Rodionratskolnikov - Rodion Ratskolnikov

people will clown on me for this because he killed two people but I just love how sweet Rodya is. He is so cruel and mean and uncouth a lot or even most of the time, but then he does things like constantly thoughtlessly give the last of his money away to anyone who needs it more than him, cries when he’s in his psychotic episode and can’t remember who Razumikhin is, has that very sweet and tender moment with Polenka, begs the police to get a doctor for Marmeladov and says he’ll pay for it despite having nothing at all himself. At the same time he is capable of terrible things and is often terrible specifically to the people who love him and want to help, and oscillates wildly between the two. It’s that juxtaposition that holds so much of the interest of the narrative itself for me. A lot of people focus on how awful he is and while that is also honestly such a fun part of his character, that alone is not what makes him compelling to me. I have so much tenderness for his character despite what he’s done because he is just so mentally ill and has been through and been witness to so much hardship. He is not easy to love or understand but it’s so beautiful and sweet that Razumikhin, Sonya, his family and his other friends love him so dearly anyway. I truly think the suffering he is constantly surrounded by is the thing that has driven him to psychosis. Specifically I think of when he goes to the police station in part two and says he has been “shattered by poverty.” In these little moments of sweetness and lucidity towards others, even in the depths of his illness, we can still see the little boy in him who so desperately wanted to help that poor horse.

the inherent homoeroticism of two men pointing guns at each other

so welcome home

Every single day people on tumblr say "what if the shit moral OCD tells you was true and living by it was the only way to be a real progressive"

Is 2+2 four or five? I need to settle an argument between me and this guy I have a manipulative friendship with. Please hurry there’s a lot of homoerotic tension

POV you are Winston

broo this fucking sucks i'm gonna [remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health] murder an old pawnbroker with an axe, act like the most suspicious person in all of st. petersburg while wrestling with my guilty concience, confess to it all within like 72 hours, and be exiled to siberia.

@sluttish-armchair

Julia.

the urge to fuck him when he starts rambling about nerdy shit i don't understand

if a libertarian dies in a shootout with the feds they go to the big Action Park in the sky

hey man i think your twink is disturbed. On a very deep fundamental and psychological level