Happy Birthday To The Queen, 9.2

Someone put it in words for me. THIS. I'm able to finally see the other side and I love that cause why would I want to believe that everyone just fucking hates me? I can finally see a possibility. Growing up, I had to learn when a classmates words were theirs vs. the adults around them. I learned to tell when classmates were forced to no longer be around me, and honestly, it felt better to hate their parents than to hate them. I took those words as someone's else's that so happened to come from the nice big kid in school. I know their nice. I've seen them, be it.

I relate to Billy a lot. Dealt with a lot of abuse and prejudice from my father. I wasn't able to fix my thought process until I left, and I know that it's possible in real life cause I've seen it. So why can't I make Billy do the same? I was friends with a dude for over eight years. His mother told him we couldn't be friends cause I was after his money. (He's gay and at the time, I was dating strictly femme). He listened to everything his mother said about me when she only met me for an hour. He started looking back on how she acted, and he deemed her unsafe for me to be around. We just had to wait for college to rekindle our friendship when she wasn't around and couldn't dictate him.

I went off track cause my brain started unlocking shit but I would much rather believe that my bullies like Billy were going through the same shit like me and just couldn't do anything til they got out. Until they got the help they needed. Some of now are fucking civil rights activists and they help counsel people who are struggling with bigotry. I have seen it happen in real life, so why can't this fictional character do the same in my head?

Y'know what's funny about people insisting you can't like Billy because there are real life people bullied by people like him?

I've been bullied by people like him.

I grew up black in a backwater town, dudes like him were fucking everywhere. To this day there's a set of twins that only I can tell apart reliably because I got in a fight with one and scarred his eyebrow. They both acted just like him, bullied me for the same shit he does in canon.

But you know what?? Viewing it through a fictional lense allows me to make a distance I couldn't with my real life bullies. I can take that step back and begin to empathize with him because this ISN'T real life. I can see the factors that are making him act like he does and it then helps me connect it back to those real life people. How many of them were hurting down deep? How many of them were scared kids on the wrong end of their Dad's belt? How many of them could have benefitted from someone taking the time to reach out?

And that is what fiction is SUPPOSED to do. Give you the distance to consider a perspective you might not be able to see in your day to day life. And I don't know about y’all but it makes healing a little bit easier for me when I consider that the person who hurt me might just have been a scared kid too.

acesan nation this one is for you

A splash of color

just some silliness on my part; I make up my own little this and that's as I draw normally - some which goes completely unnoticed because of how I draw, some which shows - and I like keeping it all collected + I always enjoy seeing what others roll with, so maybe someone will enjoy this too.

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MERLIN notes: - I like to always keep his hair visibly curly, much like Colin's own hair is. I also prefer drawing it with some length; nothing crazy, just not the short-short stuff although I love how it looks in the show. - he's supposed to be a bit pale so I've landed in a cooler palette (hopefully) without making him look sickly or as if he's never seen the sun. - ARTISTIC CHOICE the outer lines of his eyes have golden specks/dots/pattern. nothing that would strike as suspicious as there's multiple people with yellow/light brown/golden patterns in their eyes. this is to play off that he's made of magic. these parts reacts by "sparkling" (I don't posses a better word for it) when hit by harsh light or as he experience strong emotions. - I loved how large his ears appeared especially in earlier seasons, so sorry but under my pen he'll never grow into them. same goes for his high cheekbones; in the series you can tell he's softening up in the face/doesn't look like a skinny fresh-outa-puberty kid no more, but I like the shape it gives with some hollowness.

ARTHUR notes: - his hair is also kept on the longer side, especially by the neck. his fringe tend to touch his eyebrows when I draw, or at least ain't far away haha. eyebrows are also fairy light. - I like the little fandom-agreement that he's tan from hours in the sun, so his palette is warmer; also adds a nice contrast to Merlin stylistically. with this in mind would he 100% have some sick tan-lines. - ARTISTIC CHOICE Uther's actor has (sectoral) heterochromia so bet I'll add that to any art of Arthur hereby where his eyes shows. a nice little family-thing which I would believe made him feel empowered as a child - a clear indicator to being is fathers son even at the worst of times. in later years, while having to try and fill his fathers shoes and try and right his wrongs all at the same time, I think it would feel more like a prison and taunt. - ARTISTIC CHOICE freckles under the eyes. a little dormant during winters and dark days but very much there during summers. the smaller kind though, and easy to miss unless you get close.

