Books I’ve Read Since Starting T, 2024

Dear video essay creators. A video analysis is when you analyze a piece of media. No no look at me. A summary, no matter how thorough, is not an analysis. An analysis requires you to draw conclusions about the media such as authorial intent, real-world parallels, discussion about themes/worldbuilding/character motivation, and so much more. You have to stop summarizing something and saying that’s analysis. The Gaylors are doing more critical analysis than you. Is that who you want to lose to? The gaylors?

part 4 of BSD rollerskating AU! Chuuya

his face looks weird i dont know how to draw chuuya this is like my 3rd time drawing him

Proud adult (me)

BSD rollerskating AU! Elise

she is a menace..

akutagawa, climbing through the agency's window:

kunikida: hold it right there

akutagawa, scowling: i am not here for conflict, though i will not hesitate if it arises--

kunikida: yeah i know; ur here to see atsushi

akutagawa: i most certainly am NOT-

kunikida, ignoring him: well you can't see him today

akutagawa, immediately forgetting his protests: you wish to keep me apart from him--

kunikida: look, brat, atsushi is in trouble right now, he can't see you--

akutagawa, worried and angry: is he hurt? why did no one inform--

kunikida: what? no!

kunikida: he did something reckless, so he's in trouble. his punishment is that he can't see you

akutagawa:

akutagawa: what

kunikida: but since your already here, here's the agency's grocery list for the week

akutagawa:

kunikida: you can see atsushi again next week

akutagawa:

akutagawa: does it matter which brands i get or--

sorry for the quality I expected this to just be a doodle

My brain hates sleeping

Okay, lemme try and answer the question of why Dazai abused Akutagawa.

This is such a debated topic in the fandom sob

Dazai never apologized to Akutagawa, or really did anything to say sorry about how he abused him.

Why?

Well, let's take a look at Dazai's debut.

The answer is staring yall in the face.

Dazai says that he wants a painless suicide, yeah, but there's one part that usually overlooked.

He wants a painless suicide that doesn't bother anyone.

So what if him abusing Akutagawa is on purpose? To make him hate him?

Dazai doesn't want to be missed. That's why he said that he has no regrets when he died in BEAST.

By abusing Akutagawa, he can make Akutagawa hate him, and Atsushi somewhat feel conflicted about him.

That way, once he finally dies, no one will miss him.

Note: Him being the reason that Murase died could be a hing to make Chuuya hate him that failed or smthing... idk...

dazai osamu i love you so much