thinking about how james farrow chose a passage from pericles, a play where someone is thought to have dead at sea only to be reunited with the protagonist, as his letter to oliver makes me feral
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WHEN TODOROKI BLUSHES, THE TOP OF HIS LEFT EAR CATCHES ON FIRE LIKE A LITTLE CANDLE, YES I WILL BE SPREADING THIS AGENDA FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
[4:54pm] // B. Katsuki
“fuck,” you cussed for the umpteen time today, mind in overdrive from the numerous math questions you did in the past few hours. it was taking a toll on you and honestly, you just want to take a big fucking nap.
there’s a test tomorrow for class 3A, and the subject was, you guessed it – math.
in the midst of your self-pity, you heard sudden huffing and puffing from behind you, making you furrow your brows.
“you better not be jerking off right now or i will–“
“fuck woman get ya head out the gutter, ‘m just doing some push ups,” katsuki, or better known as your angry-blonde-pomeranian of a boyfriend, interjected as he continued muttering the number of pushups he had done. 195..196..197…
“you didn’t let me finish, i was gonna say that i would join you,” you shrugged your shoulders. “but i guess you clearly don’t want that.”
hearing a growl and a thump, you swivelled your chair around to meet the rather enjoyable sight of a slightly panting katsuki on the floor of your dorm room.
200.
“do you not have to study for tomorrow or something?” you questioned.
katsuki snapped his gaze towards you from the ground, and raised an eyebrow.
“babe, you know i don’t do last minute revision,” he pushed himself off the ground with a smirk, advancing to your desk.
You scoffed at his statement before turning the chair back to face the one math problem you’ve been stuck on for god knows how long.
leaning his body over you, you could feel the dip in your chair from when he placed his arm on the headrest, and his other hand on the desk, the position caging you in. it made you feel safe, oddly.
as katsuki scanned the worksheet, you were busy admiring the slight sheen of sweat on his bicep, deliciously showing off the curvature of muscles.
lick.
a beat passed before you retracted your tongue back into your mouth, seemingly bewildered by your own action.
katsuki was no better, he blinked twice dumbly before registering that you had just licked his arm… his arm.
“What the fu-“
“sweet,”
both of you spoke at the same time, with you sheepishly looking up at his blank yet slightly offended expression.
he stared at you for a few more seconds before sending a quick whack to the back of your head that got you whining in faux pain.
“what was that for!” you rubbed your head with a pout.
“ya fuckin’ idiot,” he sighed exasperatedly but you knew his words and action held no menace, not when there’s a trace of a smile threatening to break through his annoyed facade.
giggling, you looped an arm around his neck above you, pushing it down for your lips to meet. it was a short kiss, but still had the corners of your mouth turn up into an irrepressible smile and your insides warm with affection.
katsuki had his thumb rubbing circles on your head, a silent apology for whacking you in that exact spot a few moments ago.
separating from each other, you could see katsuki’s pink dusted cheeks and awkward borderline smile, it was adorable. he was adorable. so adorable you couldn’t help but coo and pinch his cheeks.
at that, his awkward smile disappeared into a scowl. his ruby eyes narrowing at you.
“tch, c’mon, what’s the problem with this question?”
god, do you love your boom boom boy.
Bird tendencies: sfw
- Hawks is a BIG cuddler, as soon as he gets home from work expect him all over you, wings wrapping around the both of you
- Also how he likes to sleep, you flush to his chest, one wing under, on over the top, lets just say you don’t need many blankets because of how cosy it is.
