Rivvszn - Alisha

every single day the realisation that yjh is literally the physical embodiment of hsy's love, hope, and desperation hits me like a truck and i die a little inside. like. she's spent lifetimes crafting him by pulling him out of the deepest corners of her heart, and even if he tries to become cold or unfeeling he will ALWAYS, first and foremost, be an existence made up of her purest emotions which means they get each other like nobody else, not even kim dokja :((

two characters who only ever know how to chase after someone that keeps slipping away, leaving them with the crushing weight of being lonely and INCOMPLETE, and whatever comfort they can find they find in each other's arms.

or. in other words. two characters who give pieces of themselves away for eternity without a word and are caught so off guard when they're together and directing that devotion at each other, making this the first time THEY are ever someone else's priority.

AUGHHEHHEHE 💔💔

realizing that reaffirming each other with words has always been shin soukoku’s thing

but even more than that Akutagawa’s famous repetition of this line is no longer a one off…

but a thing they both do now…

cause what better way to hammer a message into your stubborn idiot partners brain than using his own words against him…. and saying it over and over again???

I have. Something to talk about and its very very VERY important.

We know that last scene of TDJ where its just PEAK yearning but can we PLEASE appreciate the micro-expressions that passed over both Yohan & Gaon's faces when they faced each other DIRECTLY after a MONTH (if im not wrong) of that whole blowing up fiasco + Yohan's arrest before that??????? Because my GOD.

So we see Gaon call Yohan by his Full Government Name™ (which wasn't very wise for a declared dead enemy of the state who is ALSO wanted but we'll let it pass for romanticisms' sake) and look at his face. His face is one of a scared man. He's not hesitant but he is afraid of how Yohan views him after what transpired between them.

In turn, Yohan looks back and well.

He is also somewhat apprehensive. They're both testing each other & the waters they're in. Although Yohan doesn't have a revenge vendetta shackling him down anymore, Gaon, on the other hand, has tremendous stuff to unpack. They're carefully, if not gently, evaluating the distance between them.

And then, Yohan gives a clear sign that he holds nothing against Gaon. An open arm, an open invitation. To join him? Maybe. To decide what to do with them? Perhaps. It's vague but it's also clear that Yohan is done manipulating Gaon & that he has left the ball in Gaon's court.

Then come the positive changes. With Yohan's green signal, Gaon is somewhat relieved but also incredibly guilt-ridden. I think these frames speak for themselves.

The wet smile & the eye crinkles. He is so relieved to be in Yohan's good graces but also just looking at Yohan be his ever glowing self after serving his life's purpose.

Yohan. My dearest Yohan. Look at him. He's equally heart-broken to be seeing Gaon like this, to be leaving him behind but that little nod he does???? Like he's made a decision that he needs to stick with for the betterment of Gaon???? That's what truly gets me. It's so clear the distance between them is hurting him but he also knows that it's necessary to give Gaon space & time, to unravel & to explore things on his own. Perhaps another assumption on his part because who truly knows what Gaon wants except Gaon himself?

Then it's a brief look exchanged. As he turns, giving Gaon one last reassuring smile as he turns and leaves behind one of the most important people to him.

And gaon watches. Look at his micro-expressions here. Look at his breathing. His sagging shoulders. His eyes. His wet smile. His balled hands. His tiny nods.

He also thinks this is necessary but you can so clearly see its taking every bit of nerve & fiber in him to stay rooted to his place & not chase after Yohan. He's DELIBERATELY not taking a single step towards Yohan. He thinks he doesn't deserve to chase after him, that hes content to see Yohan: alive, well and so utterly free. That's all that matters.

I would genuinely like to appreciate both jinyoung and jisung for their acting bcs they NAILED the raw emotions needed for this absolutely stunning yet gut wrenching scene. It's so difficult to convey such complex emotions through such little means yet they did it to PERFECTION. They both gave their characters LIFE. And for that i will always be grateful bcs i dont think anyone else could've done Kang Yohan and Kim Gaon the way they did.

honestly it is infinitely more funnier for me to imagine that nobody has ever perceived atsumu as cocky despite him trying so hard. like first meeting he gives people that hooded eye stare and makes a sassy comment but he forgets he's usually surrounded by great volleyball players so two seconds later he's staring at them from across the net all starry-eyed and vibrating with excitement. the people at his school regularly see him getting his ass beat by osamu and the only reason they let him do that hand gesture thing at matches is because he pouts for DAYS if he doesn't get his cool™ moment. he wants to be one of those senpais who command respect forcefully but kita asks him to be responsible and he gets so excited at seeing new faces anyway that he just pampers the fuck out of his juniors, gaining respect in a completely unintended way. he probably fails to bully kids on roblox because he's sensitive as fuck and complains to aran when anyone insults him. whenever he acts up suna threatens to post embarrassing pics of him. he's one-third of the idiot msby trio. he has somehow annoyed half the japan team and iwaizumi into adopting him. he's probably forced by osamu to dress as an onigiri mascot once a month to promote the restaurant. basically let miya atsumu be a himbo sunshine loved by everyone this man is a loser omfg.

csm throws a gazillion horrifying things at you every chapter that have you missing the hayakawa family like nothing else but then two panels later you're face to face with King Yaoi The Fourth Hirofumi Yoshida who is starring in the greatest tentacle sex yaoi manga of his own making by shoving a hand down Denji's throat

ponyo doing the most for a random kid, a bucket with a hole in it, and some ramen 🍜

bro is so scrunkly wunkly goobly doobly <3

exactly

big fan of whenever bocchi's eyes go ⬆️⬇️

my little melting cotton candy 🍭🍬

pretty boys & their genderfluid divine mums

sometimes my pinterest glitches tf out and today it turned this

into this

lore accurate i must say