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What happens when the person holding everything together finally lets go?
.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.ā
Glitter š š¦Æ : pain pain pain... inspired by an amazing fic (from another fandom) that I read on here yonkers ago (i cant remember the name just that it changed me).
Warnings : Angsty/open ending (for now), Female!Reader, Reader is a wife, Reader has children, mention of drinking/smoking, reader is very sad, agruments, swearing, sadness, aged up characters
W/C : ~2.5k
.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā
Being married to Bakugo Katsuki wasnāt as glamorous as people might think.
Not that thatās a bad thing. The last thing you want to be is some trophy wife, forced to be dolled up constantly, the paparazzi always invading your and your husbandās personal life, a relationship formed for the public and not yourselves.Ā
But you didnāt think it would be this way.Ā
This marriage, formed years ago now, no longer feels like a partnership. A partnership which was based in balance, communication, understanding. Itās not quite that anymore, but you also canāt remember when things began to change.Ā
Was it when he reached the top 10? The weight of expectations pressing down on him, on both of you, and the crushing pressure of everything to lose? Or, was it before, when your baby girls arrived, and it became clear that parenting was definitely more work than the movies made it out to be. Maybe it doesnāt matter where it started, or why, or how. Somewhere along the way, the two of you stopped meeting in the middle.
Being Bakugo Katsukiās wife doesnāt feel like much of an honor anymore. Most days, it feels more like a burden. A reminder of the role in your life that seemingly never gets easier, only harder.Ā
Despite everyone (friends, family, the everpresent media) you still work. Itās not anything people would refer to as noble, or essential. And even though itās hard and sometimes makes you want to quit, you like having something of your own. Something that doesnāt come labeled as āMrs. Bakugo.ā
Working full time, raising young kids, and keeping the house running would be hard enough even if your marriage wasnāt falling apart. Sometimes, in the quiet hours of the night, you think being a single parent might actually be easier.Ā
No extra breakfast to make in the morningāonly for it to go unacknowledged and the empty dish left for you to wash later. No disappointed little faces when Dad works late for countless nights in a row. At least then, youād only have yourself to rely on. And maybe, that wouldnāt feel quite as lonely as this.
You really didnāt think it would get this way, you think, curled up on your side of the bed as Katsuki stumbles in after another late night. You can smell the alcohol, and the cigarettes already.Ā
He was out with Kirishima and the guys tonight, and the only reason you even know that is because Kirishima texted you earlier. Paired with a smiling photo of the group, promising to get him home safe. Like he knew Katsuki wouldnāt bother to tell you himself.
He quickly changes, tossing his clothes on the floor carelessly. Then, he collapses into bed, knocked out the second his head hits the pillow.
You lie there in the dark, the silence pressing in, and whisper to yourself once again, āWhen did it get like this?ā
~Ā
If he notices a change in you, he doesnāt voice it.Ā
Your mind pulls you back, and the next week passes like a blur. You keep up with the kids, you keep up with the chores. You try to carry on as normal, but itās harder each day to hold it all together. Like your heart and mind is breaking all at once, piece by piece.Ā
And then, one evening, Rikoāyour 9-year-old, the one with the sharp eyes and the soft heartāasks if youāre feeling okay. You freeze. Her voice is so innocent, so concerned, but it cuts through you like glass. You smile, but it doesnāt reach your eyes.Ā
Her eyes dart over your face, reading between the lines like he used to. She doesnāt know how to make you feel better with wordsājust like he never didābut thereās something so pure and heartbreaking in the way she tries. Little drawings tucked into your pockets, warm hugs that last a little longer than usual.Ā
You feel guilt crawl up your throat, a heavy, suffocating thing. This isnāt fair on them. The weight on your chest feels even heavier, and you canāt shake the feeling that youāre failing your children in some way.Ā
āYou getting sick?ā
You glance up to see your husband standing in the doorway, his figure framed by the soft light spilling from the kitchen. Itās late, when he asks, when you are busying yourself with preparing his and the girls lunches for the next day.Ā
If thereās any concern in his tone, you donāt catch it. Thereās no comfort in his words, no reassuranceājust a flat question that seems to hang in the air between you.Ā
In the back of your mind, everything that has been sitting on your chest threatens to bubble. But as you look at his face, and see nothing but blankness (with a small frown forming at your silence), you put those thoughts away.Ā
āIām just tired,ā you reply, because itās easier than saying anything else. And you are, desperately so.