- On the topic of beds, NESTS, this mans bed is just a collection of blankets, pillows and whatever plush animals either you or him added, soft and fuzzy and something he was super excited to show you when you first started dating
-Likes shiny things, like bottle tabs, jewellery or just anything that catches his eye
-His love language is just giving you random things that caught his eye on patrol, you have a small shoebox filled with them in your wardrobe
-He gets you pretty necklaces, bracelets, watches, literally anything you like because he likes seeing you in nice shiny things
-His wings puff up when he’s jealous!!! He sees someone flirting with you and he’s just like *Poof* trying to make himself seem as big as possible
-Night time flights, he’s strong so no matter what size you are he can easily pick up (with help with his feathers depending) and takes you on romantic night time flights most likely to the country side to see the stars
-He literally loves you so much, and dotes on you all the time, your his world and treats you like it, all he wants is you to love him back :)))
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The senses shift last
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Reposting because Tumblr flagged the last one
Focus on your internal experience. That is what matters. That is what shifts. Think as your DR self and no one else. If you enter the mental state of your DR self you will enter the physical state of your DRself.
It's ok if you don't feel it yet, it's ok if you hear a sound from your CR, it's ok if you can feel your old bedroom still. It's OK.
Shifting is not a physical process. Your physical body is not what's shifting between realities, your awareness is. Your sight, hearing, taste, feeling, etc, are all a part of your physical body.
What the nerves in your body are experiencing doesn't matter because you are not the nerves, you are not the body, you are the awareness. Your body isn't trying to shift, your mind is.
You are trying to become aware of another reality and therefore what you are experiencing in this one is irrelevant. It doesn't matter what this body experiences it matters what your awareness is experiencing.
Shifting is internal focus on shifting internally.
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If you still don't get it think of it this way:
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If you are sitting down and thinking to yourself about everything see, hear, feel, smell, or taste from your CR, then you are LITERALLY applying the 5 senses method to your CR.
If your method is mainly affirming, so repeating to yourself that you're there, WHAT do you think is happening when you keep telling yourself you're not there? Everything you say is an affirmation. It's not that methods aren't working it's that you are literally applying them in reverse.
It doesn't matter what your senses are telling you because you will shift before they do. It doesn't mean anything unless you tell yourself that it does.
If your senses do not match your mental state stay in the mental state until they do. Do not compromise with shit you don't want.
STAY in the mind of your DRself. That's your only job. Continue to think as if you're there. Continue to think about your life in your DR, continue to occupy the mind of your DRself.
This is what so many people get stuck on. I don't expect you to magically stop experiencing it, it is ok that you felt it. All you have to do is continue to think as if you are in your DR anyway.
Your subconscious will believe what you tell it over what your body is experiencing. Your only goal is to keep telling it that you're in your DR.
Yes you might have heard a loud noise and yes you know it's not from your DR. That doesn't matter. The goal is not to magically un-hear it but to avoid returning to the mental state of your CR self.
It is ok if you can't make yourself believe you're there, you just have to think to yourself as if you are. Think as DR you and no one else.
Essentially, you shift mentally before you feel it physically. Before you experience your desired reality externally you experience it internally.
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Tumblr please stop flagging my posts for no reason
"I wanted to be loved so desperately that my fingers shook with it. I am not beautiful, but I could be." — Emily Palermo.
bakugou thinks, in all honesty, about you.
it's late at night and he still can't sleep. he's used to having schedules for everything, especially something as important as sleep, but he can't for the life of him fall asleep tonight.
he won't admit it, the pro-hero not changing this stubborn habit from his younger days, but work today was a little too gruesome, it hit a little too close to home. especially a certain young couple he was a touch too far to save. instead, he lays awake in your shared bed, his arms strongly caging you and longing for your warmth.
you're settled in his arms, protected and tightly snuggled against his chest. you're here, and he’s here, and anyone who ever dares to do anything to you has to go through him first.
he releases a long sigh, knowing it's not as easy as he thinks. as he runs a hand down his face, you sleepily pull him closer to your body. "'tsuki?"
"huh? go back to sleep," he grumbles, voice heavy with tiredness and fear, something he'll never admit. you look up at him, pretty mouth pouting and worry laced in your tone. "everything okay?"
he takes a look at you, and feels helpless. he hates that. he hates to admit even to himself that he'll do anything for you. vulnerability is something he never would've allowed himself to feel had you been anyone else. the thought of anything happening to you while he's not there makes his veins boil with anger, his chest screaming at him to keep you safe right next to him, to make sure you stay in his arms. he scowls at the thought, making you frown. "baby?"
