The Last Irken Chapter 4: Part Three

Last Nights' Episode and Why I'm Excited! :D

I know some are upset at the fact that besides the hug, there really wasn't much Dean/Cas interaction and I understand your frustration.  We love this ship so much (sometimes more than we should :P  who am I kidding, is that even possible?) and we want to see it represented so badly in every scene that they're in together. I personally am not upset by last nights' episode, if anything it made me more excited for the last two episodes.  Here's why :) Part of the reason I don't think we got a lot of Dean/Cas cutesy stuff is because of the MoC.  It's been making Dean, not Dean.  That inwardly nerdy and super squishy guy in S8 and the beginning of S9 has been fading away, mostly because of the mark.   The same thing happened to Cain I'm sure, until Collette.  So if Dean was squishy with Cas last night, I personally would have actually found that a bit OOC and I would find his berserker transformation with the mark very inconsistent and less believable.   It also sets us up for a reverse!crypt scene.  If Dean was to be normal without the blade and only crazy when the blade is in hand then that would mean there is a still an integral part of himself that is surfaced and would most likely make any connection to the blade easier to break (as easy as knocking it from his hand), but with the blade changing him as a person as a whole even without the blade, makes it more like a mind control situation (similar to that of the S8 crypt scene). P.S. If Cas breaks his connection to the blade while Dean is in full MoC mode I will literally cry tears of happiness!!! The other reason I'm not really upset is that there was A LOT of important plot and character stuff they crammed into that episode last night.  That stuff needed to happen and I think in doing so, it gives us more room in the last 2 eps to work with, which I'm assuming are going to mostly focus on Metatron and the MoC.   These two things I feel are going to be very Team Free Will centered so there should be quite a bit of Dean/Cas interaction and will hopefully lead into some sort of Destiel type of thing.  I don't for see them being separated for too long during this time.  Cas is worried about Dean, and Sam and Dean are going to be helping Cas with the Metatron stuff, especially since Abaddon is out of the picture.   Side note: I have somewhat of a feeling that if they make a reverse!crypt scene in these last 2 eps that they're going to have another open ended question like last seasons' "What broke the connection?" except it's going to be like "in your face obvious" what they mean and there will be no way for them to interpret it any other way, reiterating the fact that their connection to each other is very important and then one of the character plot arcs in S10 will be dealing with their realization of what that connection truly is.   Anyways, not trying to change people's feelings on the episode (everyone's free to feel what they feel), but these are just my feelings on it and frankly I'm so stoked for the next to eps!!! :) ::crosses fingers for Destiel::

Just A Thought About Cas and Dean's Lack of Interaction

The nice thing about Dean and Cas is that even if they don't interact for long periods of time, their relationship, respect, admiration, and love for each other remains just as strong.  (Note: I am talking about time and distance here... not their actions and consequences) Cas is always thinking about Dean and how he can help him.  Dean asks about Cas and checks up on him a lot.  It's not an "out of sight, out of mind" kind of relationship. 

Not being together and talking all the time doesn't mean that the intensity of their relationship is fading in any way.  Albeit some people are more needy and have to be around the person they love 24/7 or they wilt, but Cas and Dean - in my opinion- are not those kind of people.  

Cas is an angel and he has a sense of duty.  He needs to be doing something to help Heaven or to help Dean.  A lot of times that means leaving Dean alone, but that doesn't mean he doesn't care about him any less.  

Dean himself has a lot on his plate and can't tag along with Cas every time he has to go somewhere.  I'm sure he doesn't want to either.  He has his own duties to perform. Even with Sammy.  Dean isn't with Sam all the time either, but that doesn't mean he wouldn't offer up his life and soul for him at the drop of a hat.  

There are some relationships that transcend time and distance.  For example:  I have a friend who I live 3,000 miles from.  We've been best friends for our whole lives.  We check in on each other every so often via text, e-mail, messenger... but we're both very busy people and so it doesn't happen that often.  I see her maybe once every 2 years now, if I'm lucky once a year...  Every time I go back and see her though, it's like nothing changed.  We still love each other to pieces and our relationship is exactly the same even with the time, distance, and sparse communication.   Now while, that's an example of friendship, romantic love can be the same way.  On a sad and morbid note, many people who have lost someone they love, don't cease to love them just because they're gone.  Stuff like that doesn't fade.  The pain may go away, but the love will always be there.  

