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More,Laito Sakamaki

Headcanons/thoughts

Tw:child abuse/sexual abuse/trauma/laito sakamaki/assault

So I wanted to talk about Laito sakamaki in a bit more depth,specifically when he's a child/his childhood growing up

So we know that with the sakamaki brothers they all kinda grew up together,in the same house I'm pretty sure

We see this in the flashback in the anime of their childhood (I haven't played the game or read the comics)

It looks like to some extent they bonded,at least until a certain age

But in present day their relationship is strained,and I can guess it happened around their actual teenage years(before going into the hundreds)

Laito's relationship with his brothers is even more rifted when he started being molested by cordelia

Because his view of love was so tainted,mistaking lust and abuse for love he isn't exactly sure how to properly bond with his brothers now that cordelia has ruined his perception of what love is supposed to be and look like

I also read somewhere (and headcanon) that his brothers found out that he was in an incestuous relationship with their mother when they were still kids and feel guilty about

In present day its obvious the brothers don't bond and don't ever plan to,but even with all their trauma and misconceptions in life they can still feel horrified learning that cordelia was molesting and grooming their brother

As kids the rest of the brothers couldn't exactly do anything about the situation

I read that ayato found out by hearing laito sneak off to cordelias room late at night and feels tremendous guilt about it

Despite the abuse the brothers already endured I imagine it would still be extremely traumatic to acquire that information

I think that being sexually abused by his mother has (obviously) never felt truly good

In the comics,he says that love is something that feels good (referring to sleeping with cordelia,concluding that this is his perception of love)

Yet I think that it never truly felt because because it isn't natural nor okay

Of course his body responded naturally to sexual pleasure and adding on that he doesn't exactly know it's wrong,your brain still knows deep down is wrong

I think when he got older he realised it wasn't a normal thing to do but he refuses to acknowledge it because of how uncomfortable it is to think about

He isn't really in touch with his emotions

He just feels something and goes with it

But he hates being vulnerable

Which is why he chooses to make others vulnerable unstead (I'm in no way excusing this behaviour,simply bringing it to light in order to explain my thoughts on his abuse)

I also believe that cordelia physically forced sexual in counters on him multiple times,which could also explain his violent controlling,impulsive behaviour,because it was shown to him (I know he didnt have a choice as a child and was coerced,just saying that maybe he didn't comply at first so he was possibly literally dragged or hit/restrained)

He was also surrounded by adults who knew about it (karlheinz I'm convinced he knows everything that goes on at all times,richter),but didn't nothing,which was probably extremely suffocating

Knowing that you could be helped,but weren't

I don't like them (all sakamakis) though because of their history as notorious abusers,torturers,assaulters and most likely rapists,not to mention killing the brides

Remember that just because you were abused,it is not an excuse to abuse other,break the cycle

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Shh,it's a Canon event

Mika: If you have 10 cookies, and I ask for 5, how many would you have left?

Yuu: None.

Mika: …Yuu-Chan, this is basic math, it’s not that har—

Yuu: I would give them all to you because I love you.

Mika:

Mika, visibly holding back tears: Disgusting, absolutely repulsive, get out of my house.

Bruno in the walls watching everyone harmonize about how much they hate him:

Laito Sakamaki(mostly angsty)

I would love for him to find actual love

So let's say he did

You

I feel that in the anime he never fully confronted his trauma with his mother

It's said (or atleast hinted at) that he dates and sleeps with alot of the girls at school

And he's obviously a pervert and a flirt

I wanna say that wherever he sleeps with girls he gets this uncomfortable feeling but chokes it down because it's what he's used to because of Cordelia

Never fully complete,empty

So let's say he found someone (you) that helps him fully heal and confront his trauma

He would have ptsd/panic attacks (before and after meeting you) but be in complete denial about it

Like he genuinely refuses to believe he's been traumatised

But as his back falls against the wall and he slowly slides down

You comfort him

Something that he's never felt before

And he starts hyperventilating,fully going into the panic attack

He would cling to you,disoriented and scared

Through a haze,he can vaguely hear your words,your soft touch and you heartbeat against his temple

And he closes his eyes and imagines you face,how you guys look right now

As he slowly calms down he just feels numb

And so tired

He let's you lead him to bed so he can lie down

You take off his hat and blazer

Laying down next to him, head on your hand,softly stroking his hair

For the first time in his life,he feels true love.

Mizu (Blue Eye Samurai)

!!SPOILERS!!

•I think that mizu has trust issues

•or atleast keeps her guard up around everyone,even ringo

•let's say you're some sort of doctor or have medical training

•she passed by your village and needed some sort of medicinal assistance

•that's where you come in

•you were the medic of the town,not an official title but everyone repected you as such

•she asked around and made her way to your doorstep

•greeting are exchanged,decently pleasant

•you request she remove her clothing for an inspection

•a medical one (I see you)

•despite her refusal you compromised by giving her medicine and bandages

*cue your interesting backstory*

•before she could exit your humble abode you grasped the sleeve of her blue textile

"Are you in need of medical assistance?"

😐-mizu

😐😯-you

"One for the road I mean"

•you confirmed

•she initially refused but you sort of followed her everywhere and by then it was a little late to leave you

•you then met Ringo,and all of you made your way to find 'Heiji Shindo'

•you never really asked questions about mizus broody behaviour

•as you all made your way through the town mizu entered a brothel,Ringo and yourself followed

•you lay rest there for countless days wishlists mizu goes out and does only god knows what

•you look about and discover mizus whereabouts at a brothel known for its unique services to fulfill customers rather unusual requested

•in you went,taken aback slightly by the strange aroma

•as you walked the halls you heard a smidgen of a familiar voice requesting assumably a prostitute to be left alone

•there she was!

•you entered the room quietly unbeknownst to the elegantly dressed escort and only made your presence known when you placed yourself by mizus side

•"hi mizu!😃"

•you weren't always the brightest

•or maybe you were

•your face instantly hardened once you got the aroma of the 'sake' in your lungs

•mizu held the cup to her lips and you quickly snatched (don't know how you managed that one pal 👏 )

•you quickly downed the beverage,if someone was going to be drugged you'd rather it be yourself rather than mizu

•you didn't feel it at first but then...

•why is she moving like that,the escort

•it's like there's three of her

•you started seeing the ghosts of your past

•that one particular ghost you didn't want anywhere near you

•meanwhile not in la la land

•mizu had restrained a distraught akemi

•she then rushed over to your form,possibly even more distraught,slowly backing away into a corner

•she reached out to you but her hand was swatted away

•you were hysterical,heavy breathing,eyes widened,tears streaming like a waterfall of misery

•she had to grasp you into a forceful hug when you tried to flee the room

•feeling you struggling against her,scratching everything you could wasn't pleasant but she endured it for your sake

•eventually your wails turned into weak strained of your voice as you fell against slowly but surely collapsing

•she cradled your exhausted form delicately,watching your expression fade into a more peaceful one

•she whispered gently

"I love you,____"

•It pleased her to see an unconscious smile adorn your face after she uttered those sacred words

•words she had been wanting to say for a while now

I have no idea what's going on but I'm confused with you

There was a ton of other weird shit going on but the main thing I remember is that I was a ghost possessing a zombie to warn a posse of cowboys about a mpreg vampire werewolf that was coming to attack them.

Boyfriend asmr would send a victorian child into a fit

just finished banana fish I need a fucking aspirin