothing while Steve tried to remember how, exactly, he'd ended up here. When he came up blank, he simply shrugged and looked back at her. "Hey, you like plants, right?" he asked.
"Yeah, kid, I like plants," she said, her tone taking on the same inflection his mother's did when he asked something she thinks is obvious.
Steve didn't linger on the tone. Instead, he dug around in his coat pocket for a few seconds, pushing past candy wrappers and erasers until his hand closed around an acorn he'd picked up off the ground a few days ago. He pulled it out and presented it to Poison Ivy on his palm. "Is it still a plant if it fell off the tree?" he asked.
"Yeah," Poison Ivy said, her voice soft like she was staring at something unbelievable. Steve watched as a huge grin spread across her face, her eyes lit up, and she pressed her hands to the glass. "Can you do me a favor, Steve?" she asked.
"Sure! Mom said you're a person I should listen to," he said, starting to close his fingers around the acorn. Now that he was thinking about it, he didn't actually know how to give the acorn to her with the glass between them.
"Your mom is right. You should always listen to me. And her. But mostly me right now," Poison Ivy said, her gaze a bit softer as she looked at Steve. "So, go ahead and put the acorn on the ground and stand as far away as possible."
Steve didn't question her. Whatever Poison Ivy wanted to do would probably be fine. After all, Uncle Bruce didn't warn him about talking to her like he had about the Joker. So, Steve put the acorn down and hurried to the other end of the hall. "Now what?" he shouted.
The only response he got was the acorn shuddering, spinning across the floor, and then bursting open. In the blink of an eye, a tree grew, its roots breaking through the ground and its branches shattering the glass of Poison Ivy's cell. Steve was just thinking that was probably why Poison Ivy told him to stand back when she walked out, rolling her shoulders and breathing like the air is fresh.
She looked at Steve and walked over, standing in front of him for a moment before sweeping him into her arms. "Thanks, kid," she said, opening her hand and letting a tiny purple flower grow from her palm. She tucked it behind Steve's ear. "Now, let's go find your mom."
Of course, Poison Ivy's escape had set off numerous alarms, and Uncle Bruce just about fainted when he saw her carrying Steve while Nightwing looked two seconds from laughing. But Steve's mom had smiled so wide that her cheeks must have hurt after only two seconds when she saw them.
It was, by far, the best birthday Steve had ever had.
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Hawkins, Indiana, is...boring. Steve has only been in the town for a few weeks, and he's bored out of his mind. He could have been sent to Metropolis or Central City. Hell, he would have preferred Bludhaven to the absolute snoozefest that is Hawkins. But, no, Uncle Bruce insisted on somewhere safe, which means somewhere boring, which means...Steve will just have to make his own fun.
That's why he's found himself in a dive bar on the edge of town, sitting at the bar as the owner (a woman named Bev who definitely killed her husband; Steve would know, he's met plenty of women who definitely killed their husbands) refuses to give him anything alcoholic. "Listen, kid," she says, her tone hard and unyielding, "I can give you water, a Shirley Temple, or a permanent ban. Which do you prefer."
After a few seconds, Steve sighs, slaps way more money than is necessary on the bar, and says, "Gimme a Shirley Temple."
Bev nods, swipes up the cash, and starts making his drink. He watches her with a slight frown before looking away, noticing another boy his age wiping down a table. He looks, and Steve cannot say this affectionately enough, like a wannabe goon for a motorcycle gang. Between the bandana stuffed into his back pocket, his slightly frizzy hair falling to his shoulders, and the leather jacket/vest combo, the guy is the first reminder of home Steve has seen since arriving in this sleepy town.
When he notices the guy's shoulders tense, Steve looks away to keep from being caught staring. A Shirley Temple is placed in front of him, and Steve represses a sigh, missing the sounds of fights happening behind him as he drinks with Jason.
"Aren't you a little young to be hanging around here?"
Steve slowly takes a sip of his drink, the saccharine cherry flavor washing over his tastebuds, and glances at an older man a few seats down from him. He looks the man over, lingering on the half-tucked shirt, muddy loafers, and circles under his eyes. Without permission, his mother's DSM-V rushes through his mind, a blur of his mother's voice accompanying the page flips. They finally settle on "Adjustment Disorder," accompanied by his mom saying, "Sometimes, that's just a fancy term for a mid-life crisis, Dumplin'."
Without thinking, Steve asks in return, "Aren't you a little old to still be going through a mid-life crisis?"
