Random Things I Hear Pt 1

DOES ANYONE ELSE WHO WATCHES SHAMELESS FEEL LIKE THE REASON THEY RELATE TO LITERALLY ALL OF THE GALLAGHER KIDS BECAUSE THEY HAVE BEEN ALL 3: THE OLDER SIBLING (FIONA & LIP), THE MIDDLE CHILD (IAN DEBBIE & CARL), AND THE YOUNGER CHILD (LIAM) BC UR THE MIDDLE ONE OR IS THAT JUST ME

my reasons for going to the gym:

❌ losing weight

❌ mental health benefits

✅ so i can be a buff bisexual and attract girls instead of greasy gamer boys

FYI everyone sometimes medication for mental illness is the only option (read my exp w meds and depression below)

Since the age of 8 I showed signs of depression. This was unfortunately ignored by family though I have family history of depression. I though my symptoms were myself just "growing up" and every day I lived in dread that the lack of happiness was how the rest of my life would be lived. During my teenage years this got significantly worse, leading to self harm and suicidal ideation among other things like recklessness/lack of care with my own life.

This illness followed me until I started therapy in my twenties. Two years of sessions on and off definitely helped. I saw three different therapists and still the sadness/numbness remained. I was diagnosed with dysthymia.

I started medication, and over the course of a year and a half, went on to two different types. I tapered off after the second med made me gain a ton of weight. I was terrified that the crushing sadness would come back, but tapered off.

I've been off meds for about a year and feel so completely normal. Change is possible, don't let anyone shame you into thinking you don't need ut when you've tried everything. One of my therapists refused to give me a referral for meds because they didn't understand dysthymia. If you think you need the help, DO IT! you know yourself and your body and mind better than anyone.

Okay okay, based from your Summer Court vs Feysand analysis that make a lot of sense why Hewn City leader and Illyrian IGNORE Rhys. BESTIE RHY, THEY IGNORE YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE DUMB, DANGEROUS AND A WANTED INTERPOL WAR CRIMINAL.

they dont ignore you BECAUSE YOU ARE HALF HIGH FAE HALF ILLYRIAN like you say to Feyreeeee. Rhys is this friends that are cut off from group and tell everyone the group cant accept him.because he is a bastard and fatherless. No bestie, your personality is what get you cut off from your group.

hi, anon! i love this ask 'cause i laughed so hard reading it 😆

this might be an unpopular agreement, but i really don't think many of the high lords would've cared that rhys is half illyrian! helion legit flirts with cassian and azriel every time they're in the room lmao. and thesan's lover is a faerie so... why would they care?? the vast majority of tamlin's court is made up of faeries, and he clearly didn't care when that faerie was brought in during the first book. tarquin is... well, need i say anything? this man's entire character revolves around how he doesn't give af about high fae v. faeries. beron is probably the ONLY one who'd actually give af that rhys is half illyrian. i think you could maybe argue that tamlin, in his current characterization, would be prejudiced against rhys bc of it, but they also used to be friends so...

and i don't think kallias cares since he used to be close allies with the night court. like, rhys pulled that shit out of his ass so feyre doesn't really everyone hates him because he's just a fucking asshole lmao.

like, rhys is just trying to play the victim, but he made his own choices and now he lives with the consequences. instead of taking responsibility, he's just gaslighting himself and everyone around him into thinking he's just an uwu victim of the high lords' prejudice.

im sorry im breaking my anti fast for this bc its literally the most idiotic thing i have ever seen.

"some people hate sjm for the racism in her books"

yeah NO SHIT.

that has always been the point.

thats literally the entire point of being anti sjm posts. thats literally all we talk about in the anti tags. but shortsightedness and an unhealthy relationship with these characters has always blinded y'all to that fact.

you see this is why i could not stomach conversations because you guys constantly make a mockery of the problems in sjm's work and only acknowledge the problems for a 'gotcha' moment. EVERY SINGLE TIME we have talked about how the racism in sjm's work affects the writing of her characters you guys have made it into an anti feysand problem, and by doing that you have willingly separated yourself from the problems in the story. the reality is that the racism affects the way these characters are written -- including your favs. do not dare twist the main message of antis to fit some twisted little point you want to make toward specific blogs. i have been on my last account for over two years and EVERY TIME i -- or any anti -- has talked about the way sjm's racism bleeds onto the text we have been undermine, ran off our blogs, sent hate mail. so yeah it pisses me off to no end to be sent the dumbest post in the anti tags to ever exist. yall do not care about her racism, her misogynoir. if you did, you wouldn't be calling people brain dead for daring to dislike your favorite ship for valid reason -- i.e. the racism. we talked about the complexities of how racist the portrayal of the illyrians were -- and we were dismissed as anti feysand and therefore 'braindead.' we talked about the way women of color and the allusions of FGM (female genital mutilation)-- and we were called anti feysands and then dismissed. stay out of the anti tags -- especially if you are the ones perpetuating these dynamics. i was ran off my blog for discussing these issues for two years. y'all sent hate mail, called me tamlin stan -- called others tamlin stans -- for even daring to discuss the racism in sjm works. that's not even touching the nehemia situation, or crescent city. fuck off the tags. you literally have a blog dedicated to this woman and her racist ass characters, you shoot down any criticism of them because of it, and then yall have the nerve to come into the tags for the some hehe hahah tamlin stan bs??? double fuck off. the anti sjm tag has always been a place for that criticism. always.

addition: and these problems are not just valid when discussing characters you don't like. the illyrians are written to brutes, with the bat boys operating as the 'model minority'. the story justifies the lack of infrastructure, and the misogyny (misogynoir depending on how you classify illyrian women), the lack of progress.

