Latest Posts by rodionratskolnikov - Page 3

the original toxic old man yaoi

I’m going to be so honest, my ideal date would consist of sharing illegally obtained chocolate and tea, cuddling, and reading dense political theory in an antique store in a run-down, sketchy part of town.

I like to imagine that the Redwall books (ESPECIALLY “Outcast of Redwall”) exist within the Zootopia universe, but their basically the in-universe equivalent of something like “Birth of a Nation” or “the turner diaries”

so, I’ve been getting a lot of trump x Biden (triden????) content recommended to me across socials recently. It’s been absolutely wild, and I know many of you have been eating it up (ironically or unironically? Who cares, irony is dead anyway)

however, I would like to give credit where credit is due to the 1984 fandom for being the first people to latch onto the trope of Frail Sickly Old Man x Compulsive Liar. We were truly Ahead of Our Time.

Literally 1984

”pdf file” “unalived” “grape” “corn” what if i killed myself right here right now

why isnt the olympics called oui sports

Collection of images and memes for anyone who doesn’t know what to draw

quick reminder that my own gay ass genuinely supports the hell outta each and every one of you. regardless if i know you or not, im happy to be living in this shithole of a life in the same world with you.

and im proud of you, i know in my heart just how beautiful, amazing, talented, smart, and worthy you are and i hope you can see that too🏳️‍🌈🌈

people will clown on me for this because he killed two people but I just love how sweet Rodya is. He is so cruel and mean and uncouth a lot or even most of the time, but then he does things like constantly thoughtlessly give the last of his money away to anyone who needs it more than him, cries when he’s in his psychotic episode and can’t remember who Razumikhin is, has that very sweet and tender moment with Polenka, begs the police to get a doctor for Marmeladov and says he’ll pay for it despite having nothing at all himself. At the same time he is capable of terrible things and is often terrible specifically to the people who love him and want to help, and oscillates wildly between the two. It’s that juxtaposition that holds so much of the interest of the narrative itself for me. A lot of people focus on how awful he is and while that is also honestly such a fun part of his character, that alone is not what makes him compelling to me. I have so much tenderness for his character despite what he’s done because he is just so mentally ill and has been through and been witness to so much hardship. He is not easy to love or understand but it’s so beautiful and sweet that Razumikhin, Sonya, his family and his other friends love him so dearly anyway. I truly think the suffering he is constantly surrounded by is the thing that has driven him to psychosis. Specifically I think of when he goes to the police station in part two and says he has been “shattered by poverty.” In these little moments of sweetness and lucidity towards others, even in the depths of his illness, we can still see the little boy in him who so desperately wanted to help that poor horse.

Romancing the Abject, or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love Others’ Hate

Albert Camus, The Stranger (1942) // The Mountain Goats, "Heretic Pride" // George Orwell, Nineteen Eighty-Four (1949) // Kate Beaton, "Hark! A Vagrant" // Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves (2000) // "cringe isnt an insult" // Augusten Burroughs, Running With Scissors (2002) // my explanation preemptive apology for this post // Hermann Hesse, Demian (1919) // Pink Guy, "Fried Noodles"

if a libertarian dies in a shootout with the feds they go to the big Action Park in the sky

ahem *the soup feeding scene in Crime and Punishment*

you guys ever hear a character say something so gay you sitting there trying to figure out how you were supposed to interpret that platonically?!

you guys ever hear a character say something so gay you sitting there trying to figure out how you were supposed to interpret that platonically?!

YOU liked 1984 because of the dystopian atmosphere and the cultural impact and the discussion on how language shapes thought. EYE liked 1984 because I was fujoshing out to winston/obrien torture gaslighting yaoi. we are not the same

Is 2+2 four or five? I need to settle an argument between me and this guy I have a manipulative friendship with. Please hurry there’s a lot of homoerotic tension

My thoughts exactly.

I swear, this feels straight out of a hurt/comfort/angst/whump fic.

why is Winston torture scene so oddly intimate?

Y'all, if you haven't listened to the audible version of 1984 with Andrew Garfield and Andrew Scott.... DO IT NOW!

They are both such brilliant actors and the whump *whimpers* is sooooo good. I'm not a big audiobook person, but Andrew Garfield whimpering and getting tortured (it's incredible), Andrew Scott being a twisted villain, and the loyalty to the actual book is phenomenal.

