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hey i had an idea and i love your seb x reader writing so i wanted to send this to you! driver! reader has a really big accident during a race like shes in a coma for some time seb becomes this completely closed off person but he visits you everyday so one day he comes to the hospital ig and readers heart stopped or something but then she comes back to life and wakes up or she dies idk if they have kids but would be nice if theyāre married. idk i leave it up to you just give me some angst pls ššš
Pairing; Sebastian Vettel x Wife!driver!reader
Summary; Sebastianās world is turned upside down when he finds out the reason behind the red flag, the aftermath is just as torturous as the moment he got the news.
Warnings; Serious crash (a bit like Jules Bianchiās), angst, coma, severe injuries, Sebastianās sad :( Also Kimi and Seb bickering like children.
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It was no secret that Formula One was a dangerous sport, the fans knew it, the FIA knew it and the drivers knew it; but there are decisions that need to be made in order to protect the drivers because their safety should be the number one concern.
So when the FIA decided that that the weather in Suzuka wasnāt severe enough to postpone or cancel the race, pretty much every driver was against getting back on the track, there had already been a crash and to continue was just plain stupid.
Y/N knew that everyone, including the drivers, had their eyes on her. She had won the last few seasons and was the one to beat.
She never had a problem driving in the rain, in fact most of the time it added to the thrill of the race but when you could hardly even see the steering wheel you were holding, it wasnāt fun, it was scary.
She didnāt really know what had happened, she was battling Max Verstappen who had been recently promoted to RedBull; sheās been enjoying the challenge the younger driver is offering her but there were times that she didnāt agree with his decisions, they could be extremely risky and not in a good way, in a way that could cause some serious damage to either him or someone else and it seemed that this time was one of those times that his risks had consequences.
She had been ahead of him when she felt the contact that had been made to the back of her car, it wasnāt light at all, it sent her spinning completely off the track and with the slippery track and the rain continuing to pour she could not stop the car no matter how hard she tried to gain control.
She heard the gasps of the crowd as her car flipped and spun but it faded away as she tried to keep herself from moving about too much in her car; wondering how long it would take for her to stop.
Y/N did stop, eventually, but the moment she felt the contact she knew something was wrong. It felt like she had hit a brick wall, she heard the crumpling of the carās structure before a pain like no other filled her entire body; her head throbbed and her eyes fluttered closed, her body shrouded by the remains of her car and the heavy rain.
"Red flag, Sebastian, youāre heading into the pits," Riccardo spoke over the radio.
"Fuck sake! I told you guys we shouldnāt have been sent back out here, what happened?" To say he was angry was an understatement, for the FIA to risk the lives of every driver on this track was ridiculous and quite frankly plain stupid.
"What happened, who was it?" He asked again when he wasnāt given an answer, pulling into the pits behind the two Redbulls.
"Thereās been a crash, no response," Riccardo vaguely replied.
Sebastian sighed in frustration at the lack of information and detached his steering wheel, pulling himself out of the car, he didnāt even have time to pull his helmet off before Max was walking up to him and grabbing his arms.
"Seb Iām so sorry, I lost my grip and I couldnāt control it and we just collided-"
Sebastian shook his head, cutting Max off. "What are you talking about, what happened?"
Max simply stared at Seb for a moment, guilt filling his entire body as he realised Sebastian had absolutely no idea. "Seb, itās Y/Nā¦."
It was as thought the world had stopped turning, Maxās voice had faded away along with the sound of the crowds and everything else around him, the only thing he heard were his racing thoughts as he remembered Riccardoās words.
No response
No response
No response
He looked up at the big screen that was showing the wreckage live, his heart dropped, the car was completely crushed and she was still in it.
He saw as a few of the Marshalls looked towards the ground briefly before looking into the direction of the camera as they all started making the same gesture, not even a minute later the screen was shut off so that no one could see what was happening.
Sebastian didnāt register his feet moving or the drop of Maxās hand from his shoulder but the next moment he was storming into the Mercedes garage demanding for some sort of information.
If it was any other driver entering their garage without permission they wouldāve been immediately kicked out but knowing that Sebastian was here for no other reason that to know if his wife was okay they didnāt mention the red race suit that stood out against everyone elseās black and white uniform.
Seeing that Sebastian was simply stood there, seemingly not knowing what to do, Toto walked over to him and directed him away from his team so that they could talk.
"There was no response over the radio so we can assume that sheās unconscious, she went into that barrier at an incredible speed and the from the damage we can see thereās no way she isnāt injured in some way so sheās going to be airlifted to the nearest hospital, okay?" He spoke in a low voice so that no one could hear besides the two of them.
Sebastian made no indication that he had registered Totoās words but he did swallow thickly before simply walking away and making his way into his own garage; he didnāt speak to anyone, instead heading straight to his drivers room.
He has taken the quickest shower of his life and changed into regular clothes, he had no intention of getting back into that car this weekend and if anyone expected him to then they were delusional.
As soon as he walked through the doors of the hospital he was approached by an older looking nurse that seemed to have been waiting for him and he could tell by the look on her face that he wasnāt going to hear anything good.
She gestured him to follow her; she lead him into an empty hospital room and gestured for him to sit down on one of the two chairs that were underneath the window, she took the other.
"Mr Vettel, Iām going to be straight with you because I wouldnāt want anyone to beat around the bush if I was in your position. The speed and force at which your wife crashed into barrier quite frankly should have killed her so bear that in mind when I go over her injuries with you because they might sound bad but for what happened Iād say she got out lucky."