In Gotham, that might get him a laugh, an eye roll, and possibly an elbow to the ribs from whichever friend accompanied him. Here, it gets him a tense silence that he only thought happened in bad movies gearing up for a fight sequence. Seriously, what is wrong with Hawkins?
"I'll give you one chance to apologize," the guy says, clearly thinking he's being sufficiently threatening.
It takes every ounce of Steve's self-control to keep from laughing at the guy. Does that usually work? Do people usually find this guy threatening? He's got nothing on Alfred, so Steve just can't bring himself to even fake intimidation.
"Yeah, don't hold your breath, man," Steve says, rolling his eyes as he takes another sip. The Shirley Temple isn't bad, but it's not what he was expecting, and it feels like just another disappointment atop a pile of them.
They're building in his chest, now that he thinks about it. Steve is slowly suffocating under the weight of them. They buzz in his lungs, surging through him until the energy is so overwhelming that he has to bounce his leg and tap his finger against his glass to expel some of it. He shouldn't have agreed to leave Gotham, or at the very least, he shouldn't have left the location entirely up to Bruce. Holy shit, that was a dumb decision. He ought to know better.
A sudden, annoyingly harsh drag of chair legs against the floor rings in Steve's ears, making his shoulders tense and his fingers twitch. He looks over to see the guy standing over him, glaring down at Steve like that's supposed to scare him when nothing else has.
Steve sighs, drinking the last of his Shirley Temple before standing. Over the guy's shoulder, he can see the boy his age watching them, and...well, Steve kind of wants to make a good impression on the first person to remind him of home. Plus, a fight sounds great. He'd love a chance to expel some of this disappointment-fueled energy.
The guy suddenly snorts, pulling Steve's attention back. "You're young, kid, so I'll let you off the hook this time around, but learn some respect."
What? Seriously? All of that, and the guy doesn't even start a fight? Does he know how rude that is? He'd get killed in Gotham. "Oh," Steve says, his voice flat, "you're scared of getting your ass kicked."
Somehow, that's what the guy considers the final straw. It wasn't even that good. Like, that's just fucking small talk in Gotham, and Steve can't bring himself to understand what about it was so infuriating that the guy swings his fist.
Either way, Steve happily embraces the fight. His eyes light up, and adrenaline rushes through his veins as he ducks and kicks the guy's left knee. The familiar sound of a bone snapping rings out. Steve's ready for more, hands curled into fists and held up to protect his face, when the guy drops.
After one kick, he drops. Steve blinks, staring down at the guy cursing and holding his knee. He slowly lowers his hands when he realizes this isn't some kind of fake-out diversion and looks at Bev behind the counter. She's frowning at him, hands on her hips, and Steve comes to the conclusion that bar fights are not, in fact, a thing in Hawkins. "Do they usually go down so easy around here?" he asks.
"They usually don't fight at all."
Oh. Holy shit, this place is boring.
Steve sighs and pushes some hair out of his face, frowning slightly. "Well, uh, sorry about the disturbance, then. I'll just...get going," he says, awkwardly pushing his chair in and doing the same for the guy whose kneecap he kicked. Nobody says anything as he leaves, and Steve shoves his hands into his jacket pockets, frustration and disappointment and homesickness building in him.
He's halfway to his car when somebody shouts, "Hey! Wait!"
With a huff, Steve stops and turns, his mood only lightening when he sees the boy that was wiping down tables. He waits patiently, watching as the boy runs up to him and holds out a wad of cash. "Bev said to give this to you," he says.
"What, is my money not good enough?" Steve asks, raising an eyebrow at the cash before looking up and meeting brown eyes.
"No, no," the boy says, "Bev only gives change to people she likes. She said you're welcome to come by and kick Phillip's ass whenever you want."
Steve blinks, studying the boy for any signs of lies. When he doesn't find one, he takes the cash and nods. "Good to know," he says.
"Yeah. Right. Um, I'm going back inside now."
"Hold on," Steve says, grinning when the boy listens and stands still. He takes a step closer, holds out his hand, and says, "My name's Steve. I'm new around here, if you couldn't tell."
The boy stares at his hand for a few seconds before taking it, the rings on his fingers pressing against Steve's skin. "Eddie. I could tell," he says, his shoulders relaxing some. "Where you from?"
"Gotham."
"Holy shit, no wonder you looked so ready for a fight," Eddie says, staring at Steve like he's incomprehensible. Steve tries not to preen under his gaze. "Hawkins must be dead compared to Gotham."
