So There Is Like A Lot Of Really Fantastic Spideypool Fanfiction I’m Soo Happy.  I’ve Been Reading

A Life Partner for Dean

Ugh, these two break my soul sometimes! Just thinking about what Dean's looking for in a love interest.  I think most of us can agree that love is a prominent theme currently and that there are a lot of indicators pointing to the fact that Dean is thinking about having someone in his life.  Someone to love. Personally, I feel that at this point in his life Dean is not looking for your typical love interest, especially after that episode where he attended the chastity group and said some pretty interesting things about his one night stands and always with the "adios." Dean has had a life time of sex and one night stands.  Sex was always one of his fun "go to" things to do.  Something he enjoyed, but now that he's older and after some poor experiences and the weight of always being alone after, sex doesn't seem that important to him at the moment.  There has been a distinct lack of it in the past few seasons to kind of support that. I feel that Dean is looking for not so much someone to just love....  I feel Dean is looking for a life partner. Literally, a partner in crime for life.   I think he is looking for someone who accepts him for who he is and who won’t back away, someone strong and who he trusts, someone who appreciates him and who he connects with, someone who understands him, even empathizes with him in some ways and won’t make him change, someone who wants to, can, and WILL spend the rest of their life with him.   I just see him wanting someone in his life who will ride off into the sunset with him, quietly in the passenger seat, enjoying each others' company while Baby plays some rock.  Someone who when he's done reading something, he goes to switch off the light next to him and glances over and someone is there, sleeping.  Someone who he can count on to be there with him for the remainder of their life. And I just can't help, but picture Cas in all of this.  :(  I just picture the two of them...   They'd be the kind of couple you meet on the street and you can instantly tell they're together and that they love each other on the deepest of levels, but they give no indication otherwise.  They don't look at each other, they don't touch each other.  They don't need to, but there just seems to be this unseen entity surrounding them, bonding them together profoundly and you just know.  And they know.   Ugh, sorry for my feels, they're just killing me!!!   As always, don't take anything I say to heart.  Just my ponderings, reflections, and feelings.  :)

The Spideypool Soul Mark AU that lives in my head lmao  

I love to just think about shit like this, but I don’t really have the motivation to write anything.  So here’s a picture instead and some of my soulmate AU head cannons! Wade’s Soul Mark:  

Wade doesn’t get his soul mark until Peter is born.  He is 7 at the time.  Prior to getting his soul mark, Wade is worried that since he hasn’t gotten one yet that he doesn’t have a soul mate and that no one will ever love him (as his father and classmates make him feel).   When he turns 7 he gets a very obvious soul mark.  It’s a serious of thin threads of spider silk covering his mouth and cupping the sides of his face and on the center of his tongue is a small black spider.  He gets made fun of as people tend to take it as even his soul mate can’t stand his talking and is metaphorically being told to stop talking.  Wade doesn’t see it like that.  He loves his soul mark, it feels like he is being claimed more than anything, the threads around his face feel like someone holding him.  He has no idea why the spider, but he can’t wait to meet his soul mate.   When he goes through Weapon X, the scarring and gore of his skin hide the thin threads of his soul mark that he loved.  Spiderman debuts in NY when Wade is 22.  He immediately falls and love and realizes exactly who his soul mate is supposed to be.  

Peter’s Soul Mark:

Peter is born with a scandalizing soul mark.  He doesn’t understand it as a child obviously and it’s not something that was discussed with him.  Eventually, when he is around 9 and sees a sleazy guy on the street slap a girl on the ass does it click what the large red and black hand print with the smiley face drawn in the middle (complete with artistic blush colored skin around it) that is on his left ass cheek is supposed to be....(in case it’s confusing, basically his soul mark is Wade’s hand print in black and red with a smiley face on it that is shaded to look like his ass is permanently slapped).

Needless to say, it is easy to understand that when Mary Jane Watson comes up to him some 9 years later and slaps him on his ass one day and starts up a flirtatious conversation with him he immediately assumes his soul mate is her.  The hand print is just as red as her hair too, come on, it’s gotta be her.   

And here’s what the soul mark looked like prior lol  I like him better in the first pic.  

Demon!Dean Brings Us Closer to Destiel!!!!! :D

So I see a lot of people are upset that Dean's a demon and that Destiel seems far away.     I personally feel like it's actually gotten closer, especially if you believe in the Dean/Cain parallels.   Dean wasn't a demon yet so he wasn't truly paralleling Cain.  Now that he's become a demon, we can actually have that parallel.   Now Cas is supposed to represent Collette in this parallel (I'd like to think we agree) and Collette loved Cain despite what he was.  We know that Cas has seen Dean at his worst in Hell, but I'm willing to bet that most casual watchers don't really remember that.  So having Dean actually as 100% demon is going to put him even further down than he was when Cas found him in Hell.   When Cas finds Dean and still accepts him and loves him even as a demon, then the audience will be reminded that Cas accepts Dean even at his worst, Cas' love for Dean will be even more epic, and when Cas breaks the MoC hold on Dean while he's FULLY demon and not just under the influence of the blade it's going to be SOOOOOOO much more powerful and undeniable.   I mean, we have a hard time dealing with their love as it is... Can you imagine if it just gets deeper?  It's going to make half the fandom just spontaneously combust in a gooey mess of feels.   I look forward to S10 :D