Her words cut through Sebastian like a knife, tearing into his skin to leave him vulnerable to whatever she has to say next. Though, heās grateful sheās telling him how it is instead of sugar coating the severity of everything just so that heās not uncomfortable, he wants to understand and be aware of what exactly has happened so he gulped and nodded for her to continue.
She didnāt look at him sympathetically which he was thankful for but her expression was comforting. "The impact shattered Mrs Vettelās tibia and fibula in her right leg, three of her ribs were also broken and a few of them are bruised, during the crash something must have made contact with your wifeās head because when we were cutting the helmet off the back of it was already broken through and itās caused her some severe trauma to her head."
It was as though Sebastian felt the pain with each injury that was listed, the nurse was explaining it precise and slow so that he could probably understand it but there was really only one thing he wanted to know. "Is my wife going to be okay?"
This time the nurse did look at him sympathetically as she saw the pure worry in his eyes, she could see the love he felt for the Mercedes driver and the pain that this was causing him.
"Your wife is in surgery right now to fix both bones in her leg and suture up the injury on her scalp, her ribs should heal by themselves in at least six weeks but will most likely be longer, the thing weāre most worried about however is when sheās going to wake up. Whilst the knock on her head hasnāt caused any internal bleeding, we do think thatās the reason she was unconscious and not the crash itself."
Sebastianās blood went cold at her words, "So-what, sheās in a coma?"
The woman nodded in confirmation. "Yes, itās hard to determine when a person in a coma is going to wake up because each person is different when theyāre in a position like this and Iām aware of how difficult this is for you to hear but whilst sheās in this state, itās really the best time for her injuries to heal and hopefully sheāll wake after the worst of the pain has passed."
"How long do you think sheāll be in the coma for?"
"It varies from person to person but Iād say anywhere between a few weeks to a few months."
Sebastian nodded his head, glancing down to his lap where he was fiddling with his wedding ring. "Thank you." He simply muttered to the nurse who took that as her cue to leave.
"Mrs Vettel will be brought here after her surgery is complete, youāre welcome to wait until then or if you wish to go and come back after theyāre finished we can give you a call if-"
"Iāll wait," Sebastian interrupted her and she nodded before leaving the room, closing the door behind her.
Sebastian sighed heavily into the silence of the room, placing his head in his hands; now that he was alone the strong front he had put up had disappeared, before he could stop it his eyes were watering and silent tears were falling into his hands.
He didnāt know how long he sat like that before he heard the doors to the room open and a bed was wheeled in by four or five doctors, once the bed was locked in the middle of the room all of them left but one.
The man was probably in his forties but he seemed kind enough as he regarded Sebastian. "You must be Mr Vettel?"
Sebastian hastily wiped his eyes before rubbing his hands on his legs, nodding his head.
The doctor smiled before speaking. "The surgery went well, both bones in your wifeās leg have been reconstructed but those pins will have to stay there for a month or two and afterwards sheāll need physical therapy to regain her strength back and the cut to her head has been sutured up with no issues. A nurse will come by tonight to check her vitals and ensure everything is okay, they usually do checkups every 6-8 hours but if you need something then feel free to press the button."
"I will, thank you." Sebastian smiled weakly.
"As you are her husband you can come and go as you like, you are more than welcome to have someone come and take your place when you want to go and shower or rest. If anyone wishes to come and visit then visiting hours are between 8am and 8pm, after that we only permit one person to stay."
The doctor left shortly after and after taking a deep breath Sebastian got up from his seat beneath the window and made his way to the bed.
The sight of her made him want to burst into tears all over again, she had cuts and bruises all over her face and arms, her right left was resting on a pillow but trapped inside a metal brace that was attached to the pins inside her leg, her head was bandaged to protect the stitches on from the pillow she was laying on.
She looked lifeless and the sight of it pretty much tore him in two.
He didnāt know what to do, he was here alone and the love of his life almost died.
He carefully leaned against the edge of the bed, making sure he didnāt budge anything he shouldnāt before carefully grabbing her left hand, it was bare of any rings and Sebastian hoped that they were in her driverās room somewhere and not lost because she was so protective over them rings and would be pissed if they were lost.
He brought her hand to his lips and pressed a soft kiss to the back of it.
It was way too silent in here, he hated it.
He leaned his body forward and pressed his face into the pillow, being mindful that he wasnāt hurting her even if she was unconscious and most likely wouldnāt feel it.
"Please come back to me, Liebling. I need you so much."
Sebastian didnāt leave the hospital that night, he had dragged the chair across the room so he could spend the night beside his wife, he hardly slept instead choosing to sit and simply watch as she āsleptā hoping that if he stayed awake long enough then eventually she would wake up.
She didnāt.
He had countless messages from family and drivers but he didnāt answer them, he knew not answering her family was selfish but he found that he really only cared about Y/N and no one else, that and he wasnāt ready to talk about it.
He messaged her and his parents this morning explaining what the doctors had told him yesterday but had left the other messages unread.
Not once had he let go of her hand, not when the nurses came in every couple of hours to do their checkups or when they brought him something to drink or eat, most of which went untouched.
He couldnāt explain the heartache he was feeling, to have the person you love the most in the world be in such a vulnerable position was heart wrenching, especially when it was your job and vow to protect them.
He couldnāt have stopped that crash but he will make sure he is around for every step of her recovery process.
Sebastian was thankful that there wasnāt a race this week because there was no way he was leaving her in the hospital alone to get in the car, he wasnāt in the right mindset anyways.
It seemed silly that he was also thankful that there was only four races left and Y/N had already won the championship otherwise he wouldāve been devastated for her.
A knock at the door tore him away from his thoughts and he assumed that it was a nurse but was proved wrong when Max walked through the door with flowers in his hand.