āWell, the brats think you are,ā he mutters, and with that, he turns and walks away.
The words sting. They sting with the insinuation that youāre a bad mother, that youāre the one worrying your children, and that this, somehow, is your fault. Whereas the angry part of you, the part thatās been building up with the last of your energy, wants to laugh at his audacity. To call him out, to remind him that his own children see him more on the TV than in real life, that he hasnāt been there like he should be.
You know that if you let it all out, if you say the things youāve been holding back, it will only make things worse. Itāll trigger the chaos, the shouting, the hurtful words that come when emotions are too raw, and youāre not sure you can survive another round. You donāt have the energy, to match his fire, to say what you need. So you donāt.Ā
So instead, you swallow the anger, the frustration, the hurt, and keep moving through the motions. You finish the dishes, pack the lunches, and make sure the house is in order.
~
Itās actually Kirishima who gives you the intervention.
Since you and Katsuki met, Kirishima has always been there. Bright, bubbly, and with a kind of steady energy that balances out Katsukiās explosiveness. He understands Katsuki through and throughāknows him in a way no one else does.
And he doesnāt just see you as an extension of Katsuki either, not after all this time. He remembers your familyās birthdays, and he makes sure to send them his well wishes. He knows what films you like and what food you eat, all the little things that make you, you.
He pesters you for a catch-up lunch (on him, he insists) whenever he has the time. Heās there, always, in a way that almost feels like family.
So, it shouldnāt surprise you when heās the one that finally spots your cracks.
āYouāve been quiet,ā he says one afternoon, as youāre sipping coffee together in the living room, when he failed to get you out to a coffee shop. "No time," you had justified, a weak excuse that heās learned to accept but never really believes.
He moves just a little closer then, his eyes softening as they meet yours. Thereās something in them, a weight of concern that makes your chest tighten.
āIs everything okay?ā
The question hangs in the air, heavy and gentle at the same time. You feel your breath catch in your throat, and you break.Ā
~Ā
It feels like your eyes donāt focus, until hours later when you wake in the dark to the sound of aggressive knocking at your door.
After you spilled everything, Kirishima didnāt hesitate. He booked you a hotel a bit outside of Tokyo, made sure to call your work (claiming youād come down with the fluāin April), and promised to get the kids sorted before shipping you off in a car.
With nothing but a soft smile on his face he says, āJust relax, okay? Take care of yourself for a bit,ā,Ā his voice gentle but firm. He reminds you to text him when you get there, and before you know it, youāre being driven away.
The knocking only seems to get rougher, so you stumble out of bed, still in your bathrobe, towards the door. Despite a small flicker of shock in your face when faced with Katsuki, your mind doesn't match it. The frantic knocking was a clear enough giveaway, you muse.Ā
Heās in his post-work clothes, his face tight with frustration and anger, his eyes dark with something you canāt quite place. Before you can even speak, he brushes past you, pushing his way into the room without so much as a second glance.Ā
āWhat the fuck is going on?ā he demands, his voice sharp and biting as he watches you linger near the door, still too stunned to move.
āIām on fucking patrol, and Shitty Hair wonāt stop calling me, then heās crying about you, and that he has the kids and youāre gone! And since you decide to not answer a single fucking text, Iām forced to trample up here to get you.ā
His words hit you like a slap, each one laced with a mix of anger and frustration, but you canāt bring yourself to react, your body still laced with tiredness and emptiness.Ā
You return him with a blank stare, as his eyes, wild with simmering anger and confusion, rake over you. His head whips around the room, at your small bag and clothes, like it will give him the answer. Like your another criminal to crack. Like the answer hasnāt been in his face this entire time.Ā
At your silence, he takes a sharp breath, pinching the bridge of his nose, and it seems like heās trying to hold back the frustration, trying a different tactic.
āSweetheartā¦"
Huh. You havenāt heard that in a while.It still doesnāt carry the softness it once did; now it feels foreign, distant, like it doesnāt belong. The word lingers in the air between you, almost mocking in its attempt to soften the tension.