"i'm alright, dumbass." he whispers this time, squeezing you as close to himself as he possibly can, his body aligning to yours perfectly. he kisses the crown of your head, lingering for a second and feeling your pliant form relax against him. "it's late, jus' go back to sleep."
he tried, at first, to get you away from his life and all the danger that surrounds him. but it's like the longer he strayed away from you, the more you pulled him into your world. not to change him, but to better him, push him to his limits and then some, until he comes out the best version of himself he could ever be. to love him, he realizes with an exasperated sigh.
"okay," you tell him, yawning against his chest. "but stay here 'til i wake up, please."
katsuki rolls his eyes. as if he could say no to you. "fine."
but he bites his lips once you're back asleep, because he understands– because he doesn't want you to leave him, either. "i'll stay right here with ya," he states, strong hands gently playing with your own.
katsuki realizes, time and time again, that he made the right choice.
it was unfair, at times. how hard he had to work for things that came effortlessly to other people, extras that didn't really deserve what they had.
it's a thought he has coming home from work one day, spent and ready to crash on the couch without caring about taking a shower first.
he loved his job, he loved being the best he could be and how validating the title felt– not the recognition, nor the fans or all the love from people all over Japan– but meeting the expectations of his younger self, of a four year old kid who wanted nothing more than to be the best hero he could possibly be. win to save, as his mentor has put into words perfectly. but it still felt unfair, at times.
still, katsuki thinks he may forgive the world, only because it has you.
your comforting words at his losses, even when he's not actively asking for them.
("i don't need this comforting crap," he grumbles, not screaming at you– never screaming at you, but still being stern. "no, you don't," you answer him, shaking your head with a gentle smile, "but isn't it nice to hear?")
your warm embrace that greets him as soon as he steps foot into your home, your compliments on his food and his career and his personal achievements, like the first time he voluntarily went to therapy. the passion you have for what you do, your drive and fire matching his in your hobbies, the things you love. and you love him, that's sole reason why katsuki thinks fuck it, he can be beautiful, too.
he doesn't have to work hard for your love– he doesn't have to change his short temper, he's still harsh as rough around the corners as the day you met him. still, you love him so easily, handle him with as much care as you thought he deserved.
the corner of his eyes crinkle with fondness as bakugou slowly sits up, just in time to hear you coming through the front door. "i'm home, 'tsuki!"
the world is unfair, but it also has you in it, so katsuki's ready to give it a try. "yeah," he leans down to gently kiss you, wrapping his heavy arms around you. "welcome home."
Hey sweetie
Hope u are having a great day!
May I request a bakugou x reader?
Bakugou hearing his girlfriend’s voice for the first time , she never sings in front of anyone and so he is shocked how angelic her voice is and how beautifully she plays the piano? And could u make it a UA au please?
Kinda like the jirou scene
It's been forever since I posted some actual writing - I hope I didn't get too rusty, and that you can enjoy this <3
Thank you sm for requesting this ฅ́˘ฅ̀
Warnings︙Gender-neutral reader, sfw
Character ︙ Bakugou Katsuki - BNHA
As your fingers trace the key of your piano, your gentle humming turns into some quiet and hushed whispers. The sun casts shadows between the black and white, and your hands dance in her rays as you play one melody after another. You find yourself swept away through your own music, your foot leaning back and forth on the pedals at the bottom, beautifully filling out the room. In a blissful exhale, you begin to sing, the warmth of the sun tracing your features as you match your tone to the gentle gestures of your fingertips.
As the tones entice your voice out of hiding, your shoulders feel much lighter, your ears blooming with harmonies. It all happens so naturally, like a spring breeze from your window, that you don't notice the second presence in the room. Those hushed whispers become more confident and bright, singing along with the strings of your piano. Slow petals open up to the summer as they shine vibrantly.
