OK BUT YOU GUYS THINK ABOUT-

it’s like I DO want to be feminine in the way a man is feminine. if I’m performing feminity I don’t want it to be read as an inherent reflection of my gender and who I am. I don’t want someone to call me ma’am or be called a girl. like. it’s drag. only it can’t be drag for me, because it’s not actually subverting anything, is it? so I’m in this spot where I either cannot allow myself any femininity or I do and accept the consequences of perception. my wearing eyeliner isn’t a subversion, a quiet rebellion, it’s perceived as fulfilling an expectation. somehow I can never be masc enough to be percieved as I want to be, so any introduction of femininity feels like a defeat. and yet sometimes I want to wear the pretty things that are still in my closet! or play around with makeup. but it isn’t a young boy getting into his mother’s vanity and heels, it’s growing up into the fulfillment of the wants of the mother and the rest of society as a blank whole.

once a girl reported me to an administrator at school bc i was breaking dresscode and she didnt like me. so i pushed her down the stairs. i just kept walking and i dont think she saw me and i never got caught. i know she got very seriously injured and they had to call an ambulance and she transferred schools bc she knew SOMEONE pushed her and she didnt feel safe. ive never regretted it. its been years since i graduated and im on mood stabilizers now, but sometimes when someone is testing my patience i calm myself down by thinking about how good it felt to snap once and how i cant do that again bc i would go to prison probably

no clue who you are or why you’re on my dash so take this thing from google and this other one as well

if someone has a scrolling line of text in their carrd with rainbow text….well….i shan’t say

My only goal is to better myself and be a good friend to all the people that give me a shot and treat me kindly

reblog for something really lgbt to happen to the person you reblogged it from

why I post love stuff:

I’m in love. I like love. Love is a good thing to share.

@l0stl1am seems like something you’d like to see

Happy Mother’s Day to one very tall mommy!

cats are too adorable

He knows there's a little baby in there 🥰