Sebastian pursed his lips and looked down, he couldnāt even look at the man knowing that he was the reason his wife was unconscious in the hospital.
He knew it was wrong to blame him because he had no grip and the weather was no help but he was aware of the way the younger lad drove and knew that he took unnecessary risks, risks that couldāve killed the woman he loved.
"Uhm," Max cleared his throat awkwardly. "I messaged to see if it was okay for me to come but I didnāt get an answer and I just needed to see if she was okay."
Sebastian bit his tongue which was hard when everything inside him wanted to turn and shout at the RedBull driver that this was all his fault and he had no right to come here when he was the reason she was here in the first place, and his wife didnāt even like fucking roses so be can shove them up his arse for all Sebastian cared.
"Is she okay?"
Sebastian scoffed at the question, looking up at Max as if questioning his sanity. "Does she look okay?"
Max looked at him guiltily before glancing away, not being able to stand the look of complete despair in the Germanās eyes.
"Just leave," Sebastian shook his head. "My wifeās pretty much on her death bed right now because of you and I really donāt need you coming here pretending like you care when we both know that that the only thing you care about when youāre in that car is yourself, not anyone else and certainly not their lives."
Max bit back the retort thatās on the end of his tongue knowing that the man was not in the right place right now so he placed the flowers on the table by the door and took his leave.
Sebastian sighed and tipped his head back to try and stop himself from crying, he needed to stop crying, he hadnāt done anything else in the last 24 hours.
It had been a week and Sebastian had talked to no one, none of the drivers had tried to visit so he assumed that Max had warned them to stay away which he was glad.
He had left the hospital only twice to pack some clothes and essentials for the two of them, Y/N still hadnāt woken up but the bruising on her face and arms was going down and the doctors had said her ribs were healing nicely.
He had never realised how much he had depended on her and needed her until he didnāt have her to depend on.
He loved her so much and felt like he was going insane with her right next to him but not exactly there at the same time.
Shortly after Max had left that day, two nurses had came in with Y/Nās race suit, fireproofs, balaclava, gloves, boots, two halves of her race helmet and her rings.
Sebastian had wasted no time in placing her rings back onto her hand, he didnāt think she looked right without them and knew that if she woke up without them on her hand she wouldnāt be impressed.
He had almost cried again when he picked up both pieces of her helmet and saw the place where she had been stricken on the head, there was a gash that went right through the helmet and a large red stain on her balaclava that would be beneath where the hole on her helmet is.
He had told his and Y/Nās parents that there was no point in flying in to visit until she was awake and they agreed, he also assumed that the teams had all flown back to their headquarters or the next race location so he was here alone.
Quite frankly, Sebastian didnāt know what to do, there was a race in America this week and even though it was the last thing on his mind and the last thing he wanted to do he knew that he had an obligation to be there, he couldnāt just not show up and it seemed like Britta had the same idea as he saw her name pop up on his phone trying to call him, it wasnāt the first time but it seemed like she was unrelenting this time.
"What do you want?" He sighed as he pressed the phone against his ear, running a hand over his face.
"Oh, so you are alive!" Her surprised voice was way too loud in his ear.
"Just tell me what you want, Britta." Sebastian had no time or patience for her teasing or jokes.
"You need to be in America in three days, Sebastian, I understand that you donāt want to see anyone and the last thing you want to do is get in a car but you do have an obligation to be there." She told him sadly.
"I have an obligation to take care of my family, Britta, I couldnāt give a shit about racing."
"You canāt stay in Japan, Seb."
"What do you want me to do, leave her here in a different country by herself?"
"I think you should move her to a facility in Switzerland for starters so that you can at least be near home."
Sebastian stayed silent, he couldnāt argue with that logic, it probably would be better, even for Y/N so that she wouldnāt have to fly when she was awake and recovering.
"Iāll talk to you tomorrow," he told her before hanging up, not allowing her to say anything else.
The next day he had payed to have Y/N transferred to the closest hospital to where they lived in Switzerland and had flown out her parents so that they could stay with her whilst he was in America.
He had put his foot down on missing media day, heād go Friday, Saturday and leave immediately after the race on Sunday and would call his in laws multiple times a day whilst he was gone, he was not happy about it but it was the best he could do.
They were currently waiting outside of the room whilst Sebastian said his goodbyes to Y/N, he had spoken to her everyday just on the off chance that she could hear everything that was going on around her, the last thing he wanted was for her to have to suffer in silence whilst she was in this position.
He pressed his forehead against hers, which was now bandage free, closing his eyes to relish in the contact that he wouldnāt have for the next couple of days.
"I love you so much, liebe and Iām going to be back as soon as I can. You better not wake up whilst Iām gone otherwise Iām going to be pissed off with you," he chuckled weakly knowing that is something sheād probably do.
He pressed a kiss to her head and one to the back of her hand before reluctantly getting up, grabbing his back and leaving the room, knowing that if he didnāt go now then he never would.
Sebastian knew he was pushing his limits but couldnāt find it in himself to care, it was Friday and he had arrived in America this morning but hadnāt shown up at the track until just ten minutes before FP1 started.
He had been on the phone with his mother in law as soon as he got off the plane and hadnāt hung up until a few hours later but the real reason he had left it so long to head to the track was so that he could avoid most of the cameras as he was walking in, knowing that theyād now mostly be focused on the team garages.
Speaking of teams, Y/Nās seat had been filled in by Esteban Ocon for the rest of the season, the smallest part of Sebastian felt guilty knowing that Toto Wolff had been trying to find out what was going on with his driver but Seb had made sure everything was kept under wraps.