"Yeah," Steve agrees, glancing down at his and Eddie's hands still clasped together despite the handshake being over. "But I think I'll have some fun anyway."
Thinking of Steve ships out of context is genuinely so funny cause one has canonically held him at gunpoint, two have beaten him within an inch of his life, and the last one has brutally slammed him against a wall holding a blade to his throat šš
i want steddie dressing up as very convincing old ladies so they can get senior discounts
stranger things anyone?
*grips your shoulders tightly* listen to me. you HAVE to make stobin weirder, okay? you have to make them the embodiment of that Secret Third Thingā¢ļø. theyāre those cats at a shelter that you canāt separate for anything. make them do examinations of each others bodies cause theyāre worried about a health issue. make them share a single piece of gum. make them swap pronouns and names and clothes on a regular basis. make them shower together. i need one of the kids to call for steve in a different room and have robin come to help instead because theyāre one person. i need steve to show up to work wearing robins tag cause sheās too sick to come in. they have to get weirder, do you understand? itās for their health.
Steve Harrington has OCD. There are days when he can barely hear his own thoughts. Days when he can't focus on anything else but whatever is triggering him. Days when he just wants to crawl out of his own skin.
No one around him gets it. Like, really gets it. He loves having everyone over at his place, loves filling the empty house with joy and laughter he never experienced as a child. But over and over again, he feels like he can't really be present in the moment. Because he gets stuck in a never-ending loop of mental checklists, pinpointing every single item that will need to be cleaned or put back in its place after they leave. Crumbs all over the couch. Henderson touching everything in his general vicinity with greasy, pizza-stained fingers. People walking straight into the house after swimming in the pool. Rug on the bathroom floor always wrinkled and askew. Tiny specs all over the kitchen that only he seems to notice. He knows they're little things. Unimportant, right? A little mess can't hurt you? He knows... He just wishes his brain would get it, too.
And it doesn't just impact him, either. His incessant bitching sets others around him on edge. That's probably the worst part of it all. Nancy used to get so annoyed with him whenever he'd ask her to not sit on his bed in her 'outside clothes'. He's pretty sure Robin hates cooking with him because of all the rules he has in the kitchen, but she usually just sighs and rolls her eyes. Dustin deliberately misunderstands his requests or, better yet, pretends he doesn't hear him at all.
Not Eddie, though. Because Eddie notices. The way Steve seems unfocused at times, like he's somewhere far away. The way his eyes tend to dart around the room. The way his posture changes when someone unknowingly does something that triggers him. He makes little mental notes of all the triggers and makes sure to remember them. So he starts taking off his shoes at the door, placing them on the rack. He cleans up after the kids, quickly wiping the kitchen counter and floor as Steve's busy walking everyone out of the house. He straightens the bathroom rugs. He wipes the floor after taking a shower at Steve's, so that there isn't a single droplet of water to be found anywhere outside the shower cabin. He changes his clothes before lounging around on Steve's bed. It takes Steve some time to notice everything Eddie's been doing to help out with his triggers.
It's a little after midnight, and Steve has finally managed to kick the little dipshits out of the house. He walks back into the kitchen where he is met with the sight of Eddie crouched down, a whisk broom and dustpan in hand. Something clicks then, stopping him in his tracks.
"Wait... How long have you been doing this?"
Eddie freezes then and glances up quickly, looking every bit like a deer caught in the headlights.
"Oh, sorry, it's just- I noticed the stuff on the kitchen floor makes you kinda uncomfortable, so I thought I'd help out a bit," Eddie says softly, like he's scared he's done something wrong. Steve feels something warm spread around in his chest, followed by a familiar burning sensation behind his eyes.
"And the rugs? Was that also you?" Steve's voice is shaking now. But he can no longer prevent it. He's about to have a full-on breakdown in front of Eddie Munson.
Of course, Eddie, the perceptive bastard that he is, has already picked up on what's about to happen. He quickly sets the tools aside and straightens up, taking a few strides towards Steve, ducking his head to catch Steve's downcast gaze. To make sure he's okay.
"Hey, Steve, look, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. I shouldn't have overstepped. I'm so sorry," says Eddie, gently placing his hands on Steve's shoulders to offer a reassuring touch. There are now silent tears rolling down Steve's cheeks, but he brings himself to meet Eddie's gaze nevertheless.
"No, no, Eddie, you didn't. It's just- How did you know?" Steve asks, somewhat hesitantly.
"Because," Eddie moves his hands up to cup Steve's face, looking at Steve like he's trying to see straight into his soul, "because I see you, Steve Harrington."
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