Albert Camus, Letters To María Casares.

everything feels one room over

DECEMBER 2023 (What I was given I shall never now forget / But my heart knows I'll never live this again)

May Sarton / Saisho / David Levithan / Emily St. John Mandel + Syllabillin / Hanif Abdurraqib / Svend Svendsen / Nia Vardalos / Naomi Shihab Nye [8,15] / Laura Makabresku / Mary Oliver [10,20] / Andrei Dobrynin / Hélène Cixous / Clifton Rooney / Walk the Moon / Rainer Maria Rilke / Heikala / Gracie Abrams / quinnie / Iris Scott / Mark Oliver Everett / Sally Rooney / Sara Roberts / Ask Polly

Jon Ware, I Am In Eskew

2024

EAT EMPTINESS IF IT EATS AT YOU

SYMPATHETIC MAGIC IS STRONGEST ON YOURSELF, YOU ARE YOUR ITERATED DOUBLE

(IT TAKES TIME)

YOU ARE SOMETHING OTHER THAN THE NETWORK OF THE SYSTEMS THAT AT ONCE GIVE YOU A LIFE AND MAKE IT YOURS; TO UNDERSTAND AND UTILIZE THEM WILL NOT IMPRISON YOU IN THE MONOTONOUS END OF YOUR DESPERATE-TO-COME-ALIVE POETICS AND UNRECREATABLE GESTALT MEANINGS BUT RENDER THE PHYSICS OF YOUR WORLD A REARTICULATABLE MEDIUM ON WHICH TO KNEAD AND BAKE THE RESTLESSNESS YOU ARE TRYING TO SEEK IN THE GLOW OF THE EMERGENCY EXIT, I.E., YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW THE NARRATIVE TO NARRATE

IT MIGHT HELP TO KNOW WHAT YOU ARE RUNNING FROM

FLOODED PLAIN; HOLD FAST

INSIST ON A JOY THAT IS UNFORGETTABLE

REDUCE THE FREQUENCY WITH WHICH YOU LOOK BACK

KEEP DANCING

I look for you everywhere; small gestures made by all kinds of people in the street remind me of you, by their similarity as much as by their differences,

Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice‎

Alain de Botton, Essays in Love [transcript in ALT]

it’s small joys saturday y’all let’s get it

does anyone wanna hold hands until we feel a little braver

having to come to terms with the fact that love is not an everlasting performance in which you attempt to retain the attention of your significant other but rather a release of control and putting faith into them and trusting them to choose to stay with you no matter what you have to offer

me, vibrating out of my skin : hey can I talk to you about this piece of media real quick? I pinky promise I'll be So Normal about it, like there's no reason to be concerned that this will turn into a three hour long monologue. Like I Prommy that I'm not gonna be a freak about it.