Katsuki Bakugou would say he knew you inside and out. It took him a while, but your gestures and quirks are all familiar to him now, and he's fallen in love with every movement and noise. He was sure of what they meant as the sun is sure to melt the snow after a long winter.
But this was all new to him.
He's heard the steady tapping of the piano keys before, and he's seen you sitting so blissfully in front of it, lost in your own tunes. He'd blushed whenever you caught him staring, and softly smiled to himself when you played a song you'd been working on, seeing how proud you were of your own efforts. He'd witnessed your own gardening and fruit-bearing himself.
That wasn't what had him frozen, stuck in place.
Your voice lingered in his throat like honey, angels kissing his ears and filling his mind. The sweet nectar of your sensuality and artform drowses and fills his heart. The light framing you so serenely, your sweet singing filling the room-
Katsuki Bakugou felt as if he were seeing you for the first time.
He was speechless as he watched you lose yourself in your element, utterly enamored with the image before him.
BAKUGOU X QUIRKLESS READER HEADCANONS
Characters- Bakugou and quirkless reader
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He hated you as much as he did Deku at first and treated you the same way.
He would mock and constantly brag about how much better he is then you, even go as far as showing off his quirk in front of you.
But despite all of this harshness, the angry Pomeranian harbored secret feelings for you.
He refused to say anything to you out of fear of looking weak and secretly out of fear you would reject him.
Those feelings came out though when he was walking through the halls to get to his classroom and saw two guys poking fun of you for quirkless.
He felt his blood boil, he stomped over to the guys and grabbed them by the collars of their shirts, “Got a problem you bastards!” The scowl on his face was enough to scare them shitless and they both furiously shook their heads, bakugou dropped them and they both ran in the opposite direction. You give him a shocked face not expecting him of all people to help you out like that “t-thanks bakugou” He just rolled his eyes “Tch”
But despite his usual angry and grumpy attitude you can’t help but quickly notice the slight blush that had spread across his cheeks. He looks up at you with a scowl on his face “Listen you damn dumbass, if anyone makes fun of you like that again, I want to know about it so I can take care of them personally, YOU HEAR ME!”
You looked at him shocked by both his words and sudden outburst. “But I thought you hated me as well..because I don’t have a quirk” simply saying the words made you feel helpless and hopeless not a nice combination in the slightest. He looked at you with a guilty expression plastered across his face. “L-look dumbass, I-I..I’m sorry”
You hadn’t properly heard what he has said because his volume was unusually low something it usually wasn’t, you look at him with a confused express for a few seconds, “sorry I didn’t quite catch that” If possible the usual scowl on his face became more prominent “I SAID I’M SORRY DIPSHIT”
You looked at him with an surprised expression, you honestly weren’t sure if you were dreaming or not, so you blinked your eyes a few times to make sure, “it’s ok bakugou really it’s fine, you are right anyway about the things you say so it’s- he harshly grabbed you by your shoulders, and gave you a stern look “No I’m not, I’m not right about anything I said about you and I’m sorry, you’re amazing Y/n, with or without a quirk, you’re smart, beautiful and talented, I love you ALRIGHT!” you were in complete shock from what he was saying to you “..I love you Y/n” he whispered out, his grip on your shoulders loosened a bit, he couldn’t bring himself to look you in the eyes so he kept his eyes on the ground, fear and nervousness taking a hold of him after just realizing what he said.
“I love you too”
His head snapped up to look at your face, not really believing you for a second, he smirked at you after a few seconds, “HAH, I knew you would” but you both knew that wasn’t the case, you just grin at him and let him have this one, you quickly lean up and kiss his cheek, you turn around and start heading to your class, you give him a quick wave goodbye before you move out of his line of sight.
He stands there for a few seconds a flabbergasted and blushing mess before regaining composure over himself and walks to his class with a prideful smirk on his face,
“Idiot”
One things for sure no one is messing with you ever again.