hobbies uwu 

Last Nights' Episode and Why I'm Excited! :D

I know some are upset at the fact that besides the hug, there really wasn't much Dean/Cas interaction and I understand your frustration.  We love this ship so much (sometimes more than we should :P  who am I kidding, is that even possible?) and we want to see it represented so badly in every scene that they're in together. I personally am not upset by last nights' episode, if anything it made me more excited for the last two episodes.  Here's why :) Part of the reason I don't think we got a lot of Dean/Cas cutesy stuff is because of the MoC.  It's been making Dean, not Dean.  That inwardly nerdy and super squishy guy in S8 and the beginning of S9 has been fading away, mostly because of the mark.   The same thing happened to Cain I'm sure, until Collette.  So if Dean was squishy with Cas last night, I personally would have actually found that a bit OOC and I would find his berserker transformation with the mark very inconsistent and less believable.   It also sets us up for a reverse!crypt scene.  If Dean was to be normal without the blade and only crazy when the blade is in hand then that would mean there is a still an integral part of himself that is surfaced and would most likely make any connection to the blade easier to break (as easy as knocking it from his hand), but with the blade changing him as a person as a whole even without the blade, makes it more like a mind control situation (similar to that of the S8 crypt scene). P.S. If Cas breaks his connection to the blade while Dean is in full MoC mode I will literally cry tears of happiness!!! The other reason I'm not really upset is that there was A LOT of important plot and character stuff they crammed into that episode last night.  That stuff needed to happen and I think in doing so, it gives us more room in the last 2 eps to work with, which I'm assuming are going to mostly focus on Metatron and the MoC.   These two things I feel are going to be very Team Free Will centered so there should be quite a bit of Dean/Cas interaction and will hopefully lead into some sort of Destiel type of thing.  I don't for see them being separated for too long during this time.  Cas is worried about Dean, and Sam and Dean are going to be helping Cas with the Metatron stuff, especially since Abaddon is out of the picture.   Side note: I have somewhat of a feeling that if they make a reverse!crypt scene in these last 2 eps that they're going to have another open ended question like last seasons' "What broke the connection?" except it's going to be like "in your face obvious" what they mean and there will be no way for them to interpret it any other way, reiterating the fact that their connection to each other is very important and then one of the character plot arcs in S10 will be dealing with their realization of what that connection truly is.   Anyways, not trying to change people's feelings on the episode (everyone's free to feel what they feel), but these are just my feelings on it and frankly I'm so stoked for the next to eps!!! :) ::crosses fingers for Destiel::

Do so long I wanted to make my entry for and at the same time I wanted to get experimental with coloring style.

Hope you like it 🥺

LMAO  I just realized in the new Spiderman/Deadpool issue, Wade literally made them drive in a heart shaped loop on their road trip at some point.  It’s in the center of his map XD  This series is a treasure in so many ways

Ezekiel & Lucifer

I just had a terrible thought (comes with me being all hyper about the new season!)....  You know how that other angel couldn't recognize Ezekiel?  And how Ezekiel was "wounded" during the fall?

What if Ezekiel is actually Lucifer (and it was a newer angel who had never seen him before his fall... or maybe they can't fully recognize each other in their meat suits and without wings) cast from the cage and injured from constantly fighting with Michael all this time?  

And now he's possessed Sam again and wants to ruin Sam, Dean, and Cas's relationships with each other for revenge while he heals his wounds from his battles with Michael.  

Tells Dean to keep Cas out, makes Dean lie and be all secretive to Sam.  Then when they're at their lowest and apart from each other he's all like "BAM!  I'm Really Lucifer Guyz!!  Miss me?!" And some form of End!Verse ensues.

Completely not likely, but it would throw me for a loop!

Cas and Sleeping With a Women

I personally think it's important for Cas to explore with this chick.  We know that he's mentioned that he is indifferent to sexual orientation as an angel, but now as a human I think that in order for him to develop as a character he does need to explore this sexuality in all manners.

One issue is if the writers had him sleep only with Dean then he would be perceived by a lot of the general audience as gay (which they already think of him as the "gay angel", but that's besides the point), but it's not true based off of what he has said about sexual orientation. He is indifferent to it and that needs to be reiterated especially to those who don't keep track of everything Cas says the way we do.    :)

Another issue is that Cas is newly human and he hasn't seen Dean while he's been completely human before.  To say that as soon as Cas sees Dean as human he wants to suddenly jump his bones is a little too much new info to dish out.  Has he shown interest in sex before?  Yes, but having a boner and kissing someone because you saw how it was done on TV is different than actually experiencing the act of sex for yourself actively participating in it.  

The writers have to introduce the idea of Cas as a new sexual being and then introduce the idea of him with Dean, which means that Cas and Dean aren't a thing in the first part of the equation.  They can't be for the story of them getting together to be worthy of their story up until now.  So for now we get part 1 where Cas finally has sex, explores that route.

Then he can make more connections based off of how he has felt.  Like "Oh...  this is how I felt when I did this with that girl... Oh.... I feel this way about Dean... Ooooooooooooh"  

Otherwise he'd be confused about what he is feeling.  Remember this is all new to him and what he feels for Dean he may not fully get the implications of unless he experiences something similar to someone else and can compare and contrast them.  

...... and to be frankly honest if he ended up sleeping with Dean first he would never get the chance to explore that other side to him (   =P  ), he would forever be curious as to what would that be like?  His curiosity could lead to infidelity and a road I know the fandom would throw a fit over.

Anyways, just my personal thoughts on the topic.  There's more to it, but that's just the basics as I have to go to work now.  Cas being with a girl first isn't going to be the end of Destiel, I promise.  But it could in fact even be a jump shoot to it :)  Stay positive everyone!

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