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Thank you SFM, with you I'm able to cheat with everything...

'' Is this real or cake ? '' I say as i plunge my knife into scout tf2

hey since you’ve posted two pieces in a row about my boy Scout I was wondering if maybe you could write more your thoughts/your hcs about him? I think he’s really interesting and I don’t often see people realize that he’s more complex that what he seems, like this man just seems very sad inside. i really like your analyses and your takes are some of my favorites

hope you have a good day!

Appreciate it! Although I probably won't say anything particularly new... Okay, let's talk about Scout!

Though he no doubt wears the persona of a confident cool guy, protecting his ego from vulnerability, I wouldn't say there's sadness inside him. More accurate would be fear.

People with sadness baggage are pretty passive and quiet. And Scout's reaction is to hit, run, scare away, cling anxiously to the object of security. That's fear. He's fearful.

He doesn't think about it much, he's a pretty happy guy in the environment he's in. But if something makes him go off the rails and he starts, God forbid, thinking.....

His core fear is not living up to his place in the world. He knows there's a place for him, but for some reason he feels like people think he's not good enough to take it. Anyone better and stronger could take his place at any time. He's on bird's rights here.

Growing up with older brothers, being not good at school, being the smallest and youngest mercenary of the team, this feeling doesn't leave him ever. It's a tiresome inner struggle: "How do I make my stay secure?", "How do I become worthy?"

Falling into this cognitive trap of searching for self validation in the outside world instead of inside of himself, he was doomed to be stuck in ambivalence:

To continue to pretend, risking being exposed as an imposter, or to be sincere and inevitably endure the unbearable pain of rejection and loneliness?

He laughs and taunts and overexplains himself so much. He clings to the only thing he's better than everyone at. He overcompensates; he demands attention and tries to make himself bigger. He hates being alone as it basically feels like being actually pushed off his place in the world. He clings to people but immediately pushes them away for being too dangerously close to finding out his fears. He needs to be with everyone to know and to control what they think about him.

And it never makes him calm down anyway, since all those efforts take a lot of energy. Tiresome to be, tiresome to pretend. And the prize is nowhere near the sight.

This loop of pain will never end, unless he breaks the very core mindset of his. The answer is stepping into this fear, but he can't even think about it! It feels like death! His ego will die and it's going to feel like he's dying as a whole.

A full existential, primal fear of an child to be rejected by his parent. "Not worthy of living".

(Based on the Lise Bourbeau's model of 5 soul wounds: Abandonment)

Just wanted to say I loved your portal crossover drawings with TF2 a while back. Cave and Caroline looked spectacular (as did all the Tf2 crew)!

Thank you so much!

I love how similar portal 2 and tf2 are in many aspects, like. The eccentric moron CEO? The assistant who doesn't respect herself but will do anything for her boss? Wacky ass inventions? Random superpower elements (moon rocks, australium)? Medical malpractice (mantis dna / baboon hearts)???

If you think about it, Black Mesa also is a hilariously dumb facility. Like, they weren't even joking as much in hlvrai, what the hell are those pira cutter rooms? Random goo crushing press? Nothing is OSHA approved. Wtf are these for?😭

The orangeboxverse is just inherently funny.

Loved

Yeah, perfectly logical.

Sniper doesn't have any skincare although he spent all of his life frying inder the sun. Bro's gonna die from cancer once the respawn machine is off. He also smokes, pretty excessively, I assume. Always dehydrated (saturated color of jarate). Probably eats the same foods (just meat he hunted down and nothing else? Veggies who?). Doesn't exercise. Plus he's a lonely loner abd there's no way he's not struggling mentally too (definitely affects your physical body in many ways).

And Scout is very healthy compared to that. Always running, keeps himself fresh and flexible. Doesn't smoke (or at least very little, unless he wouldn't be able to run that fast and for so long). Very active and reactive, so I'd say his a pretty happy guy overall. Can't really say anything about other habits, but I'm guessing he knows how to keep himself happy, he's a sport junkie after all.

So it's neither a secret nor a mystery why one of them is an early grandpa and the other one is a babyface. We're comparing neglected houseplant to a dandelion.

Okay, so ykno how in game cosmetics, Sniper looks a lot older than Scout? Well, not to sound like a nerd but a possible reason for this is the difference between their lifestyles.

Sniper grew up in Australia and now he's in New Mexico, that's a lot of sun, and I doubt that man has taken proper steps to avoid sun damage. He's in decent shape, but not like Scout, speaking of which, he grew up in Boston, and as far as I know, it doesn't get too sunny there. He also runs like, a lot.

I know this doesn't explain everything and it could be more comprehensive and less "thrown together last minute" but I don't feel like it. Yall get the gist.

In the act of uniting the souls in pure rage and hatred ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

!!SPOILERS FOR ANOMALY DIVERSION CHAPTER 3!!

!!TRIGGER WARNING FOR BLOOD AND VIOLENCE!!

Please read Anomaly Diversion, it’s such a good fanfic I could go on forever about it

Uwahhh!! I know the newest chapter came out about 4 days ago, and it’s kinda fast, but I wanted to do something almost immediately after reading it.

I tried something new with coloring this time. It took forever, but I enjoyed doing it.

Cosmetics: Thermal Tracker (Scout) ~ Snow Sleeves (Sniper)

Anomaly Diversion by @oblique-lane

"I'm only valuable when..." of TF2 mercs

Personal mental stereotypes they follow, yet will never admit aloud. An analysis:

(Headcanons but I tried to be as compliant as possible)

Scout: I'm only valuable when people see me as cool and tell me that I'm cool... 'Cuz that means, it must be true...

(Constantly comparing himself to everyone, barely knows his true self, struggles to be alone)

Pyro: I'm only valuable when I have friends to care about! If there's none... It's so cold and lonely...

(Fear of abandonment? Fear of betrayal. Urges for revenge)

Soldier: I'm only valuable when my community needs me! I am all about loyalty and faith!

(Strongly identifies with the place or beliefs he belongs to, constantly feels threatened.)

Demo: I'm only valuable when people find me fun to be around. As soon as it gets sad, everyone leaves.

(Numbing his emotional pain in substances because he has no idea how to handle it, especially since these emotions push people away time and time again. Feelings of helplessness.)

Heavy: I am only valuable when I can protect people. Although I understand, when people are able to stand for themselves, it feels like my purpose is gone...

(Being protective is his identity. If he's not a big human shield for the people he cares about, who is he?)

Engineer: I'm only valuable when my ideas become reality. While I'm still alive, my mission in life is to make as many creations as I can.

(His work is more important than his personhood. He's the Engineer first, Connagher last)

Medic: I'm only valuable when people need very specific solutions to very specific situations. Let's say, some of these situations were also a work of mine.

(Too genius of a mind struggles to fit into the "normal" flow of things. Extending what's possible.)

Sniper: I'm only valuable when I'm useful. When my help is irreplaceable. Otherwise, why am I even here?

(Struggles with "fitting in" and finding a community/genuine connections. Doesn't believe there's anything to him besides his work)

Spy: I'm only valuable when people can look up on me, when they admire me and want to be like me. Or, otherwise, when they hate me and believe that I'm the only cause of their suffering. It's never too much when it comes to praise.

(Extremely fragile ego)

Interloper Discord atrocities

I am not calming down about these....... (send help)