Pink In The Night

A Collection of Haikus on Dysautonomia

There is not enough  Water in the entire world to hydrate my veins

The light leaves my eyes Ears roar, legs quiver, head spins Help me! I’m falling  

I’m so god damn cold Pass me that woolen blanket Just kidding I’m hot

Thoughts every morning? “Give me gatorade and salt” “Heart can you just not”

Ow ow ow ow ow Fuck the people who said there  would be no pain

BP and HR You are pissy little shits Just work together 

Digestive system? Circulation? Brain function? What even is that? Everything my Body does on its own is Basically fucked.

Have I only just now realised that I gently headbutt my partner to show affection?

That's between me and god

happy new year finally sherlock holmes and dracula can legally fuck and no one can do anything about it 

tw// suicidal(?) thoughts mention

God okay I just need to say this somewhere

My love (r <3) continues to save my life every time with no hesitation

The number of times I have had to call them and say "hey, I'm very likely to do something idiotic rn" and their response is "do you need to call?"

I was on the other side of the fence yesterday, looking down, and thinking "it's not that high, I'll survive it" and they literally brought me back from the edge by talking about their game and encouraging me to do something I enjoy instead (by giving examples and ideas because all I wanted to do was step off that ledge and see what would happen)

I love this person with my entire body, mind, and soul, and I am so grateful to have them in my life.

never trust a doctor who refuses to do any tests, ignores everything you say, and then just tells you you have anxiety and puts you on Prozac, so now every other doctor you try to go to for help sees you "have anxiety" on paper and also proceeds to do no tests and ignore you, because you're just "crazy."

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thanks for the advice skeleton-fucker69

Feels like my Skeleton is trying to hatch

Honestly Janet is such a mood even without the meme but this just makes it better 😂

I made this instead of studying

Somebody please tell me to get off my ass rn I really should it's 11:30 n I need to pack and I've been writing a list but idk if I got everything I just need to start packing someone make me get up my god

I want that “drive safe,” kind of love, the “let me know if you need anything” kind of love, the “text me when you get there” kind of love, the “this made me think of you” kind of love, the “how was your day” kind of love, the “have fun, be safe” kind of love, the “good luck today” for something I only mentioned in passing kind of love, the “have a good day” kind of love, the “I remember you said you liked this so I got it for you” kind of love, the little ways of saying I love you without saying I love you kind of love. 

The disordered urge to simply scream