btw you will miss this in 5 or 10 years. memory will smooth these circumstances down like a river stone, and you will find yourself longing for a shade of light or a moment of this particular innocence. you don't know about what happens next, and one day that will be the most alluring thing of all. don't leave it all for nostalgia. have a nice night now, whatever night it happens to be.
East London.
2025
you are allowed to have a moment to think before you speak
terrifying sincerity will demand from you the kind of composure and character you are seeking
practice asking yourself questions and answer them without seeking references or resources or answers that others gave
the difference between ritual and routine is faith, and the kind of faith you need to give to your habits—what they each mean to you— is something to be curious, reflective, intentional about. you are afraid that habits will sap your life of meaning, so give them meaning of their own
Lila (divine play)
novelty & magic are rivers, not reservoirs
Wound is the Origin of Wonder, Maya C. Popa
Love Prodigal, Traci Brimhall
Mary Oliver, from "Starlings in Winter"
Alejandra Pizarnik, tr. by Yvette Siegert, "Summer Goodbyes", Extracting the Stone of Madness: Poems 1962 - 1972
The Pink Box, Yesenia Montilla
ELLEN BASS