Smh Why Do Some Of You Guys Get So Offended When People Literally Just Sit Next To You. Those Are Pixel

right now the chp113 posts are divided into two

the “THEY SMACKED HIM INTO THE GROUND. 15 TIMES. 15 GODDAMN TIMES. HE IS NOT. WAKING UP.”

and the “HOW OLD IS THIS RAT???”

another one for the soul

do care + did ask + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you

Writing a chapter for a fic you haven't touched in like a year feels a lot like reviving the dead. Like what did it do when it was last alive? How can I continue it's consciousness and story?

concept:

aroace chuuya who comes off as really rude and flippant when it comes to people flirting with him but in reality he just does not get it and thinks the flirting person is just getting too personal and weird and rude

aroace chuuya who loves the concept of dimly lit dinner dates but like, platonic, and doesn't understand why people assume he's the flirty type because of his love of fine wine, he doesn't see the correlation

aroace chuuya with extreme sex repulsion because he values the privacy of having his body to himself so much he refuses to allow anyone else to change things or do things to it, even intimately, because he associates any sort of anything so connected to his body with the abuse of his past as an experiment even though it's not related

aroace chuuya.

i really really appreciate how much the mouthwashing gameplay emphasizes that curly is still a feeling human person after the crash. he reacts to every single thing that happens around him. he makes decisions. he changes his behavior as the game progresses. these subtle details are everything to me. he’s not a prop.

CW for discussion of medical abuse, forcefeeding, torture, gore, autocannibalism, basically everything curly experiences in-game

“he doesn’t want to keep still any more.” our first line in curly’s presence. anya doesn’t say “he won’t keep still anymore,” she says he doesn’t want to. this diction provides a sharp contrast to jimmy, whose only acknowledgment of curly’s desires comes up when he puts words in curly’s mouth, while anya observes curly’s body language to extrapolate what he actually wants and needs. she considers him a person, just as the player is meant to; jimmy does not.

the progression of the pills scenes. in the first one, he’s in about as little pain as we see him. he just chokes it down.

in the second pills scene, anya is late on giving him the pills and he’s clearly in great pain, crying, tossing and turning even though that probably just hurts him more. i do think the way the crying can be heard through the entire ship is jimmy’s auditory hallucination, but it was loud enough to wake jimmy up from the lounge. when jim actually does give him the pills, curly briefly resists, but after that first hit, he cries out in pain and then gives this strangled “huh?” before the beating continues. he cries out a couple more times before realizing jimmy wants him to be quiet, and he stops crying out, lets jimmy give him the pills, and sobs quietly before going silent.

in the third pills scene, curly seems to be trying not to make noise or resist. he still sobs after the pills go down and falls quiet after.

after anya’s and daisuke’s deaths, curly lies so still and quiet that i’ve witnessed multiple players be shocked that he’s still alive when his chest moves.

and the infamous laughter… that’s definitive proof that curly isn’t just reacting to stimuli like pain (which would not make him less of a person, for the record) but actively observing and thinking about the events around him.

when jimmy picks curly up. despite the fact that having his burns pressed against another person would be excruciating, curly does not react. just breaths hoarsely and keeps his eye locked on jimmy — until he ends up on the table surrounded by the corpses. then, and only then, does his breath get panicky, and he starts to cry softly.

cutting the leg. my goodness, those screams. incredible voice acting, first of all, but it really stands out to me that it isn’t a terrifying, inhuman scream. it’s very human, very desperate and pained, mixed with heaving, awful sobs. and afterward? curly’s so shaken that he’s visibly moving his jaw on his own as he gasps for breath. and the look in his eye…

in the force feeding scene — which, in my mind, was a hallucinatory version of real events — curly is silent and still. he only moves or cries out when he’s forced to via vomiting or the wheels turning (though the latter is likely imagined). he doesn’t react to anything else. doesn’t even hold up his head. but he gives these pained cries when the wheels turn, and this draws awareness to how he’s being treated as a prop here with intention. he’s being dehumanized, reduced to an object, but we as the player are painfully aware that this is a person. he’s not reacting more because he’s shutting down from all the trauma he’s experienced.

and i have a lot in my head about the juxtaposition of curly POV scenes with jimmy interacting with post-crash curly scenes. they’re often perfectly timed to remind you that the person on the cot, on the table, or in your arms is the same man who you were a minute ago, and vice versa.

just. man. mouthwashing emphasizes curly’s humanity at every corner, and that makes his story so much more horrifying.

i really like this game and i really like that it displays a disabled character being dehumanized by the player character while also emphasizing to the player that this is not right.

personally i dont comment on a lot of fics i read for two reasons- one, im not very good with compliments to the point i feel i may as well not comment at all, and two the fics i read usually have lots of comments anyway so i figure my own comment wouldnt matter to the author if see it has very little comments or none then i will post a comment

Here's the secret-- authors love getting plain emoji, keymashes, and quotes from their fic as comments.

You don't have to say something meaningful. Just some reaction to tell us that you read it and liked it is appreciated.

When we see a 'hit/view' that doesn't leave any kudos or comment or reaction to our fic, we assume the person who clicked didn't like it or didn't finish it.

Mayoi Sweets Chuuya + cropped free to use pfp (WITH CREDIT)

been experimenting with my art, so it might be inconsistent

I have a drawing from earlier this week I need to post.... yeah

fucked up hurt/comfort. the person who stabbed you tends to your wound. the person who killed your loved one helps you grieve.

why are all the examples for bellusromantic kissing I'm not interested in the kissing I'm interested in snuggles and handholding and friendship dates