Online Friends Are So Cute Like You'll Prolly Just Say 'hi' And They'll Be Like 'HEY HI BESTIE I LOVE

i'm so glad RED TV is coming out soon. finally i'll be able to be traumatized ~taylor's version~

i kinda felt that on a personal level.

i’m so mad bc someone asked me what the last song i’ve listened to and it’s beach boy by knox hamilton and turns out it’s a tiktok song that i didn’t even know was a tiktok song. this is why i hate tiktok i cannot even enjoy music anymore without everyone assuming i got it from tiktok, it’s a plague on society.

was listening to spotify and realized

"we're dancin' in the kitchen in the refrigerator light" - taylor swift (all too well)

and

"fridge light washes this room white, moon dances over your good side." - harry styles (two ghosts)

the love club / ribs / stoned at the nail salon

You don't memorize taylor swift lyircs you absorb them until they're a part of you

when olivia said “kinda wanna throw my phone across the room, cause all i see are girls too good to be true with paper white teeth and perfect bodies, wish i didn't care”

i thought “kinda wanna throw my book across the room, cause all i see are types to hard to be learnt with F, B and sin and electrical tubes, wish i didn't live”

i'm more like ohhh strange meme pics to send my non existent friends like these:

obsessed with the concept of pinterest. like oooooh pretty pictures let me sort you into little boxes and get unrealistic amounts of joy from it

when mitski said “i was so young when i first behaved 25” and taylor said but i knew everything when i was young and when she also said “how can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22” and when lorde said “it drives you crazy getting old”

im experiencing jealousy but the kind where im not even sure if its actually jealousy. i dont know whether its longing for how things used to be, or being happy that they've changed. ive spent so long convincing myself to consider them a stranger with who i shared some memories.

so why do i feel myself burning when i see pictures them with other people, why-whenever i see them having fun with other people-do i feel the need to have my friends beside me just to prove a point. i feel like such a middle schooler because opening up ig to see pictures of them at parties and stuff makes me..jealous? angry? sad? bcoz its like those pictures and captions are targeted at me. they're an indirect way of saying i moved on, and im over u. so why am i still not?

why do i feel the need to go to the mall, buy clothes i shouldn't be wearing and take pictures with guys i shouldnt be hanging around with? i thank well, thats exactly what she's doing, i'll just move it up a notch. but despite it all, im still thinking about her. whether its jealousy, anger or sadness-maybe all at once-it's all because of her. and i hate her. but i feel like such a goddamn whiny child. i cant help it.

Finja Brandenburg // unknown