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Day 1 - April 9: South of Heaven - Slayer

ART

[/] Stuck in the Upside Down (Twitter) by Akichania

[/] Stuck in the Upside Down / Getting out of the Upside Down Together (Tumblr) by @ihni

[/] Upside Down (Twitter) by @kazhan-draws

[/] Upside Down (Tumblr) by @mispatchedgreens

FIC

[/] Puppet with strings of gold (AO3) by @lorifragolina

[/] Teeth (Tumblr) by @nymphwriter

[/] Upside Down (Tumblr) by @greyghoulclub

[M] Are These Demons In The Room With Us? (AO3) by @half-oz-eddie

[M] Ghost (AO3) by @billyharringson

[M] Same Side, But Too Different. (AO3) by WritingFrenzyHell

Billy is theee worst at confessing his feelings

@2015

when someone likes ur post and doesn’t reblog

reblog if you are ok with mass booping

I can finally share this. Got 100 on my assignment so here's

Maxine Mayfield by William A. Byers Found in the Dairy of Jane B. Hopper

Early Puritans Will drew his new neighbor Maxine while in the fields outside their school for her friend back home

//TIME IS TICKING.

WE ONLY HAVE A FEW DAYS UNTIL KOSA IS DETERMINED. THERE IS A HUGE AUDIENCE OF PEOPLE TRYING TO PASS THIS BILL, BUT THE INTERNET IS BIGGER!

WE NEED ALL THE SUPPORT WE CAN GET.

CALL REPRESENTATIVES, TELL FAMILY, FRIENDS, MOOTS, LITERALLY EVERYONE YOU CAN.

IF THE BILL PASSES, THE INTERNET WILL BE CHANGED AS WE KNOW IT. IT WILL NOT MATTER IF YOU ARE OUT OF THE US. MANY FANDOM SPACES ARE IN AMERICAN DOMAIN.

YOU WILL NOT BE SAFE FROM USING A DIFFERENT EMAIL, ACCOUNT, ANYTHING. STOP BELIEVING THAT. THIS BILL WANTS CONTROL AS FAR BACK AS TRACING US BACK TO NAMES, AGES, GOVERNMENT IDS AND LICENSE PLATES.

YOU WILL NOT BE SAFE BECAUSE, “OH THIS BILL CAN’T PASS IT VIOLATES THE 1ST AMENDMENT!”. THEY HAVE PASSED UNCONSTITUTIONAL BILLS. YOU WILL NOT BE SAFE BECAUSE “OH, THIS BILL HASN’T PASSED FOR 2 YEARS!” THEY ARE AGGRAVATED. THEY ARE PUSHING FOR THIS BILL.

DO NOT FORGET KOSA MERELY BECAUSE A LACK OF UPDATES. I NEED YOU TO SIGN PETITIONS, CALL REPRESENTATIVES. DONT FORGET. I WANT YOU TO MAKE AS MUCH NOISE ABOUT KOSA POSSIBLE. DO NOT. FORGET. WE HAD THE TIME TO KEEP TALKING ABOUT KOSA, AND YET WE FORGOT BECAUSE OF A LACK OF UPDATES. THAT BRIEF TIME WAS NOT A COOLDOWN PERIOD. IT WAS A TIME TO KEEP KOSA TRENDING.

STOP GOING ON TIKTOK, COMMENTING “B00ST” AND THEN CALLING IT A DAY. YES THAT HELPS, BUT YOU NEED TO DO WHAT 90% OF THESE VIDEOS WANT YOU TO DO. SIGN PETITIONS. CALL REPRESENTATIVES. THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS POST ABOUT KOSA YOURSELF.