I believe that Dean and Cas and Dean and Sam have that kind of relationship.  That no matter how much time passes, they'll still love each other.   Sometimes when they finally are able to see each other though, there are more pressing matters at hand than bonding.  Sometimes stuff works out that way.  Again, preoccupation with saving the world or stopping evil doesn't mean that feelings are lost, fading, or dying.  It just means they're busy.  They'll find time for each other and when they do finally get to sit down and interact without immediate concerns, it's usually a wonderful sight.   So please don't worry about any lack of interaction between them!  :) 

My Grandpa when I came out as trans lol

Okay, if this 50th issue ends with Wade forgetting their friendship I demand a follow up series (Spiderman & Deadpool: Hot Second) in which Peter is frustrated that he invested so much time into giving Wade a shot and now Wade can’t even remember their time together so he starts aggressively pestering him to the point where Wade is very suspicious of his seemingly sudden involvement in his life and affairs and goes through a series of emotions ranging from concern that Spiderman has gone crazy to Spiderman is trying to kill him.

This way we get a series about Peter trying to be Wade’s friend as opposed to this one where Wade is the pursuer.  

I just really want these two to keep interacting lol  I’ll even settle for more cameos in their stand alone comics or just one-shot team ups parodying other Marvel team-ups.  I don’t care, I just don’t want to be sitting around wondering when they’ll ever meet up again.  

I always thought Supernatural missed the opportunity for making a truly beautiful series ending by not ending everything at the end of Season 5. Dean is possessed by Michael, Sam possessed by Lucifer. Dean breaks out of the hold because he wants to protect Sam, but knows how he would always have to kill him. Dean breaks Sam out of the hold and Dean kills the both of them while holding onto his baby brother and telling him ever6is going to be okay. They save the day with brotherly love and Castiel goes on to spread the Winchester Gospel.

But after Season 5 continued I knew that it would be hard to find a good ending to the show. It's never easy and while I haven't really watched the show in like 3 years I wanted to tune into the last one because I had loved this show for so long.

It wasn't a perfect episode and the amount of Olaf gifs that popped up after Dean was impaled had me rolling.

I'm glad that Sam got to grow old and have a son and live an actual apple pie life. I wish that we had seen whether or not he ended up with Eileen,, because I'm pretty sure she's alive and it just seems like he forgot about her.

I'm glad Dean got to be happy in the end, dying a hunter with Sam nearby, and living in a Heaven with all his loved ones. Driving Baby for how ever long he wants. I wish we had a montage of Dean meeting with everyone in Heaven before setting out on his roadtrip (would have been wonderful just to see the spn family in that context).

As much as I want Dean and Cas to be together forever, I kind of like this ending that Cas gets to be a good angel under Jack. It's kind of beautiful that he went on a journey from this stoic soldier to experience humanity and the gift of falling in love. I do wish we could have seen a reunion between Dean and Cas in Heaven. It wouldn't have even had to be destiel related, but just a friend checking in on another friend now that he is finally at peace (though I wouldn't oppose to more).

I love that Sam and Dean are reunited at the end and I love that we are given this perfect world with which there are no limits to what we can imagine for these characters after death. We were given a blank slate essentially to work with and I for one love and appreciate the gesture.

There I things I wish I had seen in the canon context of the show, but I had fun on the journey nonetheless. Thanks Supernatural for the 15 years of your time and effort!

How I Got Started Into Destiel and Where It's Headed

Sorry, yet another long piece, but I feel it needs to be said.  I apologize as my thoughts tend to jump around a lot when I do these and sometimes it can be a bit confusing.  

Just to clarify, I am not hating on ANYONE and these thoughts are my opinions so you don't have to take anything I say to heart if it doesn't coincide with your belief.  

I hope though that it may bring a little peace and calm about recent events to at least a few.  :)  

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I have been watching Supernatural since episode 1 of season 1 aired.  

I am also a Destiel shipper.  It took me a while to actually see it though.  

I was in the middle of season 6 when I found out that shipping Dean and Cas together was actually a thing.  I honestly had never even thought of them as a pairing.  They seemed too platonic at the time and I didn't really get it, but I'm the type of person that doesn't care what people ship as long as they love their ship.

I ended up looking it up, curiosity getting the better of me, to see why people were shipping these two.  What was the driving force?  Looking at a few things I started to think,"Oh, okay.  I guess I can kinda see how they could ship that."  

It was a fun ship though and so I dabbled in it a bit and then read some meta on everything and decided to ship it.  I liked it, they were cute, you could kinda reason that they might be in love.

Season 7 rolled around and I was like "Haha, that was definitely a shout out...  Too funny!" for some of it.  They were showing their fans that they do listen to what they say, even if they can't give them it 100% what they want.  I appreciate it when they do that.  They are trying.

But I honestly really didn't see it with these two until it was brought to my attention, which is probably how most of the audience has been.  Not everyone who watches t.v. picks apart every little thing that is thrown in like sharp and avid fans do (this is meant as a compliment).  Most, like myself, just take the obvious and roll with it.

