Twelve Years Of It, In Azkaban.

YOU'RE NOT. I LOVE U TOO. he literally made me so makes me so mad holy shit. Both in choices AND i'm canon they let him get away with too fucking much just cause he was the "leader" of the good side

If I could fist fight Dumbledore right now I’d do it

obsessed with post first war wolfstar and remus. need a long fic detailing prisoner of azkaban from remus' pov. need remus haunted by his friends' ghosts, sirius' escape and break ins, the months of agonising, FINALLY reuniting with sirius. this is where the money is people.

did i finish season 2 of arcane or did season 2 of arcane finish me. What the fuck did I just experience what the actual fuck

funniest part of act 3 is the entire montage where we see how fucking beautiful life without jayce and hextech are, how much happier and better everyone is for it. then cutting to jayce STRUGGLING for his life getting a karmic beatdown like yes. hell yeah.

rewatching gof bc i watched poa in theatres yesterday and am watching ootp in theatres tomorrow. and im getting to the scene where harry goes into the pensieve and goes to the court room. and like i’ve seen this scene many times but. “mr rosier is dead” and it’s like. it’s hitting me bc oh he died in the ministry of magic. the attack on the ministry. where regulus got injured and james went to see him and…like i forget that canon compliant fics take place in canon and that harry potter is canon…therefore these events take place after the fanon canon compliant events. and that regulus black and james potter were in love in this fanon canon universe. and that regulus black was present when evan rosier died and his death being referenced in gof is a reference to the attack on the ministry in choices which is not canon but could exist in canon because choices is canon compliant. and jegulus is real not because jkr wrote them into the canon hp books, but because the magical wizarding universe itself that exists itself is thing and they existed in that universe in choices. so they exist in hp movies too…technically

“You really care about him?”

James’s mouth forms another sad smile. “I really do.”

Ao3

me reading choices, knowing it's canon compliant, reading regulus believe him and james' love is doomed:

NOOOOO BABY YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY ITS GONNA WORK OUT STOP IT STOP 😭😭😭😭 YOU'RE NOT DOOMED YOU'RE NOT 😭😭😭

definitely don't read it and protect your peace. i absolutely loved choices and it makes sense that in a canon compliant world he somehow has to be able to move on from regulus. but ohmygod. the love they had was so magical and beautiful and seamless and then it crashed and then boom hes with lily. AND ITS ALL WRITTEN SO WELL THAT LIKE. THE WRITING WAS ON THE WALL BUT U ARE STILL FLABBERGASTED. I was clawing at my chest praying for death to just take me honestly.

One of my favourite things about Choices is how thoroughly interwoven jily and jegulus are. they're always present like a lingering shadow but I wish we had seen more of the time inbetween the end of jegulus and the start of Jily. The guilt James must have felt at moving on, despite everything that went down between him and Regulus. the fact that it was with LILY, who regulus always felt insecure about. And when I think about it too much my heart aches.

Because it was truly so insane. Like I think it hit him so hard. because he loved regulus, truly loved him. Regulus had him, unconditionally, with no strings or games, all of him. and all james wanted was for him to love him back more than he hated himself. more than he was scared. to try another path. to not give up. and he had SO much hope for them, that they would work. And in those moments with Regulus he just felt so full and so happy and then Regulus was gone and left this humongous hole in his life and the only person that can fill it is the very person Regulus was always scared was really meant for james.

hardest part of watching arcane for me is having to admit that heimerdinger was right. For all his flaws he predicted exactly what the hexcore and magic would end up doing to their society. His issue was that for all the wisdom his experience and aged lent him, it robbed him of empathy for humans. Yes he cared, but he failed to understand the human desire for progress, that we don't have hundreds of years to sit around and test things and he conveyed just how little he empathised in every conversation. But ultimately he really was right and it's a bitter pill to swallow.