First Grader Killed By The Police

tw emotional abuse, eating disorders, self harm, cancer cw

Okay I hate to do this again but it’s my last resort

As some of you might know this year has been absolutely awful for me and my mother, she had to go through a complicated and lengthy treatment for brain cancer, luckily most of it was paid by the government owned oil company she works for, but still we had to spend a LOT of money on the stuff they didn’t cover, ever since her first cancer diagnosis about 4 years ago we had to move here to this little town in the south of mexico where my mom is from, so she could be close to her family, unfortunately we have not been able to leave, not after she went into remission the first time and not this time.

Money has always been tight for us, but things have not been this bad ever since my father left and took all our money leaving us homeless when I was 5, the state owned oil company my mom works for is being severely affected by the energetic reforms imposed by the current administration, temporary workers like my mom were being hired for about one month out of every 2, the last 6 months that went to a month long contract every 3 months and just today all temporary workers like my mom were notified that they will not be hired anymore until maybe summer of next year. Even though my mental illness makes it difficult for me to hold a job and esp now I started (long distance) college and i have the pressure to maintain a 80% average score on all my classes to keep my scholarship, I have tried time and time to find a job, even a minimum wage one to be able to save enough money to leave but i simply can’t find one, very few places are hiring and those very few like subway and local supermarkets simply don’t ever call me back.

To say out situation is desperate doesn’t begin to describe it, we had to leave our house cause even though last time i made a donation post i got enough to pay the late months eventually we couldn’t pay anymore, with absolutely no other choice we had to move into my aunt’s spare service room (bottom pic) that not only is barely 3 x 3 meters, but we have to endure cockroaches and rat plagues and the room flooding everytime it rains (which makes me really worried about my mom’s health since we sleep on the floor) but the worst of all, we have to endure our family’s emotional abuse.

I’ve posted a lot about it since there can’t be a day where they don’t do something awful, from little insidious comments about my mom’s physical health, like saying she deserved/earned cancer, or her age, telling her things like her life is over now that she’s 50 and that all she can aspire to now is living in this rat infested room from my aunt’s charity so she shouldn’t even try anything else, to the way they openly despise me and while they claim they don’t believe i’m mentally ill they often steal or hide my things to then deny i ever had them to make me believe i’m imagining things or they withhold food from us or lock us out of the house/inside of the room continuously, basically we just can’t stand a day more here, it’s literally destroying us, my mother has daily headaches, cries every night and can never sleep, i’ve basically fallen back into all my self destructive behaviors i was so proud of leaving behind like cutting, drinking and smoking and given the power these people have over our food my ed is completely out of control to the point im seriously concerned about my health because of all the dizziness and cold sweats i get.

Like i said, our situation is desperate, like never before. My mom’s current and last contract ends in nov 13, we absolutely need to get out of here, but it would be pointless to just move to another house/apartment if we don’t have a way to pay for it, which is why we need to move to Tijuana, where we lived before. Unlike this small town that lives only from the state owned oil company, Tijuana is a big and diverse city with a lot of job opportunities, esp for someone bilingual like me but even for someone my mom’s age, there’s also a lot of more affordable and flexible housing options like trailer parks, and public hospitals where me and my mom could get the medical care we need.

With all we’ve been saving we only need about 5000 (about 302 dollars with the current exchange) pesos to move there, mostly because tijuana is so far away we need to take a 10 hour bus ride and a 3 hours flight and that is pricey, but also to have some money for food until I get my first paycheck and in between the checks I get from my scholarship.