He’ll always have your back.
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A/N: this is my very first writing piece ever :0
I hope you guys like it’s not as good as most but I’m proud of it regardless, any writing tips will be very welcome. <3
please Katsuki will not hesitate to throw hands with the guy who played you. he was ready to square up the second you called him in tears, crying over how the guy had a girlfriend and had been stringing you along for months (he didn’t because you needed him more so he stayed and held you as you cried. wiping your tears and rubbing your back and trying to hard to stop you from hyperventilating)
but when he sees the asshole across campus, Katsuki sees red. Crossing the quad in a few seconds, Bakugou has the cheater on the floor with a single hit. The guy is confused, nose already bleeding but ready to fight back until he looks up and see Bakugou looming over him.
“you’re lucky she’s okay otherwise i would have killed you” Katsuki seethes, leaning down to the asshole’s level. “if i ever see you talking to another girl again, i’ll find you and end you, do you understand?”
When the guy doesn’t respond, Katsuki grips his collar, pulling him up from the concrete. “do you understand, you pathetic piece of shit?”
the guy nods, nose streaming red and eyes watering in fear. Katsuki doesn’t respond, deeming him not worthy of words before shoving him back to the floor.
Word of the assholes antics spread around campus pretty quickly after Katsuki’s little altercation saving you and future girls from anymore heartache caused by that creep.
hihi hope you're doing well :] if you can, can you do a kiri x reader with an ed? like reader has been hiding it for a while and kiri eventually finds out and confronts him about it, i would appreciate it aha <3
Hell yeah!! Here you go! Since you used he/him pronouns I just made the reader male, hope that’s good! I hope you don’t mind that I included my own feelings with my own eating disorder, it’s not too much but I hope you don’t mind! :)
Warnings: eating disorder, starvation, insecurity, yelling,
You had hidden your body from Eijiro for a long time. You had used to take your shirt off and let him admire your stomach, your chest, your waist, your hips, anything that he could get his hands on. But slowly, you covered back up. Refused to let him come in your room if you weren’t fully dressed. Refused to even take off your jeans when you fell asleep beside him. And to be honest, he was beginning to worry.
It had been a few months of this, of him never being able to even see an inch of skin past your collarbones or shoulders. It’s not that he was some needy pervert who needed you to be in the nude all the time, but he just wanted to see his pretty boyfriends skin! He was aching for it, yearning for it like a starved man for food.
You were rearranging your room today, moving around your knickknacks and belongings to clean and fit a new aesthetic. Your stomach rumbled occasionally, begging you for the food you refused to provide it. At first it was almost unbearable, but you’ve gotten used to it these past few months, gained an ability to ignore it and shove it down.
You hummed to yourself as you dusted your desk and nightstand, having just finished remaking your bed. Your open curtains let in the soft rays of sun from sunset, a golden hue enveloping your room. Soon the stars would come out, and you’d probably go sit out on your terrace to watch as they appeared. A small smile drifted onto your face from the thought.
Your peace was disrupted when you heard three soft knocks on your door, your head whipping around to look at the noise.
“It’s open!” You called, turning back around to continue dusting.
Eijiro walked in, coming up behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist, his head resting on your shoulder. He had hit a growth spurt recently and was now taller than you, something you were very salty about.
“Hey baby,” You greeted, reaching up to ruffle his hair, “Whatcha doin here?”
“Mm… I’m not allowed to come see my boyfriend?” He teased, pressing a soft kiss to your neck.
“Absolutely not, don’t you know it’s against the law?” You smiled.
He laughed, the vibrations from his chest able to be felt on your back. You stopped dusting and turning around to look at him, your chests pressing together from how tight he was holding you.
You pressed a quick kiss to the tip of his nose, giggling when his face turned as red as his hair.
“You’re such a tease,” Eijiro mumbled.
“Only because you’re so cute when I tease you.” You tapped the tip of his nose with your finger.
