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i really don't think Mello gets enough credit for how good he is at staying calm in a crisis. like when he finds out Takimura is dead:

the rest of the mafia is in shambles, but Mello? smirking. unbothered. already moved onto his next plan.

and when the police force kills all his allies and raids his hideout:

he exhibits mild annoyance at best. he's certainly not happy about it, but he looks kind of pissed for about 2 panels, and then he immediately launches into action, focusing on self-preservation and taking measures to prevent the Death Note from falling into their hands. he's still moving, still calculating, still thinking on his feet. he didn't expect this but he's prepared for it, and when we next see his face in the monitor room:

smirking. totally unbothered yet again.

compare this to how Near reacts when the SPK raids his base:

angry. immediately breaks something. he does have a plan, and he jumps into action fairly soon after this, but he stays angry even while he's making preparations, and starts insulting the people who are attacking him.

to contrast this specifically against the scene of Mello's base being raided; both are about to lose access to their main hideout, both are at a genuine risk of being killed, and both have backup plans for their respective predicaments, yet the notoriously cool, calm and collected guy reacts more emotionally than the emotional guy.

When your mental state is not being able to decide between doing heroin and crying about Matt & Mello

sometimes love dies like a dog

I so desperately wish for official Matt art. Like I want him to be in the same style as the manga covers and to just see him like anywhere! Yeah there’s the game sprites and I adore them with all my heart but I want official Matt art that isn’t just him in the manga panels or his face in the anime like that picture of him without his goggles. I need more content of this man.

i love the fact that toby canonically has bipolar disorder and schizophrenia (schizoaffective disorder)

i finally have a character to project my mental illness onto

i wish people had more fun with the canon adjacent concept that matt is inherently fucking SHIT at helping mello and mello’s just really chill about it

cant tell if i just finally have motivation to do things or if im entering a (hypo)manic episode

lmfao make Matt, Mello, and Near YouTubers and make them do the Blind, Deaf, Mute baking challenge HAHAHAHA

I want Mello to be mute so he can't fucking complain or yell at Matt and Near for not doing something right, so he's just standing there motioning vaguely to Matt

Matt is deaf, so he's fucking loud as hell the whole time and he keeps yelling into Near's ear, trying to give Near instructions and Near is slowly losing his sanity while stirring eggs and flour and shit

Near is blind, obviously, so he can talk and hear and he's fucking miserable lmfao, and he keeps talking to Mello, trying to help him,, but Mello can't fucking hear Near over Matt's constant screaming and singing

This is so funny to me omg

cue Mello trying to talk despite his mouth being taped and Near perks up and points at him and Matt is like what???? is he trying to talk??? And Near nods and Matt looks at Mello and yells "dude, stop breaking the rules!" And Mello glares at Near like "you fucking tattle tale brat" and Near shrugs

Hyperactive guy who doesn’t shut up and girl who doesn’t react to anything or talk..