✨this✨
I really don't hear enough people talk about the fact that Shadowheart was not only brainwashed as a child, but had her memories repeatedly wiped. This isn't just your run of the mill reeducation. Like we're talking about having your brain literally tampered with by magic on a metaphysical level which is so incredibly violating and just on a completely different level than the typical indoctrination you see an average cultist goes through.
Your memories and lived experience is fundamentally responsible for shaping the kind of person you are. We see how important memories are with Durge because once they lost their memories, they were no longer the same person and became someone entirely new. Shadowheart was frequently subjected to memory wipes since she was kidnapped as a child, forced to adopt Sharran dogma, and every time she started remembering things about her past or strayed from their teachings, they'd take her memories away again. Imagine the only memories you're allowed to keep are the ones your abusers let you, as they continue to alter your perception of reality in order for you to stay obedient to their control. This is gaslighting on a level we have literally never seen before irl.
It's no wonder Shadowheart says the things she says, and yet, somehow, against the strict doctrines and manipulation that's been hammered into her for decades, she always ends up reverting back to her true self. From Viconia's journal:
No matter how hard they tried, they couldn't erase the good in her. It's honestly impressive Shadowheart is able to fight the brainwashing to this extent. And when she's left alone for once with people who are patient with her and make her feel safe, when she's given enough time to find herself again without being reset back to square one every time she gained an inch? She thrives.
You know what? Fuck it.
Githyanki Cleric of Selune
Romance~
this is the kinda dumbassery I got up to in my first playthrough like 💀
Submitted for consideration: the funniest place to find out Shadowheart is a Shar worshipper?
Forever convinced bg3 is just dao for a modern audience. Here's my reasons as comparisons between party members:
Morrigan/Shadowheart: trauma goth girls
Leliana/Shadowheart: religion + flowers = adorkable loser that's obsessed w/you
Alistair/Wyll: precious cinnamon rolls that are too good for the rest of us (but with ✨secrets✨)
Alistair/Gale: will kill you with awkwardness and kindness (and maybe cheese)
Alistair/Astarion: pretty hair bois
Zevran/Astarion: elves with KNIVES and sexy accents
Sten/Lae'zel: dude with big sword that doesn't understand local customs
Dog/Scratch/Owlbear: this one's obvious
Wynne/Jaheira: easily the smartest person in the group, will totally judge when you fuck up, gives great mom advice
Leliana/Karlach: would definitely love to shop together, Karlach would prob think Leli's sense of style is nuts tho (she seems more practical to me idk and we all know what Orlesians are like)
Morrigan/Halsin: turns into bear, is scary
Ready to kneel before your new goddess of Silver and Shadow? Good, because in just a few days, my new smut fic drops, featuring you, dear reader, and goddess Shadowheart. 🙏
The collection is complete!!! This series of portraits took so long 😭 but I am happy with how they turned out 🥲💕
These will all be available as prints when my shop launches on Friday! And, if you’re interested in a giveaway for the whole set, check out my instagram (same username!) where we’re celebrating 15k 🥰
I HAVE RISEN FROM THE DEAD
and by that I mean I'm back from my self-imposed social media/writing hiatus. An update may be coming soon for my bg3 fic, but in the meantime... Is mass effect still popular? 🤔
"Would u still love me if I was a worm" energy
stop treating killing dragons as this act of bravery and valor. maybe ou should be kissieng and loving the dragons instead. and be more niceys
obsessed with Shadowheart (she/her, 26) AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/Nightingale_N7/profile
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