Love As Violence

i’m okay with change and i’m fine if things are no longer the same i embrace change

Another Woman, Hannah Bonner

Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

Anne Carson, from “The Glass Essay”, Glass, Irony, and God

2024

EAT EMPTINESS IF IT EATS AT YOU

SYMPATHETIC MAGIC IS STRONGEST ON YOURSELF, YOU ARE YOUR ITERATED DOUBLE

(IT TAKES TIME)

YOU ARE SOMETHING OTHER THAN THE NETWORK OF THE SYSTEMS THAT AT ONCE GIVE YOU A LIFE AND MAKE IT YOURS; TO UNDERSTAND AND UTILIZE THEM WILL NOT IMPRISON YOU IN THE MONOTONOUS END OF YOUR DESPERATE-TO-COME-ALIVE POETICS AND UNRECREATABLE GESTALT MEANINGS BUT RENDER THE PHYSICS OF YOUR WORLD A REARTICULATABLE MEDIUM ON WHICH TO KNEAD AND BAKE THE RESTLESSNESS YOU ARE TRYING TO SEEK IN THE GLOW OF THE EMERGENCY EXIT, I.E., YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW THE NARRATIVE TO NARRATE

IT MIGHT HELP TO KNOW WHAT YOU ARE RUNNING FROM

FLOODED PLAIN; HOLD FAST

INSIST ON A JOY THAT IS UNFORGETTABLE

REDUCE THE FREQUENCY WITH WHICH YOU LOOK BACK

KEEP DANCING

“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”

— Unknown

on shame and yearning (pt.2)

Camus: If someone here told me to write a book on morality, it would have a hundred pages and ninety-nine would be blank. On the last page I should write: “I recognize only one duty, and that is to love.” And, as far as everything else is concerned, I say no.

“Now my wishes are down to two: / Staying alive. And wanting to.”

— Traci Brimhall, from “Dear Thanatos,” Come the Slumberless To the Land of Nod (via lifeinpoetry)