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Amane's Mindset & Love

Amane's Mindset

Amane lived his life being fully human. So he stuck with human moral convictions and emotions. I think that Akane, Teru and Kou (to some extent), which are all humans, represent what deep down Amane thinks about himself. Amane doesn't justify his wrong actions morally. He does them for the sake of his loved ones, but he never has thought that it's morally right to do them. He acknowledges it when he's doing something wrong.

Akane and Teru always remind him of what he did, that the murder was something that marked his existence forever, that he's evil because of it and even if he's fulfilling his duty, there's no way he could ever atone for his sins. Also, from Teru's perspective, the fact that he's a supernatural proves he's evil. "There's no such thing as a good supernatural because they could attack anyone at any moment".

That's why despite what he did, he never justified his wrong actions and actually likes it when people reminds him of them. He likes people who have a strong sense of morality because deep down, he sees himself as evil, as a muderer. That's part of the reason why he decided to give up on his future and killed himself after he killed Tsukasa.

In contrast, there’s Nene and Kou. At first, when Kou fought with Hanako, his perspective was like Teru's. He believed that Hanako must be exorcised because "he's the evil spirit of a murderer".

During this fight, Hanako told Kou that god would erase his guilt if he fulfilled his duty so he couldn't let Kou exorcise him. However, at the end of their fight, Hanako agreed with what Kou thought of him and he told Kou that he was looking forward to the day he was going to be exorcised by him.

After this fight, Kou started to see other side of Hanako. His gentler side. Kou decided he wasn't going to exorcise Hanako and he tried to justify the murder committed by Hanako. But Hanako reminded him that there's no justifiable reason to ever kill someone.

Even though Hanako reacted violently at that moment, entering a state in which he reenacted his past actions and poured out all the guilt he couldn't longer contain, Kou still doesn't deep down believe that Hanako is "just some evil spirit".

Now, in Nene's case, she became attached to him and saw him as a friend, despite Kou revealing his secret—that he was a murderer. But again, Amane reminded her "I'm a murderer. How can you see me as a friend?" Amane didn't feel that he was worthy or deserving of forgiveness, bonds, love or anything good after what he did.

After Tsukasa appeared, the guilt he feels for what he did, was very evident. He can't forgive himself for what he did in the past.

Hanako has a white and black view of morals, even thought he's a morally gray character. To him, his thoughts, his actions are "black", bad. He feels bad because of the way he is because he's capable of the worst in his own POV.

Now, his black-and-white mindset is more evident when he talks about supernaturals and humans. Amane thinks that there should be limits between humans and supernaturals because supernaturals are very different from humans.

Humans are different from supernaturals, but Amane takes it to the point of him believing that when a human becomes a supernatural, they stop being themselves, completely. To him when someone is born as a human, it's the only real part of themselves.

He thinks that once humans dies, it's over. There's no continuation of life and dead have no future. Not even if they wander the near shore. In his perspective, there's no hope once a human is dead no matter what they do.

So, Amane views humans and supernaturals in a very black-and-white spectrum. For example, one of the reasons he may want Nene to keep on living is that he thinks that after dying, she must go to the far shore to still be herself, because if she wants to stay in the near shore she must become a supernatural and if she does so, she'll "get all jumbled up" to the point that her identity will change completely because she would become an entirely different being, that "she wouldn't be Yashiro Nene anymore".

Amane's Love

Amane always keeps his feelings locked up in his heart and he has always had a hard time expressing himself since he was a little kid. For example, when Tsukasa asked Amane if he loved him, Amane didn't straight up said that he loved him too, but rather "Of course I do!" more in the sense of "isn't that obvious?" He never expressed his love in a straightforward way, unlike Tsukasa.

However, I think he was more open to expressing himself when he was a little kid, because when Nene traveled to the past and she met 8 year old Amane, he straight up expressed his attraction towards her. He wasn't as shy as when he was in middle school and he was kinda cheerful.

But when he started middle school, he began to repress what he liked and how he was feeling. I think he started to be like this because of the bullying he was suffering by his classmates (Probably), or maybe because of his parents. I don't think Tsukasa was the one hurting him because when they were younger, Tsukasa didn't show any sign of violence towards Amane and these signs of violence began to appear in the first year of middle school. Also, they were close to each other.

Amane doesn't show his love through words, but through actions. Even though he has a hard time expressing himself and seems like he doesn't care, he really does. Most of the evidence of his love shown in the story so far is with Nene. He wants the wellbeing of his loved ones and to do what's best for them from his perspective, but here's the issue: he doesn't take their feelings into account. For example, Nene wanted to escape the Picture Perfect world, but Amane didn't let her at first because he wanted her to keep on living.

Also, he was going to sacrifice Aoi in order to keep Nene alive even thought she didn't want any of it. Nene even told him that he "always decides things by himself without telling anyone".

So, he never takes into account what his loved ones are feeling or what they want. He just does what he thinks it's best for them. He wants to take control over their fates, over their choices and that crosses into "possessiveness" territory. For example, when Nene and Hanako reunited after the severance, he said to her that he "needed to breathe life into her by his own hands". So he needed to have control over the way her lifespan would be extended. He didn't want Kou or others interfering in it. He felt the need to show Nene his love in some way or other. He couldn't bear the thought of others taking his place, so he needed to do something by his own hands. Even Nene interpreted this as he wanting "to have her to himself".

However, there's also other aspect of his love, and it's that, he doesn't care if he has to sacrifice his life, existence or his future. He's willing to throw it away for the sake of his loved ones. He even gave up on going to the moon because of his brother and also after the severance, he didn't care if he was going to be exorcised by Teru. He just wanted Nene to keep on living and he got angry at her because she didn't stay in the human world.

After Amane killed his brother and himself, it's later revealed that Amane loved his brother so much, that Tsukasa became his yorishiro. Perhaps the murder and suicide were acts of Amane's love for his brother because he wanted to protect him, but in a selfish way. Even when Sakura was talking about the yorishiros, it implies that Tsukasa was "The most important thing he wanted to protect".

Conclusion

Amane's set of morals and his point of view on supernaturals and humans are black-and-white, because he adhered to human's morals and emotions as he was fully human when he was alive. Despite this, he's a morally gray character. He also thinks that once a human becomes a supernatural, they cease to be themselves and become something entirely different. Due to his perspective of morals and supernaturals, he views himself as evil and irredeemable. Teru, Akane and Kou (in the beginning) remind him of this.

Regarding the nature of his love, the way he loves is selfish in the sense that it's possessive and he does what he thinks it's best for his loved ones without regarding what they actually want, yet it's selfless at the same time because he's willing to sacrifice his future or existence to protect them. His morally gray actions stem from his deep, possessive, overprotective love.

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phymarsh

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