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I feel like the reason the blood duel got brought up in ACOSF was because it’ll actually be between Helion and Beron.👀 I firmly believe Helion and LOA are mates & no one can convince me otherwise.

Oh I’d pay good money to see Helion fuck Beron up to defend his lady!

I am also of the belief that they are mates and that is why Helion is without an heir (that he’s aware of) and never married or otherwise mated.

As nice as it would be to see Helion kill Beron I think the honour should ultimately fall to Eris or Lucien as they are the people who have suffered his shit the longest and are also important players in the story. Maybe Eris and Lucien will bond over killing their father and start to heal their relationship.

Here's the thing I keep trying to articulate and possibly failing: I don't actually mind characters who are terrible people. I have enjoyed many. What I mind is characters who are terrible people while the narrative keeps trying to say that they are wonderful, often contradicting what the narrative shows us, with no self awareness

you know what today i’ve decided to arbitrarily die on the hill that the palpatine/yoda fight in revenge of the sith is awesome. Because even if it “looks bad” and “yoda should be a wise sage and not be doing flips” I think its very funny. It’s a little green frog guy and an old man trying desperately to murder each other and in-universe it would be like if joe biden and the pope had a death brawl in the middle of congress where they threw all the chairs at each other 

as a fanfic writer, the best thing you can do for yourself is invest in the stories you want to read. don’t think about what will get popular, because it will make you miserable. write about what means the most to you. if you want to write pure smut, do it. if you want to make intricate worlds and complex characters, do it. write and write and write. contrary to popular belief, good art does not have to make you suffer. all my very best work is the stuff that i enjoyed writing

I was reading some Wolffe posts and I was thinking about my own version of Wolffe in my Multiverse.

Wolffe seems so calm most of the time, but also seems to have no chill where it concerns like, speaking his mind. Plo obviously encourages him to have his own personality, thoughts and feelings and validates his opinions.

By contrast, Cody and Rex are so much more reserved– but what really gets me is Cody is less reserved with Obi-Wan than Rex is with Anakin. It’s so weird, cause you’d assume ‘super attachment maker’ Anakin Skywalker would get so close to Rex that eventually they’d become loose around each other.

Cody will jokingly call Obi-Wan ‘boss’ and crack jokes with him in the movie and even talk candidly with him in the show. Maybe not quite to the extent that Wolffe will with Plo or his brothers– but Cody is loose and relaxed.

And I don’t think it’s just his personality. I think Obi-Wan tries to encourage his men and their individuality, but like. Massively fails.

I can only think to compare it to how my mother was in one aspect of life. She’d insist that we could talk to her about anything, but then when I tried, she’d get mad and shout at me. In Obi-Wans’ case, it would’ve been more like…

‘I want you to know that I respect your personhood, but also I’m your general and you should obey me unequivocally or you and your brothers all might end up dead out there on the battlefield, so I’m going to be genial but keep my distance’ kind of thing which has the side effect of making the men slightly more relaxed because they know where the lines are and they can work around them– but they don’t feel truly safe with Obi-wan the way Wolffe and the Wolfpack feel with Plo Koon.

Which led me to thinking about Anakins’ lines. Fives is very outspoken and opinionated, and Jesse can be if the situation calls for it.

But when they’re around Anakin, they barely joke at all. And the one time I can remember them joking with Anakin, it was about the size of his binoculars? It was a juvenile joke and Anakin seems to indulge it, but then why do they all still seem so separated from him?

I realized it’s just Fives who is that comfortable, because he refuses not to be comfortable. He makes himself comfortable, but the rest of them are not.

I’m sorry this has turned into a long character rant.

It just makes me think about them all and how their behaviors are so different from each other. Even Captain Keeli whom we see only for a short time, somehow seems more at home with his General than Rex does.

Rex is always stiff and formal with Anakin. Even discounting the whole ‘not calling him Anakin’ thing which doesn’t even really matter– it’s in the body movements and the way they talk to each other.

A lot of this is just headcanon based upon what I remember, but.

