Do You Think This Is A Pretty Sight? This Is The Reality Of Having Anorexia For 12+ Years. The Reality

Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

If you're ever bored, here's a list of Studio Ghibli films you can watch for free.

Castle In The Sky (1986) Grave of the Fireflies (1988) My Neighbor Totoro (1988) Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989) Only Yesterday (1991) Porco Rosso (1992) Pom Poko (1994) Whisper of the Heart (1995) Princess Mononoke (1997) My Neighbors the Yamadas (1999) Spirited Away (2001) The Cat Returns (2002) Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) Tales from Earthsea (2006) Ponyo On A Cliff From The Sea (2008) The Secret World of Arrietty/The Borrower Arrietty (2010) From Up on Poppy Hill (2011)

If any of the links stop working, please let me know so I can fix it.

For Castle In The Sky, wait for the free user button to be clickable and it will send you to the video.

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phoenixshadow22

4 years ago

I didn't use tumblr for years and now I need to follow more blogs, so reblog if you:

-do art (any kind: writing, drawing/painting, photography)

-are from ATLA or VLD fandom

-stan any of this bands/artists: MCR, BMTH, The 1975, TØP, Billie Eilish, Rex Orange County, Ed Sheeran, there are more but I can't think of them rn

-stan musicals (Hamilton, Heathers, Dear Evan Hansen, Be More Chill, especially)

-si sos de Argentina o Latinoamerica 💕💕

-like cats

-or dogs

-or frogs

(I would also say like movies and series but like, almost everybody does)

Feel free to add anything to this list 🌼

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phoenixshadow22

7 months ago

Ack almost forgot to post! Inktober day 2!

Discovery!

The Discovery that started it all

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phoenixshadow22

4 years ago

Last day...halloween costumes day 31...i had fun

@spacebunprince

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phoenixshadow22

5 years ago

high school teachers: if you don’t show up with a dress and full makeup or a fitted tuxedo to class everyday to college your professors will execute you

college professors: