Betting On Losing Dogs.

"Sweet Nothing" by Taylor Swift is such an asheiji song I feel soft. I felt the need to share this thought with someone

They said the end is coming Everyone's up to something I find myself running home to your sweet nothings. Outside they're push and shoving You're in the kitchen humming All that you ever wanted from me was Sweet nothing.

As far as the Midnights album goes, I've been a big fan of "Anti-Hero" and "Would've, Could've, Should've", but this one REALLY hits the soft spot that those two don't. Thank you for sharing!! 💗

ash & eiji in every episode ↳ EP12 | TO HAVE AND HAVE NOT

adult asheiji just chilling <3

✨New official art of Ash and Eiji✨

by Banana Fish (supervising) anime director Ayumi Yamada (山田 歩).

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Banana Fish fic recs

It feels like it's been years since I posted one of these; my bad

Almond Milk: Barista Sing falls for a haughty new customer. Rating: General Audiences

Chaos Theory: Ash's posthumous impact on the people who cared about him. Rating: Teen Audiences

Dusk Til Dawn: Howl's Moving Castle AU. Fun Fact: I watched HMC for the first time, just so I could read and understand this fic, and it was worth it. Rating: Teen Audiences

golden fly-boy: Eiji makes it to the Olympics, with Ash by his side. Rating: Teen Audiences

The Hands of a lover, and other synonyms for comfort: Ash may not be able to define his relationship with Eiji, but he knows that it doesn't hurt. Rating: Teen Audiences

If you'll return to my side: After breaking up with Eiji, Ash goes to Max and Jessica for advice. Rating: General Audiences

porgi, amor, qualche ristoro: While enjoying the winter holidays in Izumo, a commercial triggers bad memories for Ash. Rating: Mature (mentions of Ash's past trauma/CSA, description of severe anxiety attack)

Postcards: Ash Lynx is dead; Eiji starts recieving random postcards from him. Rating: Mature (mentions of past abuse/assault, graphic depictions of violence). I highly recommend subscribing to Special Agent Rick Henry, FBI, which is this fic's companion piece, written from Ash's perspective.

The Song of a Dull Knife: a jet-lagged Eiji rushes to visit Ash in the hospital. Rating: Teen Audiences

What Is and What Can Never Be: The only way to save Eiji is for Ash Lynx to die, and Ash knows it. Rating: Teen Audiences (not as sad as it sounds, I swear)

Previous List

Make sure to check all tags before reading these; I try to give summaries so that you know what you're getting into, but double check. And if you can, give a comment/Kudos for any fics you liked. Enjoy!

Bonus: here's some official art to cry over

Here’s another art drawn by Banana Fish (supervising) anime director Ayumi Yamada✨

This time, she drew Eiji. He looks so adorable🥺

It’s great that she keeps blessing us with so many amazing Banana Fish artworks these last few months!

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BANANA FISH (2018) #22 As I Lay Dying

THE CAMERA AND THE GUN

(tw: discussion/explicit mention of Ash Lynx's past)

I think that as a fandom, we don't appreciate the importance of Eiji being a photographer (or going to the US as one) enough.

Given Ash's past, cameras are something he's very vulnerable under. He's constantly been exploited for his body and image, and the child corn videos of him were still up for distribution until Max burned all of it. Even the sound of cameras can be a triggering memory, such as when he's confronting Kippard and he's transported back into a childhood memory with the incessant "click click click" of the camera.

Eiji, showing up to that bar, pulling up a camera with his job literally being to take pictures of him, embodied everything Ash should distrust. However Eiji asks is he can take the photos, and Ash replies "not the face", this obviously makes sense given he's a criminal, but with what we learn later it's obviously more than that.

Ash was carrying a gun, Eiji a camera, to both of them what the other person was carrying was the greater weapon. However, famously, Eiji asks for Ash's gun, takes it and gives it back and says "thank you for trusting me with it", which I think is really key. Ash has just seen that if he can trust Eiji with a gun, perhaps he can trust him with a camera.