The only people who knew how she was were family, Britta and Y/Nās PR manager, Freya and every single one of them had no intention of spilling any information.
He could feel the eyes on him and hear the muttering as he walked through the paddock, he hadnāt even been here five minutes and he was already getting annoyed by the cameras and how loud it was.
It pissed him off even more when he saw team members from other motorhomes coming out to watch as if he was going to stand there and make a grand statement to let them all know how Y/N was.
He just ignored them and walked into the Ferrari motor home to his drivers room so he could change into his race gear.
He made sure he had his helmet on before he left his room, making a clear statement that he was in no mood to talk to anyone, thankfully the team respected it and let him get straight into the car, just in time for FP1 to start.
It felt wrong, he and Y/N had a small ritual they did before they got into the car, they had done it for years and this would be the first time getting into the car without it.
"Okay, Sebastian, youāre free to leave the garage, just give Mattia a heads up when youāre ready. Youāre on mediums for now," Riccardo spoke through his ear piece.
Sebastian didnāt answer but he did nod his head towards a mechanic to let him know he was ready.
He was top of the time sheet for both practises today, he wouldnāt say he had tried to be in that position, he had just channelled his frustration into his driving.
"Sebastian, top of the time sheet today, does that mean the car was feeling well for you?" The woman in front of him asked, holding out her microphone for him.
"It felt fine," he responded, he wasnāt even looking at her, he was too busy thinking about phoning Y/Nās parents when he got out of here.
"Youāre back after a week off, did you end up doing anything interesting?" He was aware that the woman was trying to subtly pry information from him about Y/N and it pissed him off so he just scoffed and walked away, knowing Britta was going to have to do a bit of damage control.
"Hey! Seb! Seb!" He heard Lewis call after him but continued walking causing the English driver to have to run to catch up to him, clasping a hand on Sebastianās shoulder to get him to stop walking.
"Hey, are you alright, mate?"
Sebastian rolled his eyes "Iād be find if everyone stopped asking me that stupid question."
"Alright," Lewis nodded, not one to get offended or hurt at the tone Sebastian used because he understood. "Howās my teammate?"
Seb raised a hand to his forehead in frustration at the question, he could feel himself losing it. "What do you want me to say, Lewis? Sheās clearly not fine other wise you wouldāve heard something so will you and everyone else just leave me the fuck alone."
He didnāt wait for a reply, instead walking away, hopefully to make that phone call heās been wanting to make since the last one had ended but just as he was about to shut the door to his driverās room, a hand caught it.
"For fuck sake, can I not get a moment alone around here!?"
"Donāt start your attitude with me," Kimi grunted and Sebastian sighed, now was not the time for him to deal with Kimi.
"What do you want?"
"I want what everyone else wants."
"Well I hate to break it to you but just because youāre my teammate doesnāt mean Iām telling you how she is."
Kimi rolled his eyes and made himself comfortable on Sebastianās bed whilst the latter was looking around for his phone.
"Thatās not what I was talking about, Iām talking about the mood youāre in, you need to get out of it and get a grip, thatās what Y/N would want, not you walking around and sulking ruining everyone elseās day."
Sebastian shot him a dirty look. "You donāt know what sheād want and neither do I right now because sheās in the hospital, and if anyone has a problem with my attitude Iām perfectly fine with them staying away from me."
Kimi sent him a sarcastic smile, matching his attitude. "Well I have a problem with it cause you took my personality."
"What?"
Kimi sighed and stretched out. "You know how exhausting it is to have to be the happy one out of the two of us, thatās supposed to be your job but since Y/Nās crash, I have to be that person and Iām sick of it."
"Well Iām sorry that my wifeās injuries are such an inconvenience to you," Sebastian rolled his eyes.
Kimi groaned in annoyance, "you are so fucking annoying without her."
"Thanks, Iāll tell Minttu you said that." Sebastian replied sarcastically, now having his phone in his hand.
"Go for it," Kimi shrugged. "When Y/N wakes up Iāll tell her how much of an arsehole youāve been."
Seb ignored him and pressed his phone to his hear, waiting for his mother in law to pick up for an update.
He had finished P4 in the race that weekend and had gotten straight on a flight back to Switzerland, skipping his post race interviews in the media tent.
He hadnāt even called Y/Nās parents after the race for an update, instead settling for a simple text in the airport when he was boarding the plane; both of them were picking him up from the airport and taking him straight to the hospital, he was strangely looking forward to being able to see her again, even if she was still in a coma.
He was happy that his flight had quite literally flown by and was sitting in the car behind his in laws just twenty minutes after landing.
"How is she?" He immediately asked.
"Sheās okay, the doctors have said sheās healing up nicely." Y/Nās dad told him, the news relaxing him a bit.
"Are you guys coming in?" He asked as he held the car door open, surprised when he saw them both shaking their heads.
"Weāll come by tomorrow, you should have some time alone with her."
Sebastian nodded and bid them goodbye, actually happy that they had chosen to do that because after not seeing her for a couple of days, some time alone was what he needed.
He practically ran through the hallways of the hospital, care workers saw him but chose not to reprimand him as they were aware of who he was and how eager he probably was to see his wife.
He exhaled heavily when he got to the closed door of her room, standing there for a few moments to calm down a bit.
When he pushed open the door, he got the shock of his life.
Y/N was lying there in her hospital bed with her leg still resting on a pillow as it had been for the last two weeks but this time, the top of her bed was raised to put her in a sitting position, she had oxygen tubes in her nose but her head was turned towards the door he had just walked through and she was looking at him!
She was clearly very sleepy and tired but her eyes were as open as far as she could hold them and she was looking at him with a sleepy smile on her face.
