Me When I Lose All My Spirit And Spunk, Become The Shell Of Who I Used To Be, Be Berated, Scorned, And

me when i lose all my spirit and spunk, become the shell of who i used to be, be berated, scorned, and hated for trying to help my sister (who explictly stated that this couldn’t be shared with anyone else because our community hates mixed couples) (my husband kept secrets from me too), be disowned and despised by my remaining adoptive sons, who are part of a prophecy, lose my adoptive daughter (who hates me) nearly get killed by my stalker ex, have my husband possessed by said stalker ex, be a deputy to my community for years, but be discredited and criticized when put as the main leader temporarily, have my husband refuse to talk to me, treat me like a child, watch my daughter become disclosed after she loses her husband, and have to lead my clan after my husband is shaken after being taken to hell