Welp...

I made an absolutely random meme xD lkdsasdl

Others have hurt me, lied, and broke me down when there was no sense of self left from me catering to them as best i can. other got board of me when i gave my all or where hurt when i wanted time to be better. you built me up and gave me space to be myself and encouraged me rationally to do what’s best for me even if it hurt you in the prosses. You make your boundaries clear and keep me from feeling fear when we need to talk. i love you. thank you so much for everything you do for me and everything you will do even when you don’t have to. I hope i do as much good for you as you do for me beloved. <3 you’re my everything.

it’s like I DO want to be feminine in the way a man is feminine. if I’m performing feminity I don’t want it to be read as an inherent reflection of my gender and who I am. I don’t want someone to call me ma’am or be called a girl. like. it’s drag. only it can’t be drag for me, because it’s not actually subverting anything, is it? so I’m in this spot where I either cannot allow myself any femininity or I do and accept the consequences of perception. my wearing eyeliner isn’t a subversion, a quiet rebellion, it’s perceived as fulfilling an expectation. somehow I can never be masc enough to be percieved as I want to be, so any introduction of femininity feels like a defeat. and yet sometimes I want to wear the pretty things that are still in my closet! or play around with makeup. but it isn’t a young boy getting into his mother’s vanity and heels, it’s growing up into the fulfillment of the wants of the mother and the rest of society as a blank whole.

Roomates

callin this one.. megamic

not college au but have some simpable Snukins I drew a while ago  🌼🌼🌼

Don’t let them bury me as someone I’m not.

💯👌

I RE-RESPONDED in the COMMENTS OF the POST AND I MISTEPYED WORDS BECAUISE MY SOCIAL ANXIETY AND HOW STAR STUCK I WAS THEY ACTUALLY RELPLIED GOT THE BETTER OF ME-

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA the person i look up two actually saw what i sent an ask to them about and now im terrified i’ve made a fool of myself in spite of them seeming to enjoy what i said- i wanna talk to them and maybe be friends but idk how to be a normal humannn eeee