āSay something, this⦠this isnāt like you. Fuckinā taking off like thisā¦ā
He sits on the bed, looking at you like heās never seen you before, like this is your first fight, and heās trying to figure out where things went wrong.Ā
You sigh, feeling the weight of everything Kirishima had said to you earlier. āHe⦠he sometimes needs things spelled out for him. Itās not fair, butā¦ā
You breathe in deeply, pulling your robe tighter around you, but you donāt move towards him.Ā
āKatsukiā¦ā Your voice is quiet, but it cracks with the weight of everything youāve been holding in. āIām tired.ā
The only thing that tells you heās really listening is the sharp intake of breath that follows your words.
āI just⦠Iām not sure if I can do this anymore. If Iām happy⦠anymore.ā
The words hang in the air, heavy and final.
Katsuki doesnāt say anything at first. His presence is looming, heavy, but thereās no movement. No angry retort. You hear him breathe, slow and deliberate, but when the silence drags on, your chest tightens with the fear that maybe he doesnāt know how to fix this, either.
Finally, his voice breaks the quiet, low and rough.Ā
āOkayāā he mutters, dragging his hands roughly through his hair, āOkay.ā
You donāt look up. But, you can hear him now, his footsteps heavy as he stands and begins pacing next to the bed, restless and unsure.
āNot happyānot happy how?ā His voice cracks, just a little, as if heās trying to hold himself together. He pauses, breath catching in his throat, before continuing, his words tumbling out in quick bursts. āWhat can I do, to, to fuckinā fix this?ā.Ā
Your mind feels so empty, the recognition of his emotions, of his desperation, doesnāt even register. Itās coming a couple of years too late. You canāt prevent a delirious, small laugh from escaping your lips in response, the bitter sound echoing in the quiet room. The idea that he still doesnāt get it, that you still have to spell it out to him, makes your chest tighten with something raw and aching.
You wipe your face, a dry, exhausted laugh escaping before you can stop it. āYou still donāt get it, huh?ā Your voice is barely above a whisper, heavy with everything youāve been holding in for so long. āYou canāt just fix it, Katsuki. You canāt just show up and expect everything to be okay. Itās been so long, and I⦠Iāve been doing thisāthis whole thingāon my own for so long.ā
You slide down the wall, onto the floor. Resigned with the fact that youāve said enough for tonight, and that you canāt get out any more. The silence in the room is thick, but you meet his eyes, and numbly register that heās crying now. You can't remember the last time you saw that either, maybe back when your first baby was born, though the tears are much different now. His face is twisted in confusion, guilt, and something that might be regret. Like the severity of the situation has finally reached him.
Then, he falls to the floor, meeting you there. His face is swollen with tears, and you can hear the shaky breath escape him as he reaches out, wanting to touch you. His hands hover above your knees, and before you even think about it, you knock them away.
The reflex comes from somewhere deep inside youāsomewhere thatās been broken for too long. His eyes widen, like youāve slapped him, and he pulls his hands back, his body going rigid as if he wasnāt expecting that reaction.
āDonāt,ā you whisper, your voice trembling.
Katsukiās face crumples even more, his shoulders shaking as he tries to even his breathing. His voice comes out broken, barely audible. āIāIām sorry. I donāt know how to⦠how to make it right. I just⦠I didnāt know. I didnāt realize.ā
You donāt say anything. The words feel like theyāre stuck in your throat, the exhaustion and hurt too heavy to allow you to respond with anything that isnāt laced with bitterness or tears.
āI can sort this out,ā he says again, softer this time, his voice breaking. āI can do better. I swear, Iāll try. Iāllāā He looks at you, as though heās trying to find the right words, the right way to fix everything thatās broken.
For a moment, all you can do is look at him. Heās still the same man you married, but somehow, heās different. More lost. More fragile. And so are you. And maybe thatās the hardest part.
The silence that follows is heavy, painful, a reminder of everything thatās been unsaid for far too long.
With a final, lingering glance at you, Katsuki stands up. The room feels colder now, the absence of his presence a sharp contrast to the tension that had once filled it.
āIāll fix it,ā he says one last time, his voice quieter now, and with that, he turns and walks out of the room.
.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.āā.⹠°Źāɰ.ā
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