Anakin is down-to-earth, but only from a distance. He’s so detached from everything and everyone because wartime forces one not to get attached lest you lose them and get hurt. And the only people he allows himself to get attached to, are people with higher survival odds and Padme.

Obi-Wan and Ahsoka are his only two attachments outside of Padme and the Chancellor.

And I was thinking about this the other day but the only real attachment that Anakin had, was Ahsoka. Because all the rest, were obsessions.

The obsession with the idea of being in love and having someone love him. The obsession with being a good son/younger brother so that his father/older brother would acknowledge him. The Obsession with feeling special and powerful like he really mattered– which is what the Chancellor gave him.

But Ahsoka is the only one he truly loved and was simply attached to. He didn’t really get anything from Ahsoka. Sure she was a lot like him and he could relate to her, but that’s basically it. She wasn’t even like a familial surrogate or anything though you could say he viewed her like a sister.

I’d say that Ahsokas’ loss would’ve rocked Anakin more than anyone elses’. The fact that it’s Padmes’ death that sends him into despair is just weird to me when. Well you all know how I feel about Pedophile Padme marrying a teenager when she’s a full grown ass woman. But also aside from that…

Padme and Anakin only have one thing in common. The struggles they went through together. Nothing else. Even their love languages are so mismatched that Anakin ends up feeling desperate for her affection because she doesn’t show it in a way that makes him feel loved.

(Specifically citing that episode where he gives her his lightsaber to ‘prove’ his love and try to get her to prove hers back.)

But Anakin and Ahsoka have a true bond forged not only through similarities between them, but also the events they have gone through together and their reluctance to give up their attachments. They are basically mirrors of each other, though they’re more alike than they are opposite when they first meet.

Their bond grows through mutual affection.

Contrast that with Anakins’ relationship with Padme or Obi-Wan and you can clearly see that while he is desperate for Padmes’ love and Obi-Wans’ approval, he is just happy with Ahsoka.

When she left the order, I think it broke him.

But getting back to my point.

Anakin views his men as ‘people that die too easily, I’ll just lose them’ so while he might be very permissive and treat his men affectionately, it’s like…you can feel that he doesn’t really mean it.

That while he might smile at you and crack witty one-liners, but he’ll flip through a casualty report without a single flinch. Because those men were assumed casualties by him already.

Wolffe is comfortable because Plo Koon genuinely cares for his men and is attached, healthily, to them.

Cody is semi-comfortable because while Obi-Wan might have boundaries around his affection and kindness, at least that means that he knows where he stands.

And Rex is stiff with Anakin because Anakin pretends to be close to them and to care for them, but he’s really just acting out the behavior with none of the feelings behind it. It makes you uneasy. You know your creativity will be rewarded on the battlefield, but would he be okay if you called him brother and clapped him on the shoulder?

They don’t know, and that’s what makes them so stiff.

Or so I think? Not sure, I’ll have to think about it a lot more.

Unfortunately, the truth is that you’ll probably always feel less loved or seen than you actually are. There are many people out there who decide against admitting their love for you or even uttering a compliment out loud, you only know about a fraction of the adoration that exists for you: there’s what you’ve been told about and there’s what you feel. But there’s also what you don’t even notice. Try to remember that however you’re feeling (lonely or invisible or unwanted) is valid and real, but it isn’t all. The world would be incredibly tiny if what you’re feeling was truly all there was.

fucking forehead to forehead is so intimate like pls... be careful........ our souls are gonna get intertwined........

so i’m currently working at a law firm and the other day one of the attorneys was talking to me and he mentioned that he’s “not very confrontational” and i was like you are?? a lawyer???

and he said “yeah but in court there are rules. i can argue with some shmuck in a suit in front of a judge no problem, but when i leave the courthouse and go home i’m not gonna argue with my wife about dinner. there are no rules in our kitchen. i would die.”

my unsolicited haikyuu hcs pt 1

tsukki will draw constellations on yam’s body using yam’s freckles as the stars.