Thinking About Himiko Again....

Thinking about Himiko again....

tw!!!: mentions of self-harm

I've seen many artists drawing Toga with sh scars, and, while understanding where it came from, I still couldn't come to terms with the idea itself.

But now... What if these scars aren't only a manifestation of how Himiko couldn't accept her body and let out her pent-up emotions through pain, but also served a practical purpose?

Middle school Himiko grappling with her desire for blood. Drinking her own to avoid hurting others, which, while being a poor substitute, is her only solace?

Himiko, locked up in the bathroom of her so-perfect-so-plastic home, a box cutter at her feet, licking her bleeding wounds while tears are streaming down her cheeks and her trembling lips are curled up into a wobbly smile.

It's so painful, but it's the closest to feeling alive she has.

And Himiko can't bring herself to feel shame.

P. S. It goes perfectly with Himiko wearing her yellow cardigan (?), actually, the sleeves being so long that she has sweater paws. Like, not that Himiko would be ashamed of her scars, she would just hate that people would look at her with pity, so it'd be easier to cover them up.

With the League though... Not that they would pay that any mind. They literally have a walking scar that is Dabi and not like anyone pays attention, so yup, Himiko would become a bit more relaxed about her scars eventually. Maybe they'll even have that scar talk. That'd be cute.