Seriously Need To Get My Shit Together Bc Wtf Is This— The Frkn URGE To Yeet Myself Out Of Existence

No nap bc revising took longer than i anticipated 😭. Gonna read the reader b4 my class starts :’)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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I want to be completely honest.

There are going to be people who are better than you.

There will be times when someone is going to get ahead of you

And there will be times when you worked hard, and you didn't achieve it.

And yes, it is fine. Completely fine. You are allowed to be disappointed. You are allowed to be sad. And you are allowed to get pissed.

It's the brutal truth that you may not get what you want all the time. And you should learn to be okay with that.

04.03.2025

Ended up not going to school but the doctors today :(

So I have notes to complete and stuff to study for tmrw . I'm like seriously scared of the teachers for the first time in my life cuz they hella strict. As if the pressure of boards and entrance exams wasn't enough 🥲

Things I did today (I'll update as I do em) :

• Attend my live class

• completed my notes

• read a few pages of phy reader

• did math hw

ypt study group

Created this ypt group , if you want you can join. I mean if you study a lot do join( looking for motivation)

Password is - studyblr

Staying consistent even when it’s not immediately rewarding is where the shift happens.

14.04.2025 (mon)

(2 of my many many handwritings lmfao)

day (5/30) of DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hours ≈ 4 hrs

💤 ≈ 5 hrs + 20 min power nap otbrh 💤

The eng test went pretty okay :)

Studied for my chem test

Completed random notes of eng & phy

Math hw

Phy lec 1

Would've liked to do one more but I was sleepy and wanted to get at least 6 hrs of sleep (per night is the goal lmfao). My head kinda hurts too hehe =D

BYEE (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

Also, my watch which I'm very emotionally attached to kinda broke today— like the thingy that holds the straps ?? Anyways I'm so heart broken cuz I got it for VERY cheap and it lasted like 3 yrs or smn atp 😭 I'm still wearing gonna wear but 😢

15.04.2025 (tue)

Day (6/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 4:20 hrs

💤 ≈ 6 hrs 💤

Did math hw which basically the whole miscellaneous exercise of determinants (almost died in teh process)

Lec 2 + half of lec 3 of electrostatics

Completed bio diagrams

The chem test went pretty well except Assertion reason kinda sucked cuz I always end up overthinking :( . Got 15/20 on my phy paper which was what I was expecting so I was relieved it wasn't yk lower than that but obviously I'm not happy about it 😭 Was actually planning on completing lec 3 but had to some last min shit to do :')

SO frkn tired so just gonna head to bed andd it's almost 12 which means only around 5 hours of sleep and I tried napping on the bus ride home but it was pretty blegh like I didn't sleep much so it doesn't even count— ughh . The first thought when I wake up is going to bed at night 😭. We have THE WORST timetables on Wednesdays (I'm still trynna heal from last week's). All in all me is high-key done for AHHHHHHH

BYEE (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

30.04.2025 (wed)

Day (21/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

ypt hrs ≈ 1:35 hrs

💤 4:30 + 20 min power nap 💤

• Watched my live lec on organisms and ppn and did some hw. Nothin else hehe ^^

12.03.2025 (wed)

Just got back from school and honestly, today’s been lowkey trash. Couldn’t focus at all and zoned out for the entirety of physics—like, my brain just went NOPE. So now I have to relearn everything from scratch 😭. I’ve been trying so hard to be consistent, but it’s days like these that really test me. So yeah, gonna lock in and grind to make up for it.

Today’s To-Do List (aka the battle plan):

Chem - Revise numericals.

Chem - Study Lec 1 (it’s been haunting my to-do list for a week now) + Lec 2 & 3 (I’m not going to bed until these are DONE.)

Phy - Relearn today’s class (because clearly my brain took a day off.)

It’s me vs. my procrastination today, and I’m NOT losing.

Toodles ~~

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14.03.2025 (fri)

Woke up at 12 PM today and got hit with a killer headache that just kept getting worse 😭. The only reason I survived was because there were just a couple of hours till iftar. Took a painkiller, but it didn’t do much. Still managed to squeeze in some studying—not a lot, but hey, it’s something. Started strong but ended procrastinating towards the end 😭

Things I did today ~

Revised Lec 1 stuff from yesterday

Watched Lec 2 and made notes

Started Lec 3

The good part? I actually understood things pretty easily today, so I’m breathing a little easier. Still a long way to go, but small wins are still wins !!

Anyways,

BYEEEE

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