'its a culture problem'

'rhysand has tried, but they wont listen'

like do you know how crazy it is to write a group of people as permanently mentally stunted? to classify their women as nameless entities that our main character can shift in and out of to satisfy her supposed 'man of color' sexually? feyre cosplays as a woman of color for SEX, meanwhile in FIVE BOOKS we've met one named illyrian woman and shes described 'interesting,' but not as pretty as opposed to nesta and gwyn, mor, and feyre who are the prettiest people to walk the earth. that don't sound CRAZY to yall??? these people of color are left without leadership, without infrastructure, no access to a golden city, no access to their high lord, are forced to breed out warriors who live and die without ever getting to enjoy the city of velaris, the house of wind for survivors. all of that so that the maincharacters can live out that power fantasy. its racist. thats what it is. please think consider reading comprehension b4 yall make these gotcha posts because it really stinks of weirdness.

the illyrians are treated like rabid animals by their leaders, by everyone and then the responsibility is on them to somehow progress when everyone is unwilling to give them nothing more than scraps. like there's a real life counterpart to this, and yall arguments are very real and very damaging.

they are written by the author to be a permanent second class deserving of their position because they're minds somehow cannot comprehend any 'progression.' all of these characters including rhysand, feyre, mor, az, cassian, tamlin, nesta say racist things toward them because THE NARRATIVE thinks they're justified in saying them. like the moralizing is wild in this case bc all of them are allowed to get away with it. its not just tamlin or nesta, not just the valkyries (which is an ENTIRELY different scenario btw). like the idea that all of the bad can be ascribed to the 'bad' characters and the 'good' characters somehow don't feed into those racist tropes is WILD. rhysand literally told us -- the reader -- the in the war against slaves and their oppressors somehow it was an equal battle. like?????? somehow 'both sides were at fault' ignoring that one side WAS LITERALLY SLAVES. like can u imagine if someone looked at the Haitian revolution and was like....yeah the side of the oppressors was somehow on equal footing when the other side WAS ENSLAVED? how can u acknowledge this author is racist and then pretend that the racism only bleeds over to the characters you *shockingly* don't like?? yes -- there is a problem with feyre wearing illyrian wings BECAUSE SHES THE HIGH LADY. she made herself that title. of course that carries a different weight. the racism is ingrained in the text, not just some little trinket to flash when you want to moralize bullying a small group of people with strawman arguments.

"Cassian could stick up for Nesta just once and I'd forgive him" "just waiting for the moment to forgive Cassian" "I give up I forgive him already"

couldn't be me like I genuinely don't understand this way of thinking

if it was just the fact that he didn't say I love you or doesn't stand up for her then maybe I could understand if he really redeemed himself but after everything he has done?

he has repeatedly judged, harassed, mocked, berated, insulted, and assaulted her. he punished her physically and emotionally, locked her up, took advantage of her and even more

why on earth would you want to forgive any of that? why are you waiting for a moment where you can just forget all of that happened? you can even see it with that stupid quote when they almost died people think that means it's okay that beforehand he was horrible to her and couldn't respect a woman's "no" if it kicked him in the balls (and there is actual canon evidence of that fyi)

lucien was always described as somewhat a ladies man before the mating bond snapped into place for him. “I’m a mated male now,” he stated after, and we have yet to see him break his word. to see him remain loyal despite his complicated relationship with elain is so attractive, especially considering he used to be a flirt.

wait i kind of understand why Kaz renamed the Emerald Palace into the Silver Six now (i saw @randomfandom-3's screenshot and)

SIX FOR GOLD. FIVE FOR SILVER. THERE ARE FIVE CROWS ALIVE. COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT

The Clone Wars arcs that I would write if I were a showrunner and Disney were smart:

The lead general dies early on in a mission, the commander is injured and incapacitated, and the clones are now tasked with planning and properly executing a battle plan with little cohesion or unity in thought

The republic has succesfully seized half a planet and is moving on to the other half. A squad of clones gets separated from the main battalion and is forced to face the results of endless war when they come face to face with civilians who do no like or appreciate the Republic and barely respect the clones

A clone commander contemplates desertion. 

Half a squad of clone deserters avoid capture by their brothers but are eventually forced to confront their former families and come to terms with their decision. 

(subplot) A clone has romantic feelings for the first time and has absolutely no idea how to handle them. even better if the romantic feelings are for a Jedi CO

(standalone) barhopping

A Jedi and a squad of clones are captured and imprisoned within a separatist testing facility. The jedi goes to work freeing every last one of her men and very nearly sacrificing her Jedi morals for the dark side/attachment when she abandons the emergency transport that arrives to go save her commander (they all do make it out)

A peak into clone culture: a rift forms in a company when two members of a squad disown one another and everyone starts taking sides

(subplot) some troopers are clearly mentally ill and in need of serious help, but the medic (the only one aware of mental illness in any capacity) is helpless to do anything because of the stigma surrounding appearing “weak” in that way

Two battalions switch generals after a mix up during a battle. Battalion A gets Jedi B, who has to learn to leave behind their stiff and detached battle style/personality in order to gain the trust of their new men. Battalion B gets Jedi A, who has to learn to act like a “normal Jedi” and apply some more careful thought to how they interact so they can stop freaking out the men and gain a deeper respect from them.

A couple of clones accidentally witness a deal gone wrong, lose all their communication devices, and have to find a way back to the surface so they can report the crime without being killed by the gang hunting them through the underworld. 

Anakin, Ahsoka, and Rex have to attend a formal gala and mingle with the upper echelons of Coruscanti Society at the request of the Chancellor. Anakin inflates battle stories to appear cool. Ahsoka gets patronized. Rex experiences a microaggression. Someone tries to kidnap a senator.