So please go listen. You won't be disappointed.

I'm the kind of reader who scribbles on the pages of a book to express my great love for the work or eternal hatred.

Given the extreme stakes of Project 2025 I need everyone to vote Democrat downballot. Everyone. Bring your friends to the ballot box, make a day of it. Have voting parties. Anything to get people energized.

I am dead serious though. If you know or love an lgbtq+ person, or if you care about continuing to have a choice or ability to push for change in this country, you need to vote Democrat downballot. The leftmost candidates must win as many races as possible. We have to completely smash the Republicans at the ballot box to get a chance at establishing ranked choice, to get abortion rights back, to keep Trump from getting more Justices, to secure the right to protest, and to protect and improve democracy.

The only way to move the overton window left where we want it is to keep voting left, persistently, consistently, doggedly.

Please vote. I know you’re depressed about it. I am too, but we have to vote.

Make sure you’re registered, and vote on Nov 5th. If you are disabled or don’t have reliable transportation, see what the absentee ballot laws are in your state.

Vote against Trump and Project 2025.

…this just sounds like asmr.

Mind control that doesn't dominate your thoughts, it just... is your thoughts. Perfectly rewriting your will and everything it embodies. Not a single trace of resistance because this is just what you want. Why would you resist your own thoughts? Why would you disagree with your own motivations, your own desires?

Mind control that doesn't shatter once it's done, it just disappears. You don't snap back into awareness. You barely even notice. You just continue as if nothing ever happened. Maybe one moment you look back and you frown, because thinking on it, you remember when you happily followed that person out of town, and you remember what you did, you remember wanting to... but that's crazy. Why did you think that was okay? Why did you want to do that?

Or maybe you were under this mind control for so long that even once it's over you look back and say, "Oh, of course I did that." As far as you're concerned you've always held the beliefs you do now. You've always wanted to do these things. You don't remember why, but you've never had to think of why, and it doesn't matter anyway when you've always been so confident that you're right. It isn't until you're challenged on it all and reminded that you never used to be like this, that you were different before, that something has changed that you finally falter. And you try to think of where this all started, try to figure out why things changed -- and all you can really remember is an entrancing pair of eyes, and a gentle suggestion, and then your own mouth responding, "That's a great idea. Let's go."

And suddenly, you realise that you have no idea how much of what you are, what you were, and what you believed you always have been is just a lie. You don't know whether any thought you have now is really yours or just another preciously placed prompt. You don't trust your impulses, you don't trust your desires, you definitely don't trust your judgement.

You don't trust yourself. And you never can again.

the inherent homoeroticism of two men pointing guns at each other

“My poor baby. My poor sweet little boy,” I lament out loud over a whole grown adult man who is not mine but is in fact a fictional character with fictional hurts. What matters is my feelings are real

Love reading classical literature then immediately going to ao3 for a queer fix it AU

"democracts always say that this election is the most important one yet" yes because we're in the flaggy bit of the history book that could either end with "end of american democracy, lead up to war world iii" or "tensions fizzle, beginning of post trump restoration" depending on how you vote. like every election since 2016 has been "the most important election yet" because trump won in 2016 and trump has made his desire to be a dictator clear.

in fact, i don't think 2008 or 2012 were given the same weight of "this is the most important election ever" because we were not living in the dangerous time of a dictator literally trying to take over the united states

my friend sent me a really good pop team epic strip over 2007 rodyas big coat

Smth about Winston Smith from 1984 is so squishable. I want to hold him in my fist and squeeze really tight. I have absolutely no idea why. Is it just me?

Do you think 1984 would have been a better book if it had included any explicitly queer characters?

this might be the best bait ask ive ever seen, beautiful work

When A Character Is in a state of panic they…

breathe rapidly and shallowly.

feel their heart pounding in their chest.

have trouble forming coherent thoughts.

sweat profusely even in cool environments.

tremble or shake uncontrollably.

feel a tightness in their chest or throat.

dart their eyes around frantically.

speak in a hurried and disjointed manner.

feel an overwhelming sense of dread.

have a strong urge to escape or hide.

experience a sense of detachment or unreality.

struggle to make rational decisions.

Shout out to Realicide fans. Thanks for turning my philosophical beliefs into a tumblr sexyman. I want his outfit. I want to put him in the microwave.