Nyxoholic666 - Chaos & Ink

bitches will be like “my ot3 💕💕” and it’s a woman who could murder them, a guy who hasn’t had a good night’s sleep in six years, and another guy who almost got both of the other two murdered. it’s me i’m bitches

i think the aesthetic echo chamber created by tumblr is more dangerous than the political one bcs im self aware enough to kno my politics r radical but then me and the girlies are on here reblogging body horror and very weird erotic poetry and i get offline and interact w a real person and jokingly say something like fungus is tangibly divine in the way it facilitates the eternal dance of creation and destruction which is really creation as or by destruction and theyre like what the hell are you talking about freak. the aesthetic barrier between me and a girl in a vineyard vines tee is literally insurmountable. i find the trout to be a very nietzschean fish

This is the hill I have decided to die on

literally my favorite type of tweet

diary of a wimpy kid is dark academia bc it’s about a depressed artist pursuing his education

tumblr is the safest social media to open in public bc nobody recognises its interface. if u recognise it thats ur problem

It’s meme time babey!!

All that is gold does not glitter,

Not all those who wander are lost;

The old that is strong does not wither,

Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,

A light from the shadows shall spring;

Renewed shall be blade that was broken,

The crownless again shall be king.

Jude's character also made me realize just how lazy of a main character F/eyre is. While F/eyre might initiate certain scenes, she remains utterly stagnant within them. F/eyre chooses to kill Andras, but then she doesn't do anything else, things happen to her, and she is pushed around. She makes the decision to go UTM, she does nothing after that, things happen to her. F/eyre is absolutely stagnant UTM. You know what would have been a very cool scene, if F/eyre was the one who bargained with R/hysand, if she were the one to come up with a plan when she realized that R/hys needed her. If F/eyre was learning about the politics of the Fae world, if she demanded to be let in because she's their only hope. That would make it so much more convincing that R/hys fell in love with her. If F/eyre exerted her obvious power over R/hys. If F/eyre showed that type of control over her fate...it would have been badass. That is a good main character.

Jude immediately recognizes her power in situations. When she bargains with Dain. Yes, she at a disadvantage, but she's also in a position that she can bargain with.

F/eyre is not active within the scenes, even if she initiates them. F/eyre never earns anything, things are given to her. And while Jude is not the perfect protagonist, and while I have my critiques, Jude does things, she learns, and her wants manifest with her making the decisions to act within the scenes. It's true that things happen to Jude, but what makes her different from F/eyre is that Jude also affects those actions, she learns from what others do to her.

So what does Jude want? She wants power. How does that manifest? She wants to be a knight. And the plot of the story follows around that.

In TAR, what does F/eyre want? We...don't know. She thinks of safety in the first four chapters, but her actions literally conflict this. When she kills Andras, that's out of survival, and when she goes UTM, it's a decision made mostly out of guilt. It doesn't say anything about F/eyre. The story straight-up won't commit to a core value for her. And it would be easy to characterize her like Jude. F/eyre wants power. It's the truth of her character, but SJM employs a misplaced sense of altruism and virtuosity. Nothing F/eyre does actually says anything about her because she's a lazy character. She'll start the scene, and then will do nothing after.

F/eyre wants to be High Lady of Spring, but she literally does nothing to show that she wants that. When she's introduced to Tamlin's court, she ignores them. She's completely disinterested in the most important parts of being a leader. Tamlin won't let you out? Okay, how is F/eyre going around that? Does she inquire about Tamlin through associates? Ask around, and play that role of Lady just to get more information? Maybe she learns concerning information about Tamlin through her constant inquiry. Does she talk to the nobility? Glean information when Tamlin won't tell her? Talk to Ianthe or gossip with her just to find out about court dynamics. If she asks the right questions, she could literally find out that Tamlin has a dark past while the story concurrently shows his devolving behavior.

It's okay if she fails, or if she gains nothing, but that type of characterization would literally make sense. It would make F/eyre a clever, learning, and interesting character. If she's sneaking around, doing xyz, we learn way more about F/eyre....and she grows.

So when Tamlin becomes more abusive, F/eyre is already actively seeking ways to get out, to be free. And when we get M/or coming to rescue her...it is F/eyre saving herself. Yes, she has no power, but she's not a damsel, she's a survivor. It's F/eyre exerting control (and even if she doesn't she's still a strong person for leaving, or being recused, but for what the story is arguing...having F/eyre be the one to make her own opinions on Tamlin rather than told by R/hysand is way more feminist and powerful).