I Have An Extension On My Laptop To Change My Deadname To My Real Name, And It's Awesome 10/10 (it's

something that might be hard to grasp is that. physically disabled people can do everything "right", follow all the recommended programs from doctors and medical practitioners and lose weight and do this exercise and that diet and this and that and they still can stay disabled. they still can get worse.

and it's imperative to understand that. doing things this way can be soul crushing. it's difficult, if not impossible for some people. and many people will not be able to do things "right" and will stay disabled or get worse. some people might, accidentally or on purpose, make their disability worse themselves. and those people don't deserve to be disabled any more than people who you think doesn't.

we cannot, cannot assign a moral value to disability. disability isn't a punishment for doing right or wrong. it is not a judgement. there is no moral value associated with being disabled.

people you find wonderful will be disabled. people who you think suck will be physically disabled. people who had no pre-existing condition, who did everything "right" and were healthy before will be disabled. people who had absolutely no means to change their lifestyle, because of poverty or location or some systematic issue, will be disabled. and people will be disabled as a direct result of their choices.

none of that, absolutely none of it, is an indication of whether that person "deserves" to be disabled or not. none of it is a reflection of their moral character. disability is simply a neutral fact of life.

reblog for something t4t to happen to you this summer.

Hate the Fury at myself and my body every time I have to rehabilitate a joint or muscle that went into spasm and refused to work the way I need it to

My body doesn't even recognise that moving a joint is an option, which is so fucking annoying when it's your wrist or something locked in 💅 position, and then it unlocks and it's literally just gravity or spasm based movement for the next god knows how long

tw// suicidal(?) thoughts mention

God okay I just need to say this somewhere

My love (r <3) continues to save my life every time with no hesitation

The number of times I have had to call them and say "hey, I'm very likely to do something idiotic rn" and their response is "do you need to call?"

I was on the other side of the fence yesterday, looking down, and thinking "it's not that high, I'll survive it" and they literally brought me back from the edge by talking about their game and encouraging me to do something I enjoy instead (by giving examples and ideas because all I wanted to do was step off that ledge and see what would happen)

I love this person with my entire body, mind, and soul, and I am so grateful to have them in my life.

“all powerful entity falls head over heels for the first shit ass mcnobody who dared to call them a bitch to their face” is, perhaps not the absolute best trope but it’s definitely up there I’d say

Why do I have to pick one name. Why can't I have dozens of names that people use interchangeably like I'm some kind of ancient wizard

Riddle me this, batman: why does my head hurt

Yall my therapist gonna be so proud of me I actually used my crisis survival skills 🙌

Top quote from today:

"God, you must have an absolutely banging surface area to volume ratio"

queer people of all kinds. i am looking you in the eyes. do not fucking kill yourself. are you listening to me it will be okay. it will get better. i am shaking you by the shoulders do. not. fucking. do. it. you have so much to keep going for and so many people who love you. the cost of the present will not outweigh the life ahead of you. i love you. chin up or down keep walking you'll get there. we will pull you back up onto your feet should you fall. i love you