I know I’ve asked for help before, and I also know there’s people who are in even more desperate situations than us, but I truly wouldn’t do this if i had any other choice, but my father has refused to help me in any way and there’s no one else we can borrow money from cause well we owe a lot already (about 80k pesos), truly anything, 1 or 2 dollars help, if not to buy the tickets at least for a meal, there’s a donation button on my blog, and my paypal is cats.and.lollipops@gmail.com (don’t laugh) and please please, if this post annoys you or upset you just block it or block me but please do refrain from sending mean anons, thanks a lot.

please read!

hi! so, my favorite animator recently created a video called Dog of Wisdom.  it was originally featured in another video of his,  Great: The Show episode 7 - Jade II. 

you may recognize the former video. it shows a dog riding in a little red plane in the air, who meets another dog riding on a cloud. it’s so far my favorite animation by joe gran right now.

i’ve seen that multiple people have been reposting joe gran’s dog video without crediting him or linking to the original video.

two such posts are 1) two screenshots of the video without linking to the original video and 2) the entire video posted in tumblr video format without crediting the original animator. this is what the post with the screenshots only looks like:

this post has almost 30,000 notes, while the original post from the animator only has almost 8,000.

so, please, if you see that video, or screenshots from that video, MAKE SURE THAT THE SOURCE IS JOEGRAN.TUMBLR.COM BEFORE YOU REBLOG/LIKE IT. he is the original animator AND poster of the video, so he should be the one getting recognition for this cute little dog video.

(please please please reblog this so that people know which post is the right one to reblog!!)

thank you!

Please Vote Here!

Hey everyone! I was asked to design and sew a custom Itty Bitty for Hallmark, and my design is now up for vote! I would really, really appreciate your support. The Itty Bitty with the most votes will be put into production and sold, which is a huge dream of mine.

It’s important to me that every kid who walks into a toy store is able to find something that is representative of/relatable to them, and this is my small effort into making that a reality.

You can vote once a day for one design per device (phone, tablet, computer, etc) which is a really, really difficult choice, (I love so many of them!) for the next 16 days, and I would love your support to make my mermaid dreams come true.

There are no bonuses or incentives for winning except that little kids (and big kids) all over the country would be able to have something I made.

Photo credits go to the lovely people at think.make.share.

Any kind of signal boost would also be really lovely of you! <3

Thank you!

a PSA for sea witches

please do not buy anything with sea horses in them, they are going extinct because of the craft, food, and medicine trade.

if sea horses mean a lot to you and in your craft, please look at alternatives to celebrate them. paint a picture, crochet one, do what i did and get a tattoo of one! 

or: 

If you love sea horses, then maybe you’d like to adopt one through a sea horse charity!

Or you can get a few prizes for adopting a seahorse and paying a little more!

You could even make it apart of your craft as a dedication to the ocean to make a single or monthly donation to one r two of these ocean/sea horse charities,

Project Seahorse

The seahorse trust

The Minnesota aquarium

seahorse hawaii

ocean conservatory 

science side of tumblr explain hentai

So what with the recent Deinocheirus fossil discovery, (A dinosaur previously only known from an enormous pair of arms,) I decided to do the sensible thing and make a pokémon.

I decided to name these guys Carpalethe and Kirorpse. They’re Rock/Ghost type, and are revived from the Forearm Fossil.

forcing people to listen to my music when I’m driving

Guys there’s a HUGE compilation of Pokemon Shaming illustrations being circulated on here and it has over 10 THOUSAND notes despite NONE of the images being sourced.

I follow the artist of one of them who doesn’t approve of their art being reposted so it’s safe to assume the OP didn’t ask permission from ANY of the artists. With all of the posts about art theft going around you all should know far better than to reblog blatantly reposted art so please stop reblogging that one post. It has more notes than half the images probably have by themselves so it’s incredibly disrespectful to keep circulating it despite that.

Reblog if you've ever smelled a book. My mom thinks I'm crazy.

Huh? I thought everyone did that?

@trans guys

so i saw this link on laverne cox’s twitter, and its an open casting call for a trans guy age 14-15 for “a series regular on an upcoming Netflix series from filmmakers Zal Batmanglij and Brit Marling (The East, Sound of my Voice). Produced by Plan B (12 Years a Slave, The Departed) and Anonymous Content.” so spread the word i guess.