Then season 8 rolled around... and I kinda stopped myself and was like... "Are they?"  

The writers and actors kind of toed the line a bit more obviously.  Something in season 8 had switched from the previous seasons concerning Dean and Cas.  This is where a lot more people, especially casual watchers took notice.  

I've been interested to see how far they would push it and watching the beginning of season 9, they are basically giving us a fanfic with these two.  

Dean giving a heartfelt prayer to Cas and saying "I need you here"?  Cas getting stabbed just as Dean comes to rescue him, Dean breaking after realizing he was too late, his relief when Cas is alive again?  How HAPPY Dean is that Cas is in the bunker with them?  When was the last time that you saw Dean really smile so joyously as Cas being in the bunker, conversing, safe, and with him?  Then to throw even more drama into their relationship, having Dean lie to Cas and make him leave?  

This is like that part in a fic where you want to stop reading because it hurts too much, but you keep going because you KNOW it's going to get resolved after much heartache (unless this is a death fic).

Now a lot of people are upset about this, but this is what we've been asking for really.  

We want more Destiel action.  We can't have a Destiel arc without some drama between the two of them.  Do you know how guilty Dean is going to feel?  How badly he's going to be pining for Cas to come back?  He FINALLY had Cas where he could just STAY and now he has to be the one to make him leave.  

If you think that this is the writers trying to break their relationship apart for good, then I must ask where you all dropped those wonderful insights of yours?  The ones that were able to see where all this was headed WAY before people such as myself?  If you can't see that this is the way that Dean and Cas's relationship is going to grow stronger, I don't know what to tell you.  

Just because Destiel is not canon and has never been canon, does not mean that it doesn't exist or that it won't.  Doesn't mean we shouldn't stop shipping it.  

How many of your ships have actually been canon?  Quite a few have not been I'm sure if you're like me.  

Does that mean that we stop shipping them?  No! 

Even if they gain a love interest?  Hell No!!

Because when you ship a ship, you see it for what it is.  No one can convince you otherwise if that's what you believe in.  

I choose to believe in Dean and Castiel's relationship, whether it be canon or not.  I believe it is there.  I believe it is strong.  I believe nothing will be able to keep them apart.  

The truth however, about Destiel, is that it was never intended to exist.  When this show was created Castiel most likely wasn't even a concept.  This story originally started with 2 brothers killing things.  Now this story is about those 2 brothers and their adopted family killing things.

So where then, do I think this show is heading with Dean and Cas?  Definitely not the route that has everyone upset.

9x03 actually made me hopeful about their relationship.  Whether or not the writers make it canon romance, they are showing us, by setting us up for a typical "break up and make up" with these two that they have no intentions of destroying this beautiful relationship.  They are acknowledging that there is a bond there.

I'm not positive that Dean and Cas will ever have that fluffy romance that everyone dreams of.  Their lives are not built for that and that kind of relationship never seems to last in this show.  And again, Dean doesn't do that "love... and love thing."  

But what I am seeing the set up for is for Cas to basically be initiated as the 3rd Winchester brother.  (Which is basically the best Team Free Will thing ever!)

The one thing that bothers me slightly about this approach though is how close Dean and Cas are compared to how close Cas and Sam are.  They are friends definitely and they would die for each other, but Dean and Cas... are close on a whole other level.  It IS different between these two and I feel this is where there is a problem.

I don't think Cas CAN become a Winchester BROTHER.  

Cas is different to Dean than anything.  Dean does not treat Cas like Sam, like Bobby, like Ellen or Jo, like Garth, like John or Mary, like Lisa or Ben, or any of their other random hunting buddies.  Cas... is Cas.  

"He's Cas."

Cas is family.  But he doesn't have a title.  He CAN'T have a title, because Dean doesn't do romance and Cas doesn't fit anything else.  I think that Sam gets that.  It's almost like Cas is Sam's brother and Cas is Dean's something undefined.  

Despite the fact that I feel Dean and Cas have something going on, I don't think Destiel will become canon in the sense that many of us want to see (it might, who knows).  The reason why?  Destiel isn't pertinent to the story right now.  

#1 Cas is newly human.  He definitely has a lot to figure out before jumping head first into a relationship where he most likely doesn't even understand feelings.  Most of us suck at relationships and we've had years to practice feelings.

#2 It's kind of hard to worry about your love life when there are angels on your ass and Abaddon in your face.  They have bigger fish to fry right now.

If the way to save the day was for Dean to admit his feelings to Cas?  Then we can say that Destiel is pertinent to the plot.  Or if this was a soap opera where relationships are the driving point of the show?  Then we can say that Destiel could be pertinent to the plot.  

