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You know, sometimes I struggle to call myself disabled. And it’s not because I think the word “disabled” is inherently negative or demeaning. (I’ve long since grown out of that mindset.)
Really, half the time I feel like, “well, I can still hold my own in hearing spaces! I don’t even use aids! I don’t have it that bad. I’m not disabled enough.”
But even so, if I’m not focusing hard on the person speaking to me, I probably wont be able to understand them.
If a room has background noise, or if someone is standing on my left side, hearing them will basically be impossible.
If people aren’t right in front of me they really have to project or else I won’t be able to understand a word they say.
It takes so much energy every day to make sure I’m hearing and understanding everything around me.
I am disabled.
Yet general society has pushed the narrative that disabled people cannot function ever. To truly count as disabled, you must always be cared for. You must always be in a wheelchair. You must always have aids. If your struggle isn’t immediately obvious, are you really disabled?
And that’s bullshit to me. Because all it leads to is being infantilized, looked down upon, and scrutinized endlessly. It’s especially bad for those who are neurodivergent or otherwise mentally disabled.
We shouldn’t have to live like that. We shouldn’t have to justify and prove our suffering to everyone we meet so we can get the accommodations we need. We shouldn’t have to be looked down upon for being disabled.
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chuuya collects ppl in his heart and never lets them go, but he tells them to their faces that they suck
My favorite thing about him is how hard he finds open affection with people. Like he was so stilted with the Flags, he wants to personally waterboard Dazai 90% of the time and looks at Shirase like he wants to hit him with a pan sometimes but he genuinely loves these guys.
This person reached out for help, and I am here to help spread their message. I wish you best of luck on gaining support!
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Thank you,
"Dazai is obsessed". "No, chuuya is obsessed".
They are both freakishly possessive and embarrassingly obsessed and I dont think this fandom takes advantage of that canon fact like they should.
Maybe I am reading too far into things, but I was just rewatching bsd season 3, and something stood out to me.
In this scene, Chuuya refers to the Sheep as children when telling Dazai not to kill them.
It’s the fact that he calls them children as if he is not a child himself.
Yes, there probably are people younger than him in the Sheep, but he is not exclusively talking about those kids. He is talking about the Sheep as a whole.
He didn’t say, “leave them out of this” or “don’t kill my friends” or even “don’t kill the Sheep” or anything else.
It is straight proof that Chuuya has had to put himself in a role of protecting others. Much like a parent, or older sibling. He’s had to force himself to grow up faster. He doesn’t get to be a kid.
And he’s far from the only one.
Dazai too, calls them kids. Dazai too, when he first meets Chuuya, calls him a kid.
In fact, as far as I know, Dazai is the only one who ever points out how young Chuuya is. (Again, I could be wrong, and if I am, please correct me.)
And Chuuya is the same in return; he also sees Dazai as a kid.
They see each other as kids when they do not see themselves as kids. And that’s probably why they can act like the stupid, petty teens they are when they’re around one another.
When one falls out and tries to act like the other is below them for being a kid, the other simply reminds them (often rather aggressively) that they are also a kid.
It’s a reminder I’m sure they both need.
ART IS MADE TO BE EATEN, ITS CALLED CONSUMING FOR A REASON
unfortunately a lot of the corny self help advice turns out to be true but the thing is you have to come to those conclusions yourself otherwise it just sounds dismissive and dumb
they/them (I am a minor!!) Welcome to my personal blog where I mostly yap about BSD right now… I also like writing, world building, and media analysis tho!
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