she was looking for a crumb; anything to hang on to. she had seen the look in his eyes lately. the one that sneaked out when his armor could be broken. but it was never with her. but she saw the old hangman the one who had been her person.
that smile would bring her own to her face, "well that sounds like that's a current point of view. and I'm just glad the cowboy can be fond of something. since you've been all stabby and burny lately." she had kept her distant in the beginning, a war had been waged and she didn't know how she and the other parties involved had gotten out of it.
@powertobite sent ; you sound like you're still in love with me
hangman tensed up, jaw clenched to the point where he could feel the soreness, eyes narrowed on the woman in front of him. he wasn’t ready to admit it to himself, so how would he even admit it to her? instead he shook his head and let his gaze travel downward, running a hand through his hair. don’t give yourself away he told himself in his head, but he stayed as collected as possible as he chuckled to himself.
“i don’t know about all that, but i guess you can say i’m pretty… fond of you.” hangman met her eyes and gave her a sly smile. there was no doubt that he missed her, azin was all he managed to think about. he was a fool for letting her go and he’d never forgive himself for it, but there was nothing that said he couldn’t try and win her back.
𝑫𝑬𝑨𝑫𝑳𝒀 𝑵𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑫𝑬 . ( angst - oriented sentence starters . dark & potentially triggering themes are present . )
❛ no … no , why would you do that ? ❜ ❛ fight back . fight back ! ❜ ❛ when were you going to tell me ? ❜ ❛ don’t fucking touch me . ❜ ❛ you promised . you fucking promised . ❜ ❛ i never wanted to hurt you . ❜ ❛ run . run & don’t stop . ❜ ❛ you’re a fucking stereotype . ❜ ❛ please don’t go … please don’t go . ❜ ❛ i’m putting you out of your misery . ❜ ❛ what makes you think i’d listen to a word you say ? ❜ ❛ this is what you think love is ?? ❜ ❛ i never should’ve trusted you . ❜ ❛ i love you . is that what you wanted to hear ? ❜ ❛ you’re so fucking pathetic . ❜ ❛ nobody can help me . not even you . ❜ ❛ don’t act like you know me . ❜ ❛ i’ve got my own shit to deal with . ❜ ❛ i’m saying my goodbyes . ❜ ❛ please don’t go . ❜ ❛ i’d rather drop dead . ❜ ❛ i loved you , you know ? ❜ ❛ talk to me . ❜ ❛ what , was i just a charity case ?? ❜ ❛ i feel so fucking stupid . ❜ ❛ i want to be alone . ❜ ❛ that’s low , even for you . ❜ ❛ say that again , i fucking dare you . ❜ ❛ i can’t … i can’t feel my - ❜ ❛ i’m so fucking tired , i just … i can’t . ❜ ❛ we’ve missed so much . ❜ ❛ what , you’re gonna shoot me ? ❜ ❛ you’re nothing . ❜ ❛ stop looking at me like that . like i’m broken . ❜ ❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood . ❜ ❛ don’t shut me out . ❜ ❛ it’s not real . it’s not real . ❜ ❛ you’re just saying what i want to hear . ❜ ❛ i swear , i’ll kill you . ❜ ❛ stop … just stop fucking lying . stop . ❜ ❛ just tell me what you did . ❜ ❛ i already know what you did , i just want to hear it from you . ❜ ❛ i needed you to be different . ❜ ❛ how long has it been since you’ve eaten ? ❜ ❛ put the [ gun / knife ] down . ❜ ❛ what do you want from me ? ❜ ❛ we’ve lost so much time . ❜ ❛ i really fucking hate you , sometimes . ❜ ❛ i can’t … i can’t , i can’t do this today . ❜ ❛ you know , i never wanted to hurt you . ❜ ❛ i shouldn’t have to beg you to love me . ❜ ❛ i don’t owe you shit . ❜ ❛ don’t say it , don’t fucking say it . ❜ ❛ it sounds like you’ve been crying … ❜
Santanico Pandemonium | 1x07
The only place in the house that really seemed lived in was the gaming room when she first got there, and she didn't want Tyson to think she had moved in without his consent, so she kept her things in her suitcase. "I would never change the gaming room, although." she said tapping her bottom lip, "I wouldn't mind adding one of those big plushy chairs so that I can hang out in there with you and be a little more comfortable if I'm not playing. Plus Dobby and I have talked about it, he would like that too." she teases back. "I feel like the first thing we do is actually unpack my clothes, that'll be the first little celebratory thing. How's that? We'll start small, bedroom first. Then the kitchen."
@powertobite: "don't tell anyone, but i love you."
It wasn’t the first time he heard those three words from her, but regardless it made him smile each and every time she said it, as if it had been. Throughout his time apart from wrestling, she had been there for him every step of the way, for the little things like going to the Pharmacy for him, to being by his bed side night after night, when he was in the hospital for weeks at a time. Tyson didn’t think it was possible for him to love her any more, but somehow she managed to find a way every single day, just by being her. “Since we’re sharing secrets, I have one for you. I love you too.” He leaned in a bit as he went on to say. “—and to be honest, I think it’s bout time you moved in with me.”
i can't relate to desperation.