But the writers have already done the "gay love love can pierce through the veil of death" thing and while Supernatural IS a love story, it is not a soap opera.  

That doesn't mean that Destiel will never happen, because if you're like me... you already believe it has.  

I mean look at all the evidence you've all compiled!  Look at all the people that are starting to notice!  Look how many polls you've won and how many shippers there are!

There IS something there between Dean and Cas and we don't need anyone to confirm what we know is there.  We can SEE it.  It's there and I think we find it wonderful just the way it is.  So even if we don't get to see an "onscreen kiss" we can be happy that our ship is one of the most beautiful love stories ever told. AND we didn't even need them to have kiss or have sex to prove it! :)  

And man if we want porn or fluff!.... Well... that's what we invented fan fiction for right?

So relax.  Destiel is not dead.  It is not sinking.  It's just that terrible time of anguish before their relationship gets even stronger and becomes more difficult to deny.  

Show your support for the writers, actors, and crew!  They put SO much effort into trying for us.  They have such limited time on episodes to put everything they'd like to in.  

So when they give us a Destiel moment, let's take it and run with it!  Because they thought we were important enough to find time in their tight timeline to try and give us a little of what we want even if it's not ALL we want.

Love the crew.

Love yourself.

Love your ship.

Love Supernatural.

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Don't Ever Stop Trying In Everlasting Love (DESTIEL)

Spn Season 10 Finale

So, if Cas has to die in the season 10 finale can it at least be like this? Dean is rampaging again and is attacking Sam and Dean.  Dean has Sam down and cornered and Cas steps between them.  He says he won’t let Dean hurt Sam and he won’t let Dean hurt himself (because he knows that hurting Sam in the end would devastate Dean beyond repair).   He steps forward suddenly into Dean’s personal space and holds his arms tightly as he leans in, connecting their lips.  Dean is shocked for a second before he realizes what Cas is doing.  Cas is expelling his grace into Dean’s body and burning away the Mark of Cain and replacing it with the “Mark of Castiel”- the love of an angel.   Cas is now human and Dean is saved, but Rowena does her attack dog spell and Dean is forced to kill Cas.   Then we have Season 11 start off with Dean having some angely powers due to the MoCa  and we can complete Dean’s checklist of him being:  Human, Monster (brief stint as a vamp), Demon, Angel.  :P It won’t happen but lol  It’d be nice... and sad.

So that patch-up trope huh

Something I made while dealing with my own stuff and hoping drawing this would pick me up somehow. Maybe it worked.

FT my cat. His name is Mischief

The Spideypool Soul Mark AU that lives in my head lmao  

I love to just think about shit like this, but I don’t really have the motivation to write anything.  So here’s a picture instead and some of my soulmate AU head cannons! Wade’s Soul Mark:  

Wade doesn’t get his soul mark until Peter is born.  He is 7 at the time.  Prior to getting his soul mark, Wade is worried that since he hasn’t gotten one yet that he doesn’t have a soul mate and that no one will ever love him (as his father and classmates make him feel).   When he turns 7 he gets a very obvious soul mark.  It’s a serious of thin threads of spider silk covering his mouth and cupping the sides of his face and on the center of his tongue is a small black spider.  He gets made fun of as people tend to take it as even his soul mate can’t stand his talking and is metaphorically being told to stop talking.  Wade doesn’t see it like that.  He loves his soul mark, it feels like he is being claimed more than anything, the threads around his face feel like someone holding him.  He has no idea why the spider, but he can’t wait to meet his soul mate.   When he goes through Weapon X, the scarring and gore of his skin hide the thin threads of his soul mark that he loved.  Spiderman debuts in NY when Wade is 22.  He immediately falls and love and realizes exactly who his soul mate is supposed to be.  

Peter’s Soul Mark:

Peter is born with a scandalizing soul mark.  He doesn’t understand it as a child obviously and it’s not something that was discussed with him.  Eventually, when he is around 9 and sees a sleazy guy on the street slap a girl on the ass does it click what the large red and black hand print with the smiley face drawn in the middle (complete with artistic blush colored skin around it) that is on his left ass cheek is supposed to be....(in case it’s confusing, basically his soul mark is Wade’s hand print in black and red with a smiley face on it that is shaded to look like his ass is permanently slapped).

Needless to say, it is easy to understand that when Mary Jane Watson comes up to him some 9 years later and slaps him on his ass one day and starts up a flirtatious conversation with him he immediately assumes his soul mate is her.  The hand print is just as red as her hair too, come on, it’s gotta be her.   

And here’s what the soul mark looked like prior lol  I like him better in the first pic.