Cigarettes
a cho sang woo fic | post-squidgame au
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inspired by this cas song + a dream i had
1.5k words, dbf!cho sang woo x f!reader
warnings: age gap, smoking, mentions of lighters
note: first time writing a fic ! i genuinely could not explain to you what this is, happy reading <3
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The night wrapped itself around the house like a thick velvet blanket, cool and heavy, muffling the world outside. The warmth from inside spilled out in golden streams through the windows, making the dark feel even more intimate, more distant. The house stood like an oasis in the midst of the night, quiet but alive with the weight of the eveningâs conversation.
Inside, the table had been cleared, the dishes stacked in the sink with care. The remnants of dinner lingering in the airâa warm hum of laughter, the soft clink of silverware against porcelain. He had come for dinner, a guest of my father, the man whose sharp wit and quiet intelligence had filled the room, a surprising contrast to the heavy weight he carried in his eyes.
Cho Sang Woo, my fatherâs business partner, was a man in his forties who seemed older than the years that clung to him. But when my father suggested he stay the nightâtoo late to drive, too long a distanceâhe didnât hesitate. âStay in the guest room,â my father had said, waving a hand as if it were nothing, and so he did.
He had lingered on the couch, nursing his scotch, his hands resting on the edge of the glass like he was trying to find an anchor in a storm. I couldnât shake the feeling that he was only half-present, as though his mind was on an island somewhere far away.
When my parents retired to bed, he excused himself, saying he needed some air. It was a statement that didnât quite ask for permission, but there was something about the way he spoke itâso softly, yet so firmlyâthat made it clear he didnât need to explain himself.
I watched as he stepped outside, his form slipping into the night like a shadow, leaving me to the quiet lull of the house. I rinsed the dishes slowly, my thoughts lingering on the man who seemed to be running from something, his every movement weighed with invisible regret. When I finished, I stepped out onto the porch, the wood beneath my feet creaking in the stillness.
The air was cold and sweet, tinged with the scent of damp earth from the garden.
He was sitting on the steps leading up to the house, a shadow among shadows. He had come outside to escape something inside him. His figure was relaxed, almost languid, but there was a tension in him that I couldnât quite place, a rigidity beneath the surface that suggested a history deeper than I could understand, but he masked it with the ease of someone used to playing a role.
I didnât know what haunted him, but I could feel it in the way his gaze occasionally dipped into the distance, as if looking for something that no longer existed.
He pulled a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, fingers almost caressing the smooth cardboard, before cursing softly under his breath when he realized heâd forgotten his lighter. I almost smiled at how perfectly human the moment feltâdespite everything, he was still just a man, fumbling for something as ordinary as a flame.
I lingered in the doorway for a moment, watching the way he exhaled in frustration. Then, as if on cue, he turned his head slightly, sensing me before I even made a sound.
âGot a lighter?â
His voice was low, amused, but with that edge of tiredness I was beginning to recognize.
Without a word, I reached into the pocket of my jacket, feeling the cool metal of my lighter against my fingers. When I pulled it out, it was an object of pure contrast to him. My lighter was small, almost dainty, a delicate pink glimmering thing that would have looked absurd in his calloused, heavy hands.
It flew through the air, almost weightless, and he caught it with the reflexes of someone who was used to playing more dangerous games than catch.
He stared at the lighter, as though trying to figure out its very existence. His brow furrowed, and then, he slowly lifted his gaze to mine.
âThis⌠is your lighter?â he asked, a note of disbelief in his voice, but more so amusement.
I held his gaze, my lips twitching, and in a voice that felt more like a dare than a simple answer, I murmured, âItâs for birthday candles,â the ghost of a smile flitting across my lips. The words tasted like a lie wrapped in a joke.
For a moment, the tension in the air seemed to dissipate, and I could almost see the corner of his mouth twitch. His lips pressed into a hard line, fighting a smile. But it didnât come. Instead, he shut his eyes with a long exhale, a weary chuckle escaping him as he nodded slightly, as though accepting that this ridiculous object was now the truth of the moment. âRight,â he muttered.
There was something about the way he fidgeted with the lighterâfingers circling it, almost testing its weightâthat made the space between us feel impossibly intimate. Without a word, I slid onto the step opposite him, settling a footâs distance away, my body angled just enough toward him to catch every small detail. The way he inhaled, the slight easing of his shoulders, the way his square rimmed glasses reflected the glow of the cigarette as he took his first drag. He looked, for a moment, like he had finally found the stillness he was searching for.
âYou donât smoke,â he said, not with curiosity, but with the knowing air of someone who was used to reading people like books.
âI do not,â I said, my voice soft, but deliberate.
A thought flickered through me, a quiet, reckless impulse. I glanced at the pack of cigarettes resting beside him. âTodayâs as good a day as any,â I said, my fingers already stretching toward the box.
His eyes shifted to me, sharp and quick, and his hand immediately shot out, placing a finger on the pack, sliding it just out of reach with a quiet tut. His gaze met mine, his smile tight, a warning hidden behind the casual gesture.
I couldnât help but give him a soft pout. My bottom lip jutting out ever so slightly, a playful protest hanging between us like a suspended breath. His gaze snapped away quicker than lightning, fixating on the trail of glistening pebbles leading towards the house. His eyes shifted down to his shoes, then to the blades of grass fluttering in the breeze, and then up at the stars, as if the world around him had suddenly become infinitely more interesting than me.
There was a strange hesitation in the air, like Iâd caught him off guard, but I held my ground, watching the way he carefully avoided my gaze. The silence stretched, and something shifted in the way the night felt around us.
Reaching into the other pocket of my jacket, I pulled out my own pack of cigarettes, the plastic wrapper crinkling softly under my fingers. I could feel the beginnings of a grin forming, but I bit it back, my focus entirely on the subtle task at hand.
When he looked back at me, his eyes widened for the briefest moment, a slight chuckle escaping him as he almost choked on the smoke that had been hanging in his mouth. It slipped from his lips in violent tendrils, twisting and scattering through the air, as if his breath itself was suddenly off-kilter.
I watched him carefully, a flutter in my chest, as I picked up my lighter and flicked it open with a soft click. The flame danced to life, casting a glow on my face that seems to give me a depth heâd never seen before. It was almost too intimate, the way the light shifted and shaped my features.
I held the cigarette between my fingers, the tip glowing bright, and without glancing at him, I exhaled a steady stream of smoke into the air, inhaling it back in with the practiced precision of someone whoâd done this far too many times. The words slipped out before I could stop them, low and soft, like a secret I couldnât quite keep to myself.
âSurprised?â
He didnât answer right away. The smoke curled between us, swirling in the cool night air as I watched the horizon, city lights shimmering in the distance.
Then, finally, he exhaled, his breath a soft laugh, but it was quiet, almost reverent.
âI should have known.â
get out. i cant anymore oh my god.
Oh god.
hill of crosses lithuania
for someone who loves sleep, i do not sleep enough at all
I feel sad what should I do
*opens tumblr for the 37392937th time*
YES QUEEN
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