I Always Am About To Go To Sleep At A Beautiful 11pm And Then Something Happens To Me

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

I genuinely love when I see someone explain something I couldn’t myself and do it so accurately. I used to stim all the time by spinning for hours or jumping but once you get to a certain age you become “weird” and allistics say its something you should’ve “grown out of by now”. I wish I could stim so unbridled like I did before I was self aware.

i think the general public is a little confused ab stimming tbh bc they think of it as a specific set of actions instead of like. an emotional process. like an allistic person and i could do the exact same gesture and only one of us would b stimming bc. allistic don't feel the surge of . like pleasure? release of tension? that comes with stimming. like you know what i mean. w/ me, especially as a child, a big stim of mine was jumping up and down. and i would do it for literally hours. thump thump thump oh that's just my kid she's upstairs jumping. and any time i would be reading a book or watching a tv show and a "good part" came on, or a part with a lot of tension, or a big reveal, i would feel overwhelmingly compelled to jump up and down and make noises and weird faces to "get the excitement out"

and like the only reason i'm not like that now and i make less weird faces and grunting noises and big movements is bc i got it shamed out of me and now i'm so used to masking it's hard for me to stim in the comfort of my own apartment without feeling like i'm being watched. but i still stim in other ways and i think what's often overlooked is stimming has a pretty intense emotional/mental component to it.

One of the more ridiculous things I saw recently online was someone trying to claim autistic people don’t experience ableism much because it’s a hidden disability. Then they blocked me when I said that making assumptions about the experiences of a disabled person is ableist in itself….

want to be clear that if i ever talk about a headcanon and then later discuss a headcanon that is directly contradictory to the first one, that’s because headcanons exist in a quantum state where they are all simultaneously true and not true up until the point where i discuss it in detail, in which case that is the one that is true in that instance. schroedinger’s headcanons

Posting this iconic piece of media that I just NEVER found online isolated except in an archived reddit thread

and if i became a pedro pascal fan account , what then ???

Pedro Pascal posts in support of the trans community:

“I can’t think of anything more vile and small and pathetic than terrorizing the smallest, most vulnerable community of people who want nothing from you, except the right to exist.”

When studies show that underage drinking is harmful, it's banned easily. But when studies show that spanking is harmful, it remains legal and parents still insist on doing it.

Age restrictions on purchasing cigarettes pass easily. But laws prohibiting smoking where children are forced to breathe in secondhand smoke are much harder to pass.

Children under a certain age are prohibited from using most social media websites. But adults are allowed to post videos of their children's meltdowns.

Teenagers need their parents' permission to get body modifications. But parents can get their babies' ears pierced.

Anyone who genuinely wants to protect children would not panic about the children's own choices while ignoring what adults force on them. Anyone who genuinely wants to protect children would not insist that studies on the dangers of children's own choices be fully trusted and obeyed while ignoring and arguing with studies on the dangers of how adults treat children.

But many adults just want to control children, not protect them.

i feel so bad for little babies who can't drink red wine with cheese

"Joel killed 19 people." ok?? Am I supposed to care?? God forbid a man has hobbies 🙄