Over Christmas When I Came Out Fully To My Mom She Did Tell Me I Was Beautiful And Gave Me Some Of Her

Hope is resilience, and it is fucking tough. I was talking with a friend about how if you expect the worst, don't let yourself be hopeful, you feel protected and strong, but it is fake. My friend was telling me that he tends to think: "If I know in advance that it was going to be shitty and horrible, I'm no fool, I was right." But then he realized: "Wait, why am I happy to be right about that? This is shitty and horrible!"

Being negative and in a "I'm no fool" mindset feels safe but actually does not protect from harm. It comes from fear. As my friend concluded: "Being hopeful and open is actually the brave thing to do. And I don't want to be a wimp."

don't give up

I really, really REALLY love Izzy’s arc this season and I love him embracing his queerness so earnestly, so here’s a quick sketch <3

Do you have any manta ray info you'd like to share? Or any other type of sea critter you're intrigued by? :3

Manta Ray facts!!!

Their wingspan can be up to 30 feet across and they can weigh up to two tons!

Despite their massive size, they can leap nearly 10 feet out of the water (imagine having one of those flying through the air at you)

Every manta has a unique pattern of spots on their underbelly, which has long been used to id individuals as it was considered as unique and unchanging as a fingerprint. However, new evidence suggests that the pattern can shift as the manta ages, meaning we may have been counting the same individuals more than once, overestimating their population.

They have long been hunted for their gill plates, which apparently have medicinal properties, but sadly the species are now threatened due to overharvesting and other human activity.

Mantas are high intelligent, potentially one of the smartest fish in the ocean! They are extremely curious of humans and frequently interact with divers, and can even recognize themselves in a mirror!

I don't want to participate in cruelty. In meanness, in fear. Sometimes I do, because I'm human and hurt, but most of the time finding some kindness in my heart is what will allow me to endure this cruel world. One of my worst fear is the world hurting me so badly that kindness, trust, and love would not be accessible for me anymore.

I do everything in my power for that to not happen. When I feel my heart closing up, I fight to open it again.

Hmmm I know octopuses are generally sweet and gentle and are just curious sea puppies (and I love them!), that being said, the thoughts of being dragged by my feet by one of them into the deep and dark ocean is… safe to say new fear has been unlocked

Source

A compilation of my magical ocean-themed illustrations - all of these and more are available as prints until Nov 26th in my store here!

Started playing Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodlines and it’s weird that they made a game for me eighteen years ago and never told me.

a good way to inspire yourself to do more is to see yourself as the wacky sitcom B plot character in your friends lives, "wouldnt it be funny to tell the friends in my phone about it." has gotten me to do anything from going to a festival (excelent) to wild camping (it went badly) (coastguard called) to trying to get the train to stonehenge (stonehenge costs money so i ended up just getting lunch in sailsbury, it was okay.) i bought a bicycle today and 20% of my reasoning was "itd be funny to surprise my roommate by coming home with a whole bike." . life is for living. and baby i live for the bit.

Sevika, Vi and Ekko, who never saw eye to eye, bonding after Jinx's death over the fact that Sevika was there for her when neither of them were.

Sevika, telling them about the softer side of the girl with the manic eyes.

The three of them getting together, to try and piece together a full picture of Powder and Jinx. Vi, who knew who she started as. Sevika, who knew who she became. And Ekko, who knew who she could have been.

Ma meilleure ennemie is going to be in every enemies to lovers playlist