She blinked slowly at him for a moment as he stared before holding out her hand for him and he took that as his cue to move towards her.
"Hi baby," she mumbled through a smile, not really having the energy to say anything more but it was enough for Sebastianās eyes to start watering as he collapsed onto the chair that was beside her bed, grasping her hand in his own.
He raised his other to her cheek and softly stroked the skin there, smiling through his tears as he felt her lean into his touch.
"Hi," he breathed in disbelief, "How long have you been awake?" He whispered, fearing if he spoke any louder it would hurt her.
"Before the race, I watched it," she told him as though she was proud of herself was waking up in time to see it.
"Yeah? What did you think?" He humoured her, not really wanting to talk about the race but it seemed to make her happy so he did.
"You did good," she told him, subtly rubbing her thumb across his hand.
Sebastian simply smiled at her, he wiped his face on his arm to get rid of his tears before looking back at her again with nothing but adoration in his eyes.
"I love you so much." He told her surely, as though she may have forgotten whilst she was in the coma.
"Ich liebe dich auch," she replied back softly making him laugh, she always said it in his native language because she thought it would feel more real for him to hear.
"Are you tired?" He asked when he noticed her fighting to keep her eyes open.
Y/N nodded slowly before looking at him. "Come and lay with me," she told him.
Sebastian shook his head softly even though he wanted nothing more than to cuddle with her. "Thatās probably not a good idea, liebe."
"When has that ever stopped you?" She pouted but rose an eyebrow at him.
He couldnāt argue with her there so he got up from his seat, protesting when she tried to move and make room for him.
He climbed in next to her and lightly wrapped his arm around her, she scooted closer and carefully adjusted her top hand so that her head was resting against him.
Sebastian rested his head against hers, pressing a kiss into her hair. "Liebe?" He asked, earning a slight hum in return.
"Donāt listen to anything Kimi says, heās a liar."
"Hmākay, Seb." She muttered, already pretty much asleep.
"I missed you so much," he muttered against her, carefully tightening the arm he had wrapped around her,
He wouldnāt be letting her out of his sight again.
summary: charles gives you an ultimatum.
pairing: carlos sainz x fem! leclerc! reader
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When Carlos overtook Charles you knew he was racing purely for himself. You both knew it could be his last podium, and maybe, just maybe, he didnāt want to share it with his teammate. It just sucked that his teammate was your brother.Ā
Charles had never been good at sharing when it came to racing, but he was a Ferrari driver through and through, heād be a team player if he had t, and they were boh supposed to be team players. Carlos was done with it, and you understood why. Heād been second to Charles his entire time at Ferrari, second to Max in Toro Rosso, ousted by Danny Ric in Renault, and now heād be in Williams. He was sick of being seen as less than his teammates, when, if he had that same backing they did, he couldāve been a World Champion.Ā
You waited at the barricade for the both of them, not quite sure how they would react. Charles came out first, youād heard his radio message.Ā
He walked over to Alexandra with a sigh. āItās such bullshit,ā he scoffed. Then his eyes met yours. āYou have to make a choice now, and it isnāt about love. Itās about blood, itās about dad. Heās not welcome in our home. Heās not fucking welcome at Christmas, at birthdays, ever. You need to pick.ā
You stared at him for a moment. Heād never been so harsh. Heād never given you an ultimatum before. Alexandra looked at you, concerned. āCharles, no. Thatās not fair-ā
āYouāre not in this conversation,ā he quipped. āY/n. Choose.ā
āDonāt talk to her like that-āĀ
āY/n,ā Carlos was in front of you, looking at you, practically pleading with you to choose him. You loved him, he loved you. Charles was your brother.Ā
You looked at your brother. āCarlos,ā you said, your voice strong and clear. Carlos wrapped his arms around you as you stared at Charles. He nodded, his lips a line, before he walked off.Ā
āThank you,ā he whispered against your skin. You could feel the mix of sweat and tears against your neck. He pulled back with a smile. āThank you. I love you.ā
You smiled, tears welling up in your eyes. āCongratulations,ā you whispered, pressing a kiss to his cheek. āI love you too.ā
If Carlos had taught you one thing, it was that love shouldnāt hurt. Charles hurt you time and time again, always playing the older brother card whenever he wanted you to do something. Carlos never did that. He actually loved you.Ā
He wiped the tears off your cheeks as they fell, āWeāll work it out,ā he promised you. āIāll speak to him.āĀ
You shook your head. āEnjoy tonight my love,ā you smiled. āYouāre a winner. I love you.ā
He offered a gentle smile. āI love you too.āĀ
Youād figure it out. Together.
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COME WHAT MAY | Sebastian Vettel ā©āĖ.ā ACT I: LOSS OF MY LIFE [PREVIOUS PART] [NEXT PART]
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Red Bull Sebastian Vettel x Red Bull intern & Webber girlfriend!Reader
SUMMARY: During 2010 RB6 presentation and preseason testing, Mark starts acting quite weird with you. To your surprise, Webber gives some opinions on your work that start making you overthink, even when Seb tries his best to calm you down. You know 2010 season is going to be a hell when Webber asks to have a private conversation with Christian Horner and Helmut Marko.
WORD COUNT: 3695
WARNINGS: Angst, curse words and bad language, toxic relationships involving mental abuse and manipulation, such a toxic Mark Webber, mentions of death and suicide
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VEE'S NOTES: I didn't post this earlier because I wasn't in a good mood after the prologue wasn't pretty liked to be honest, but here I am! Sorry for the delay, and if you read this hope you like it <3 ā³ TALK TO ME / REQUESTS! | FORMULA 1 MASTERLIST
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Jerez, Spain 10th February, 2010
You hadnāt received a single call from Mark since the day you last spoke to him. In fact, you hadnāt expected him to call, but that didnāt stop you from feeling disappointed.