Which he does. We never really see Eiji take pictures of Ash during the course of the show, but we know he did thanks to garden of light, where we actually see some of them. The fact that Eiji has a camera, giving him the power to make Ash feel vulnerable and observed, but doesn't at any moment, must've given Ash so much hope. In the same way he tells Eiji that it's the first time anyone has done something for him without "asking for something in return" this is probably the first time someone has had the power to hurt him and not used it.

The fact Ash can trust Eiji so fully with a camera, and feel comfortable and unguarded around him just speaks so so much to the nature of their relationship and just how deep and true it was. With Eiji, Ash really can just be himself "a boy of 17 years old" he's not afraid in the slightest, even if every single thing from his past should tell him to run. The trust Ash has in Eiji is just as great and moving as the trust Eiji has in Ash. Eiji tells Ash he was never scared of him, not for a moment, which is something that Ash finds great comfort in, but it's also true the other way around.

Eiji the one who trusted a boy with a gun and Ash , the one who trusted a boy with a camera. Gosh I love them.

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I headcanon that once eiji found that his feelings for ash were mutual he started doing like pretty bad attempts at flirting knowing it makes ash laugh and now i need drabbles of eiji making ash laugh with his awful flirting moves

includes nongraphic nsfw jokes

A good amount of desperation led Eiji to this point.

In his defense, English isn't his first language. Everyone knows that. He's been getting more fluent with the submersion into the language that being in America offers, but there are still certain things—certain nuances—that Eiji doesn't quite understand.

Especially when it comes to pickup lines.

He started off by asking Alex—which, in retrospect, was probably not the best idea. This led to a whole coaching session by the gang, and resulted in Eiji saying, "Ash, since you lost your virginity, do you want to take mine?"

Eiji still gets flustered just thinking about it. But the best part—the part that got Eiji invested in the idea of bad pickup lines in the first place—is that Ash laughed when Eiji said it.

This was pretty shortly after Eiji met the whole gang, and he didn't really understand what he was saying. He knew it had sexual connotations, of course—he knew the word virgin, but at the time he wasn't entirely sure what he had just asked Ash, other than that Alex had insisted on it.

Ash, on the other hand, did understand what Eiji was saying, and seemed to know immediately that the gang was responsible. And he laughed. Didn't take it seriously, leaving Eiji flustered and a million sorts of embarrassed. But he had laughed.

Ever since then, Eiji's been trying to have a repertoire ready of bad pickup lines—never quite as bad as that first one, but just enough to throw off Ash's game and, ideally, make him laugh. He's grown a little bolder since he realized that his feelings toward Ash are reciprocated. Alex assured him early on: If anyone else had tried to pull that shit with him, Boss wouldn't have laughed. And the other guy probably wouldn't have made it out alive.

It took a few months and several conversations with Ash himself before Eiji actually believed it, but now—during these times when he's holed up in the condo with the gang, Eiji discusses whatever pickup line of the day he found online, screening it with them and judging based on their laughter if he's missing on something vital.

"What about this one?" Eiji asks, reading off of one of the many tablets scattered across the room. " 'Can you pass me an inhaler? Because you just took my breath away.' "

Bones snorts. "Corny! I like it. But what about something a little nerdier? 'Feeling thirsty? Because my body is over 50% water.' "

Eiji feels himself flush. "I'm not going to ask if he's thirsty, Bones." That was a mistake Eiji made early on.

"I've got it!" Alex yells. " 'Do you like plums? Then can I offer you a date?' Get it? Because you're fruity."

"Oh my god," Eiji mumbles. "Next!"

Bones tries again. " 'Do you have a name, or can I just call you mine?' "

"He literally has two names, Bones, and I know both of them. No."

Kong starts laughing suddenly, and Eiji perks up. "Got a good one for us?"

Nodding, Kong says between bouts of laughter, " 'Do I ... Do I need a library card, or can I just check you out?' "

... Huh. It really is perfect, in a way. It's the sort that'll make Ash laugh, for sure, and it's got the library in there. "All right, men," Eiji says triumphantly, "I think we have a winner for today."