To The People Who Had To Hold Back Tears While Their Moms Tugged The Tangles Out Their Hair With A Denman

Uhh

jim jimenez is the most character ever. they're so complex. they were raised by a vengeful nun. their favorite color is teal because that's the color of olu's earring. they kept lucius in a trunk for like two days. they threw a knife at some english guy because he was racist to frenchie and olu. they think stede is the worst pirate captain in history. they loved performing their disemboweling skit during the fuckery. they told stede that killing stays with you forever. they grabbed a corpse's face and threatened to kill it again. they're arguably the most competent crew member on the revenge. they confronted spanish jackie alone and without a plan c. they have a diary. they're nonbinary. they're catholic? they're gay. they're my best friend

Guys… guys.

As hilarious as all the “how oblivious ARE you?” jokes about Stede are, I think we’re missing the big picture. This isn’t about obliviousness, it’s about trauma.

Stede isn’t ignorant of the fact he’s in love with Ed. he’s been abused his whole life for his queerness and is having trouble conceptualizing that he’s allowed to be.

Notice how Stede immediately has the instinct to walk back his comment of Ed being “lovely”? This is the same man who didn’t even pick up that his very obviously mutinous crew was planning a mutiny, that shit was learned behavior. He’s speaking as a little boy who was tied to a boat and stoned for picking flowers, and as someone who was told mere days ago a man falling in love with him was “defiling a beautiful thing.”

Homophobia/ heteronormativity is alive and well in this world and Stede, being forced to live in the conservative circles he does, would’ve absolutely been painfully aware of it. The fact that he feels the need to ask a woman what it’s like to be in love with a man speaks volumes after he’s already been happily kissed by one and has roleplayed being married to him when lonely. He’s not just casually making conversation then has a eureka moment when he happens to notice the description applies to him and Ed too, he asked specifically to compare them.

It’s him testing the waters and thinking that maybe “they” were wrong. Maybe he’s not broken or pathetic, maybe he never deserved to be treated as such. Maybe he didn’t “seduce” Edward, or “ruin” him, or “defile” him. And maybe his feelings for Ed are just as loving and romantic as Mary’s feelings are for her boyfriend.

It’s such a beautiful moment when he slowly smiles, let’s out that little breath like a sigh of relief, and tells his wife of an arranged marriage with nothing less than wonder in his voice that what he’s found at sea is in fact love. Fuck, it gets me every time.

There’s an absolutely gorgeous through line of queer liberation in Stede’s half of episode 10 after this scene. How he refers to Ed as his “newfound love”, confidently says they’ll “all be great”. He smears the blood on his face himself, breaks his own flowers, all to reach someone who sees him as perfect and beloved exactly as he is. What a fitting ending to his days of crying himself to sleep because he cannot be what everyone’s failed to beat him into.

star trek au: the bridge crew as goncharov characters (original poster by @beelzeebub)

Y’all ever latch on to a piece of media like it’s a slice of moldy cheese in an apocalypse and just mentally beg “ oh god not this one , please not this “ but it’s already too late?

Sketched some friends of mine today!

Rest well, ma'am

oh also quantum leap.

Felt like drawing them

paul when he lies