I Really Like This

I believe I am dealing with the withdrawal, or I simply feel shite, but I reckon that's enough of that. It's uninteresting, and I think there was something I saw in trainspotting that I amplified the horror of in my delusion. I don't like it. I have to watch the movie over again... maybe in a weeks time. It was horrible. I didn't expect that at all. The tragedies of this media.. I didn't know the movie had such dep8ction of heroin use, guess I didn't know the true scope of things. Based off some novel by Irvine Welsh, I need to read that now. It's now clear to me that this movie is more than some comedic stretch of imagination. These are real horrors. It isn't gonzo journalism like Fear And Loathing in Las Vegas. (The film was good buut,.. i still need to read the book). I don't know, I feel very sick. I'm taking a break. I'll have one of my writings wrapped up in full soon. 35 pages it looks like, I don't know. Maybe I should let it go on longer, or maybe that's just one chapter ..

AAAAHHHH

sisters cat thinking the fluffy pop mart cat is her baby

Dont have my earbuds, they broke, , misplaced the backup thwt only plays out of one ear, but I'd have rathered that in comparison to none.. I cant find.. y'know how grueling

SUBDERMAL by Elisyan 

Spring by Dao Trong Le

The date is Saturday, January 18th, 2025. Time: 17:11 Eastern Standard Time. Four Hundred milligrams diphenhydramine, 25mg a pink. 4 = 100 milligram, this is 16 antihistamine pill, I have Yet to consume, I have a tiring weight on my body und mind, it is only 2 hours past 3pm. I am going to watch the movie "Trainspotting" in the basement of my home in the boring Amerikan state which I have been born and trapped unto. I am debating another four, just to round up to twenty, but I am unsure. 21%.. 20%. 17:17. I Havent taken it yet. The headaches and the bothering when I even simply move my eyes, it feels as If i am already undee the influence. It's cold, the fuckin' winter season, and I sweat and burn. The first time, I couldn't even be bothered to count the millies and count the amounts, I mean seriously, how truly depressing is that. Now I'm only pretending that anything I do actually covers up the fact that I am actively and knowingly misusing these things. Maybe it does make it better, to be noting and such but... end of day, It is for the bore of life As I know it. I dont know..

4mg clorpheniramine, 525mg diphenhydramine, and if I so need, some acetaminophen / paracetamol in case this headache gets worse, i cant recsll the exact countagw and Im not getting the bottle. Genuinely, i will not take them If i do not generally feel the need, whether or Not I will keep up to date through journaling events, whether on tumblr or in document, I cannot say. Movie takes priority.

Rancid taste, sticks to the tongue

finally he can be happy and kill everyone

It is done. With an unfortunate exception of both Kurohyo for PSP, still hunting. Now waiting for Virtua Fighter and Project Century.