The only thing you got from your boyfriend was an endless string of missed calls, followed by the sound of his voicemail, his pre-recorded voice telling you to leave a message and that he would call you back later. And you did leave messages, knowing full well you wouldnāt get a response.
Instead, it was Seb who spoke to you every day.
The German hadnāt said anything else during that fateful dinner that should have been a refuge for both of you; nor did he bring it up for the rest of his stay in Linz or even when he was back in Heppenheim. Even though you had agreed not to see each other again until it was time to fly to Spain for the presentation of Red Bullās new car, the RB6, Sebastian never stopped worrying about you. He called you daily; he was the first to hear about your grades from the penultimate semester of university, and sometimes, you even fell asleep while still on the phone with him. You both stayed up late talking, no matter how many times you promised to sleep early, only to curse yourselves the next morning for breaking that promise, despite knowing you would do it again.
You tried, with difficulty, to get some sort of call, message, or even a breakup and an explanation from Mark about why he no longer wanted to continue your strange relationship. You did everything you could to let him know that the team had contacted you, requiring you to be in southern Europe in February, but it was impossible.
The blue-eyed man who made your days easier, especially as your fatherās health worsened and you were already grieving before the inevitable, not only showed interest and happiness that Red Bull Racingās intern would be at the event, but he also offered to travel to Austria and stay with you for two or three days before the flight. He knew how terrified you were of flying and didnāt want you to go through it alone.
You didnāt see Mark or anyone from the team, except for the obvious Sebastian and his PR manager, Britta Roeske, during the two days leading up to the big event. That Wednesday, however, anxiety took over as you got ready in your hotel room. The feeling only intensified as you headed to the circuit with your best friend, realizing that you would have to face Mark.
It was barely ten in the morning, and the air was already thick with the persistent scent of burnt rubber, oil, and fuel, not to mention the noise caused by photographers, journalists, team members, and the occasional fan roaming around.
The RB6 had just been unveiled, and now, everyone was behind the cameras, hidden in the garages after dealing with the press. All that was left was to wait for the mechanics to finish the final adjustments before the first day of pre-season testing began, with both Webber and Vettel taking part.
Sebastian stood beside you, tucked away in a corner of the garage. His arms were crossed, and his eyes constantly moved, not out of nervousness, but out of an effort to stay in control of everything. He knew you would run into your teammate at any moment, and more than wanting to prevent an altercation, he didnāt want the Australian to create a scene big enough for others to notice.
More than anything, he didnāt want all of that to be another burden for you.
You, on the other hand, were nervous. Your hands fidgeted, grasping each other, playing with your hair, or clutching your jacket. Your eyes darted around, and each time a door opened or someone entered, your body tensed, only to relax upon realizing it wasnāt the person you dreaded seeing most.
It hadnāt even been a month since your last conversation with Mark, but enough time had passed for you to try to push it from your mind, or at least, to not give it so much importance. But you couldnāt. It still hurt to comprehend that he only called to demand explanations about your life and judge you, fully aware of how important Seb was to you, rather than to apologize for forgetting about you for weeks despite your insistence on staying in touch.
You gave up, but that didnāt make you feel any better. The only thing that comforted you was knowing that you had been there for Sebastian when he needed a friend the most. But what made you question whether it was all worth it was the fact that Mark had already made up his mind, and nothing you could say would convince him otherwise.
When you turned to look at the man beside you, and he gazed at you with a light in his eyes that you had never seen in your boyfriendās, you knew you would endure a thousand more fights with Mark just to see Sebastian happy.
Finally, Mark appeared, his race suit half-unzipped. He started chatting with some team members, who seemed more than happy to see him after so many months.
As he cheerfully greeted each one of them, playing the part of the charming prince, Sebastian rolled his eyes. He couldnāt see his teammate the same way anymoreānot after hearing him yell at you over the phone and, worse, manipulate you in ways you didnāt seem to notice.
āY/N, you donāt have to talk to him right now,ā Sebastian murmured, stepping closer to you.
You felt a shiver run through you but tried to stay in control. You saw Webber approaching, and by instinct, you moved closer to Seb, almost knocking him over. He wrapped his arms around you to keep you from falling.
āSorryā¦ā was all you managed to say, unaware of what he had just told you.
āTalk to him when you feel strong enough,ā Vettel continued, his voice just as calm. āTake a deep breath, and think carefully about what you want to say.ā
āNo, Seb, I need to talk to Mark as soon as possibleā¦ā
āY/Nāā
āIf heās going to act the way he did on the phone or make passive-aggressive comments through veiled insults, Iād rather he say it to my face,ā you declared. Then, sighing, you forced yourself to relax before walking toward your boyfriend. āIām sorryā¦ā
Sebastian sighed this time, and despite knowing Webber was watching, he hugged you. Then, glaring at the Australian, he gently cupped your face in his hands.
And oh, how he wished he could not only kiss you but also make you see that you deserved far more than the love Webber had made you believe you were worth.
āBe careful, okay? Mark⦠He knows how to hurt you.ā
You nodded timidly before kissing his cheek, promising him that everything would be fine, even though you had no idea what would happen or how things between you and Mark would end.
Without saying much more, you started crossing the garage, trying to follow Markās steps. After seeing how you and Sebastian had been acting, the two of you, who claimed to be nothing more than best friends, Mark had decided to leave, holding back the urge to cause a scene that would land both you and him on the front pages of every Formula 1 gossip magazine⦠if that was even what he wanted, of course.
"Can we talk?"
