from Tiny Beautiful Things, adapted for the stage by Nia Vardalos.
GET YOUR BODY OUT OF SURVIVAL MODE SO YOU CAN CREATE FROM YOUR HEART
I stare at the screen for hours, trying to make the words come out, but they won't. I can't compel myself to take a break, because there's this voice screaming at me from the base of my brain...
"You've been told you're a great writer, and you want to be a published author. But all you have to show for it after forty-four years are a dozen crash-and-burn writing projects. When you have the time to write, you don't, for a host of reasons. If you don't have something written by the time you die--which comes closer with every passing day--you've wasted your gifts, you've wasted all the effort people put into educating you, and you've wasted your life. So sit down and WRITE, you worthless piece of shit!"
How do you get past the paralysis caused by the obligation to produce? Is there a way to trick your brain and your body into writing? Or do you just slog on through, no matter how long you have to sit there to get a thousand words a day out?
Perhaps you could try to be kinder to yourself.
I always give myself permission to write or to do nothing at all (staring out of the window or at a wall is okay). After a while spent staring at a wall it's often easier to write.
Remember if you write a page a day -- 300 words -- at the end of a year you'll have a 100,000 word novel.
when susan sontag wrote “I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it”
Naomi Shihab Nye, from You & Yours: Poems; "The Sweet Arab, The Dangerous Arab," originally published in 2005
lowkey guys, remember to write for yourself too. i abandoned my favorite wip of all time for two years because i thought other people wouldn’t like it. that sucked, and i decided to stop caring if other people will think it’s weird and write what i like. it’s made me a lot happier since i’ve accepted that
“It’s never too late to start over again and to be happy.”
— Anurag Prakash Ray
i would describe myself as a “stay-at-home dragon”
Glennon Doyle, Untamed
i think ultimately you do really have to kill that part of your brain that vividly imagines how you would redo parts of your life.
stay close to everything that makes you feel alive