Pearletta - Bc I Need To Express My Thoughts Sometimes

calling my lover "mine" but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighborhood is mine, and also everybody else's, "mine" like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. "mine" not like possession but devotion.

being smart has never stopped me from being a complete fucking idiot

I firmly believe that Lucien is just casually intelligent. Like not in a way that he boasts or something, but out of the blue he drops certain facts and dates and numbers leaving everyone astonished.

Do we already have a week dedicated to Eris cause if not there definitely should be one

happy lesbian week!!

does existence ever make you just... ache? 

i see and hear and know about so many atrocities and it’s just so overwhelming. how can people stand by as these things happen? how can people do these things? and i’m not just talking about things on the national, or global scale. how can people cheat on their partners? how can they stand to hurt someone like that? how can people be abusive? how do people rape and beat and murder others in cold blood? how do leaders turn a blind eye to the suffering of their people? how can a parent manipulate and abuse their child? 

how can anyone do anything horrible and not feel as if their brain is being ripped apart? how do their hearts not feel as if they’re being stretched to a snapping point and crushed all at the same time, when they hurt someone?

and at the same time,

i see and hear and know of such boundless love, such all-encompassing, unconditional adoration, and i know how i feel it for others, but i can’t possibly imagine someone feeling that way for me. and for this, i feel so arrogant. so self-absorbed. i’m ashamed at how sometimes i feel as if no one, never in the expanse of human existence, could ever feel these things as raw as i can. how only i bear the weight of the world, how only i feel as if all the suffering and weeping of the world is projected onto, into, my heart, and how my heart so often feels as if it’s combusting from all this.

i just... ache. i don’t know if i’m alone in this pain (i hope i’m not), but even the knowledge that those who experience emotions the way i do exist as well would not ease this burden, i think. 

Favorite genre of post

“As an older sister I will never forgive Nesta-“

To every Rhysand stan that can’t leave Nesta fans alone for even five minutes:

Rhysand rules over an apartheid state, literally enforcing segregation and gender discrimination to the point of physical mutilation.

Rhysand neglects two thirds of his court and not even then is the one third free of slums while he’s drowning in wealth.

Rhysand is a sexual abuser that doesn’t give a fuck about women he’s not in love with or that are not of use to him in any way besides cannon fodder.

Women under his rule are violently abused, se****** assaulted, mutilated, killed, oppressed, poor, discriminated against.

THAT is forgivable to you?

Or has it only ever been about the man, about self-inserting yourself into the story? If yes, don’t talk about morals.