You quickened your pace slightly and carefully grabbed Markās fireproof suit. He turned around, coming face to face with you, frustrated, maybe even disappointed. You knew he was angry, even though your voice sounded firm. At least, thatās what your body language was screaming.
"Oh, now you want to talk?" Webber laughed bitterly.
"Donāt start," you warned, raising your voice a little more than you should have. "I just want to clear things up because, since you didnāt give me the chance to do it on the phone, maybe now that I have you in front of me, you will."
"Let me remind you that you were the one who hung up the call after I⦠I donāt know⦠maybe started pissing you off by calling you out for hiding things from me?"
You tried to argue back, but you knew it wasnāt worth it. Instead, you stayed quiet, though you rolled your eyes just enough to let Mark know how impossible he wasāand to irritate him in the process.
He wanted you to torment yourself, to let the guilt eat you alive until you admitted the truthāthe way he saw it. And deep down, that was exactly what he wanted.
"Fine. Go ahead," the Australian finally conceded.
You took a deep breath, trying to stay calm before speaking.
"You accused me of things that arenāt true, Mark, and you know it. Seb was in Linz because he needed a break, okay? He needed to clear his head, disconnect from everything⦠He and Hanna had just broken up, and I offered to let him stay at my place for him, not for me. He needed support, and thatās what friends do."
"And out of all the people who could have been there for him, he had to choose you?" Mark scoffed, tilting his head slightly at your explanation. "Thatās a bit strange, donāt you think?"
"Itās not what youāre thinking, Mark."
"Yeah, I know. But let me tell you, itās pretty damn strange. And forgive me for doubting you, but isnāt it interesting how youāre always there when Seb needs someone? Itās almost like⦠like you want him to need you."
Your hands clenched into fists on instinct. You were quickly reaching your breaking point.
"I was just being a friend, you know? Not like you, who couldnāt even bother to pick up the damn phone once or even send me a single message since the season ended."
"Oh, so now this is my fault?" Mark pointed to himself, a smirk creeping onto his face.
"I just want you to know that I didnāt do anything wrong."
"Yeah, sure. Whatever you say. Do you know what your problem is, Y/N?" He stepped closer, forcing you to take a few steps back, not that it mattered, because he grabbed your wrists before you could escape. His grip was tighter than you would have liked. Even when you tried to pull away, he didnāt let go. "You always think you can fix everything. You think you can save everyone from whatever pain theyāre going through. But I donāt blame you. Maybe itās just your way of coping⦠making yourself feel better after your mother killed herself."
His words hit you like a punch to the gut.
You were speechless. Breathing became harder, and seeing became nearly impossible with the tears welling up in your eyes. Everything around you seemed to disappear, leaving only the man in front of you and the words he had just spoken.
Maybe itās just your way of coping⦠making yourself feel better after your mother killed herself.
For years, you had convinced yourself that your mother had been sick, that you werenāt at fault for not being able to save her. That you werenāt to blame for not getting home earlier that day, only to find her lifeless on the bed. You had told yourself, over and over, that you were just another victim of that suicide.
"Mark, I⦠I didnātā¦" The lump in your throat made it impossible to speak, and neither did the tears that spilled from your eyes. "Iām not seeing Sebastian⦠I only love youā¦"
The words slipped from your lips automatically, but you werenāt sure if you were trying to convince Mark⦠or yourself.
He only shook his head, trying not to laugh at how pathetic and ridiculous you must have looked to him.
"If thatās what helps you sleep at night, keep lying to me. But if you really arenāt cheating on me with Vettel, I suppose Iāll have to see it for myself."
"Hey, Webber! Quit messing around with your girl and get over here! Didnāt you say you had something really important to discuss with us?"
Both of you turned toward Christian Horner, who was standing at the door of one of the makeshift offices. Through the window, you could see Helmut Marko buried in paperwork while marking something on his phone.
"Yeah, of course! Iām coming!"
You felt a wave of relief as Mark turned his back to you and walked away, without another word, without even saying goodbye, heading toward that room. You wanted to argue, to keep insisting that you had nothing going on with Seb, but you knew it was useless. Nothing you said would change Markās mind.
All you could do was stand there, staring at the door he had just walked through. You tried to peek through the window to see what that sudden meeting was about, one you had heard nothing about, but you gave up when your boyfriend suddenly glanced in your direction. He shot you a knowing smile before pulling the blinds closed.
"Shitā¦"
Your stomach twisted into knots as you turned around, aimlessly walking through the garage.
"Youāre scrunching your nose. A lot, Iād say," a voice, too familiar, spoke in front of you.
If it hadnāt been for the German standing in your way, you would have walked right into him.
Why did Seb always show up when you needed him most?
Maybe because he knows how much youāre being hurt⦠and he was listening to the conversation as well.
No, that was impossible. He had probably just been waiting around in the garage until they told him he could do another test lap.
"You know I always scrunch my nose when Iām mad." Seb raised an eyebrow, and you rolled your eyes. "He was talking shit about you, Seb."
"Talking shit about me? Or talking shit about you and blaming you for doing things with me that, by the way, we havenāt done?"
You hesitated. You didnāt know how to answer because, once again, he was right.
Mark knew exactly how to get into your head, how to manipulate you until you started doubting yourself. Meanwhile, Sebastian had somehow become your voice of reason when you felt like you were losing your mind.
"I feel like he thinks I feel too much, you know?" you admitted, dodging his question, dodging the conversation entirely. You didnāt want to talk about Mark. You just needed to get this off your chest. "Like I have some kind of savior complexā¦"
"Because you couldnāt save your mother," Vettel finished for you. You cursed yourself for letting him hear that part. "Jesus, Y/N, thatās complete bullshit. Not about your mom," he quickly corrected himself, stumbling over his words, "but him saying that. You just want to help people⦠maybe the way you wish someone had helped you."
