I Just Want Her To Be Happy

Are you already on your way? I've come with you this far, I'm never really lost, Our paths will surely cross.

girls who gonna be fine

If another profile with a woman in swimwear follows me while I'm sleeping I will cry

Update: they multiplied.

Starting on a new animation project! Thankyou all for your kind comments on my previous work!

how we feelin

Cant get over the thought that prosekai characters are easy to kin/relate to because the devs and stuff wanted to connect with us and tell us that "hey you're okay, you're not the only one who feels this and that's okay because we're here for you so here's this character that you'll relate to and eventually gets better in hopes you'll get better too" cause pjsk wants to reach out to us and stuff augh i hare you sega and colorful pallete/pos/aff

Miku and the virtual singers r the devs, Sega and cp , you're the main chars cuz miku is always wanting to reach out to them

Everyone be happy!! Remember that ichika saki shiho honami minori airi haruka Shizuku an kohane akito toya emu nene tsukasa rui mizuki ena mafuyu and kanade were made for you! :)

okay but are we even ready for ena5!!! my girl ena is gonna go berserk you know that right!!! like in mizu1 mizuki looked sad on the train back home and ena wakes up and opens her eyes for 0.5 seconds and decides to go on a mission to find out what is bothering mizuki and becomes obsessed??? mizuki declines hanging out with niigo and knmf are like “ok no biggie” and ena is like OH GOD NO!!! and invites her out constantly to make sure she doesnt shut herself off? and all this based on… one facial expression one time??? she even gets shizuairi involved like PLEASE lesbians help me my friend is keeping smth that is bothering her to herself like! and she pushes and pushes and then decides to give the most romantic declaration like “okay fine i trust you. i’ll wait for you to be able to find the strength to tell me by your side, forever if necessary.” LIKE OKAY ms lesbotron 6000 calm yo ass down!! and even in mizu5 in the escape room she was like “haha i can solve the room bc I know how mizuki thinks :)” and gets it right!! (tho touya had changed the riddle). like she’s obsessed with mizuki lmao. AND NOW MIZUKI’S MISSING? RIGHT AFTER BEING OUTED TO ENA? and ena couldnt stop her from running away???? guys she went insane off one look she’s gonna move mountains to get her girl back im telling you she’s gonna harass the whole world maybe even travel to france to get yuuki like im telling u i cant wait to see her completely lose her mind tbh <3 ena ily

im literally sobbing in bed trying to sleep but mizu5 literally tore my heart out. i cant stop crying fr. i genuinely think mizuki akiyama is making history as one of the best written trans characters im so serious. the kindness and carefulness in which her story is being told is mindblowing. this event was perfect tbh. im so fr. no way after such a long wait the secret was gonna be revealed with happy tears and there. done. this event Physically altered the game. it’s the only event to do so, and the only event to end on such a cliffhanger. the way the whole event gets the player to empathise fully with mizuki - you feel her anxiety and her fear and pain. and then the rooftop scene. it was unbearable. her coming out was taken away from her. she had to see ena’s shocked expression from the sidelines. ena, the one she wanted to tell the most. ena, who has been waiting for her by her side for all this time. seeing the realization dawn on ena is too much for and she runs, like she always has. even though she Knows ena was just shocked. she Knows ena and niigo will accept her.

(sidenote i cut lots of dialogue from the screenshots above bc tumblr 10 images limit)

“you’re so kind, ena.” but that does not matter. it’s all ruined. in niigo’s eyes, mizuki was just a girl. a “normal girl”, as the classmates called ena. even if niigo accepts her, she’s terrified that they’re never gonna see her as a “real girl” again. just like her classmates. this change in their perception is heartbreaking, terrifying. and even more than that is the fear that from now on, niigo is only gonna act normal around her out of pity. the thought is unbearable. it’s all ruined. nothing can ever be like before in mizuki’s eyes. her precious, safe place was ripped away from her. mizuki’s pain felt so real and raw that i still get chills when i think of the last two chapters of this event. the way ena screamed and ran after her, her desperation to reach her, her horror at seeing how much mizuki’s been suffering, the way mizuki’s coming out was also taken away from ena. their precious moment, long awaited, stolen and destroyed by some careless, transphobic comments. “are you also a dude?”. ena’s anger at herself for not being able to reassure mizuki, for not knowing what to say in the face of all that hurt and fear.

the event ends with an unskippable black screen, and mizuki’s voice saying “you reap what you sow,” and then these lines:

mizuki’s dissociation and suicidal thoughts hit me like a truck. as meiko told kaito, this situation is so fragile. and all it took was ena’s shocked expression to send mizuki into a dissociative spiral.

(continues in rb)

me when i am supposed to be sleeping vs me when i am not supposed to be sleeping

Toya colored pencil drawing! 🐠