From Max Stone's Chapbook, Temporary Preparations, Available From Bottlecap Press!

without you

“I’m better off without you” were the last words you ever told me.

The last words from my favourite person.

The last words before my life went to the lowest point it’s ever been.

You were the one person i was sure i could trust, the one person i could always listen to and the one person i could always talk to.

You.

It was always you, everytime somone asked who i‘m texting, who i‘m thinking about, who i see as my best friend, i‘d say your name. But then on that day, the day exactly we met 5 years ago. You texted me „I‘m better off without you“ because someone you met less than a month ago told you lies about me, so obvious lies, things you should know I’d never do after knowing me for so long. After basically being my second half, and yet you still believed them.

You make the simplest things magnanimous.

A small acknowledgement from you

Feels like seeing my name written in the sky,

A smile from you,

is a salve for my wounded heart.

A minute spent with you

feels like a lifetime,

Even holding your hand

feels like having you in bed.

I wish you could feel

how you make me feel.

I wish you could experience

the volumes of ecstacy you give me

So you would know what a privilage it is

to be loved by you.

These I have loved

A great tall girl, full of blue

Inviting lips, sweet to the eye but never tasted

Glasses that were black but now are pink

A voice of the ocean, Like waves hitting the breakwater

Of hair so perfect, Aphrodite should blush

A figure akin to the sun setting on the horizon

A connection so deep, the ocean has nothing on it

The future that lights up my nighttime

A conversation of Apple's and taste

Two people so together- hot and cold water

The sound of soothing poetry

A great tall girl

Yes,

These I have loved

Twenty seconds of courage that's all you need, twenty seconds

Playing for keeps

I wanted to write honestly what I really think of the girl I love so I did, I won't be able to tell but hear Tumblr

when I think about sunshine and laughter  it is your face that comes to my mind.

I'm holding you tightly so you don't slip away away, I think  I'm holding on too tight my finger lingering slowly up, it strokes your soft hand, along your cheeks, I twist my finger around your hair. damn, I forgot  you don't like that.

I see something in your eyes fuck, I'm stranded in an art museum.

I'm alone in your garden and my head is full of you. I like you too much I want you all to myself. What is your dream, this world. Our Dreamworld. The garden we are laying seeds down for. I think, what if one day I have to forget your eyes? Your voice ?   I wonder will I lose you? I'm holding on so tight, it feels like I'm fighting a whole city.

The seeds, what will happen to the seeds I'm planting. the trees, the flowers, the lilies, the roses, the sunflowers and avo trees - they always were too expensive in shops. will they have blossomed? Have you tasted its fruit? will I have to tear it down, Will I have to burn this garden too? I can't,

I will water it forever and wait but what if you return only with a firestick? My tears fill up rivers for you. But my feelings fill the ocean. Is this an endless garden? don't plant thistles or ivy! My heart pains, I hate tearing down gardens, Have I already? Tell me what it is that you see? In the mirror I see, no lily, no rose, no sunflower. I turn and see baby blue Cadillacs driven by peg-legged nuns on pogo sticks. I lay my head on your heart I hear one, two, three heartbeats.

Will I be turned into a person who's text is left on read. but don't worry I say. I will never say a word

“It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want.”

- Unknown

“I have no enemies, but my friends don’t like me.”

— Philip Larkin