"But you help me⦠My dad, my aunt, my uncle and, well, my sisters," you muttered. "But whatever. The point is, you try explaining to him that everything he says is complete bullshit."
"Honestly? I would if I thought it would do any good," he said. "But since I know he wonāt change his mind, Iād rather not waste my time. Iād rather spend it with you."
You gave him a tired smile. Seb could tell you were trying to put on a brave face, just like you always did when things werenāt going well. At that moment, something deep inside him burned with the need to protect you from everything that hurt you.
That was how he had felt for the past few months, but he did his best not to show it, to try to ignore it⦠yet all he managed to do was make it grow larger and larger.
And that was exactly what scared him the most about yourself in that moment.
"Come on, let's go," was all he could say as, unlike Mark, Seb took your hand as if it were a delicate, breakable piece of porcelain.
"Where? The pretesting session is about toā"
"Fuck the pretesting session," he cut you off, not giving you a chance to say anything else.
Sebās fingers intertwined with yours, and even though he wasn't entirely sure where to go or what to do, one thing was clear, he just wanted to get them out of there, far away from where Mark had once again treated you so badly.
As you crossed the paddock under the watchful eyes of some journalists, you ran into Britta Roeske, Sebās PR manager and, in many ways, his savior⦠or even a second mother, depending on how someone looked at it.
The woman, perfectly dressed in her Red Bull uniform, wasnāt surprised to see you together, but she was surprised to see you that together. She couldnāt help but glance down at your still-intertwined hands and then back up at both of you, incredulous.
"Donāt you dare be late. Thirty minutes, Sebastian," was all she said.
"Seems like you donāt trust me," he answered with an innocent smile that, rather than a trick, seemed completely sincere.
"With her?" Roeske pointed at you, who merely shrugged and curled your lips into a small smile. "Not really, to be honest. Be careful and donāt do anything youāll regret later."
Neither of you answered that, but you both knew exactly what she meant.
You continued walking in a comfortable silence around the circuit, getting further away from the paddock. Seb went along with what you jokingly called a "track walk rehearsal" until you reached a grandstand area. Once seated, you had a perfect view of the entire track.
"Thanks for everything," you murmured, pulling your knees to your chest and wrapping your arms around them. Seb, on the other hand, draped an arm around your shoulders and, noticing how cold you were, took off his jacket and placed it over you.
"You donāt have to thank me. I hate seeing you like this. Out of all the people in the world who donāt deserve to feel this way, youāre at the top of the list."
Neither of you said anything else. You simply smiled and, for the first time all day, without fear, leaned against Sebās chest. Without hesitation, he wrapped his arms around you, pressed a kiss to your forehead and started playing with your hair as he always did.
"I donāt understand why heās talking to Helmut and Horner," you broke the silence, sitting up slightly to look at Seb. "What could possibly be so important that they had to have a meeting today?"
"Yeah, I was wondering the same thing," he frowned. "To be honest, I donāt like itā¦"
"Do you think itās about me?"
Vettel bit his lip at your question. He wanted to be honest with you, but at the same time, he didnāt want to make you worry more or overthink something that might end up being trivial.
"I donāt want to assume, but⦠Webber is the kind of guy who likes to control everything and, with that, do whatever it takes to stay in the spotlight," he commented, carefully choosing his words. "If he feels like heās going to be the second driver again, like last seasonā¦" Seb hesitated before continuing, trying to find the right way to say it. "I donāt know, Y/N, maybe he just wants to twist the narrative to fit his paranoia."
He couldnāt lie to you. You didnāt deserve that.
You swallowed hard.
"Do you think heās going to turn them against me?"
"I donāt know, but what I do know is that whatever heās saying wonāt change the fact that you belong to this team, that you belong toā¦"
My life, he thought without a shred of regret, but with too much fear to say it out loud.
"Youāre smart, Y/N," he continued. "This is your second year with the team; your third with me. You know everyone here, and most of all, you know me perfectly. And if that wasnāt enough, you work harder than anyone, Rockyās words, not mine, while also juggling university and taking care of your father and sisters."
"Itās just what I have to doā¦"
"If they donāt realize what an incredible person they have right in front of them, thatās their problem, not mine."
You lowered your gaze, unable to stop yourself from blushing.
"Why do you always know exactly what to say to make someoneās day better?"
"Itās not about making someoneās day better, Y/N. Itās just telling the truth about what an incredible person you are."
For the first time, you found the strength to look at Seb without feeling embarrassed. It felt⦠strange. You didnāt know what exactly, but you were sure that the way he spoke to you, the things he said, the way he looked at youā¦
It was as if Sebastian truly saw you as more than just a friend.
Once again, neither of you dared to speak.
Seb wanted to say a thousand things, but he knew it wasnāt the right moment. And when it came to you, you wanted to take things slowly, savoring every moment, and, most importantly, putting your well-being first.
You, on the other hand, had always seen him as your safe haven since you arrived at Toro Rosso in 2008. But now⦠it felt different. Maybe it was what you had been denying to yourself finally coming to the surface, the thing that had been there for about two years, back when Seb were still dating Hanna.
Maybe, the silence you were now sharing would, one day, turn into the confession neither of you had been brave enough to admit, to yourselves or to each other.
"Sebā¦"
"Come what may, okay?" Seb interrupted you gently, taking your hand and tracing small hearts on your skin. "Never forget it: Iāll be there, here, wherever⦠but with you. Come what may."
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