Eijiro dipped you down, his sudden movement startling you and eliciting a yelp from your throat. He quickly caught your lips in a kiss, one hand resting on the small of your back while the other held the back of your head. Your cupped his face with one hand and gripped his shoulder with the other for balance.
You quickly stopped for air, lightly panting when you pulled away to look in each other’s eyes.
“Now you’re the one who’s a tease!” You laughed.
Eijiro laughed too, then leaned you back upright and held you back in a hug.
“What’s got you so touchy today?” You asked.
“Mmm,” Eijiro hummed, “I just wanna hold you. I missed you.”
You laughed again. “I just saw you two hours ago, Ei.”
“That’s a long time!”
You dragged him over to the bed; Eijiro sat down with his back against the headboard, opening his arms to invite you to sit in his lap. You happily accepted his offer. His hands instantly found their home on your waist, his thumbs gently caressing your sides.
“Whatcha wanna do tonight?” You asked.
“Hmmm… I was thinking we could just stay up and talk. I wanna hear your pretty voice.” He tapped you on the tip of your nose with his finger.
You rested your head on his shoulder, your arms wrapping around him like his did to you.
“I think your voice is the prettiest,” You mumbled, “Makes me weak in the knees.”
He laughed. “Oh does it now?” He teased.
You mumbled something that sounded an awful lot like ‘fuck off’.
He held you for a few moments, his arms completely wrapped around you now and holding you tight to his chest. Although you had gained quite a bit of muscle since starting UA, there was no way you could fight your way out of his warm embrace.
“Hey baby?” Eijiro asked, “Could I ask you a question?”
“Hm?” You replied.
“How come you haven’t like… let me seen you undressed?” He asked, “Not like naked! But you don’t even let me see you without your shirt on anymore.”
Your heart stopped in your chest and your throat closed up. He had noticed? Of course he fucking noticed, he wasn’t an idiot. Despite what people might think, Eijiro is pretty smart. Of course he would’ve picked up on something by now!
You had been silent for too long, so he gently cupped your face and made you look at him.
“Hey, what’s got you so quiet?” His brows furrowed in concern.
You took a deep breath in. You could at least attempt to lie.
“I just… I don’t know. I didn’t even know I was doing it babe,” You answered, stammering.
Eijiro lifted one of his eyebrows up. “I know you’re lying baby. Please, just tell me the truth.”
You let out a shaky breath, turning your head away to avoid his gaze.
“Baby, please,” He begged, “I won’t be mad at you. Just please tell me.”
You screwed your eyes shut.
“I haven’t been eating, Ei. I’ve lost a lot of weight and I… didn’t want you to see and worry about me.”
He lightly gasped, his grip on your hips tightening somewhat.
“You haven’t… been eating?” He turned your face to look at him again. “Why?”
“Because I don’t like the way I look Ei,” You answered, “Im… i’m ugly. And not eating makes me feel better about myself and like im not a fuckin land whale. I just… everything seems so out of control and not eating is the one thing I can control, and just… I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve food.”
Eijiro stared at you for a moment, fear and dread laced in his bright red eyes that stared into yours.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you Ei. I just didn’t want you to worry cause I’m fine! Im okay, I’m not hurting myself. But… I know you. And I know you would freak out.”
“Of course I’m going to freak out!” He yelled, startling you, “You’re fucking starving yourself, Y/N! You are hurting yourself, and you didn’t tell me about it!”
A small tear trailed down your cheek. He’d never yelled at you before.
“Don’t yell…” You muttered.
He took a deep breath in and shakily exhaled it. “I’m sorry,” He said, “I don’t wanna yell. I’m sorry. But this fucking scares me. You’re gonna kill yourself baby.”
You turned your face away from him again.
“You’re gonna kill yourself, doing this. I don’t want to lose you.” He pressed your face to his chest, his arms holding you close to him and refusing to let you go. “You deserve food baby. You need to eat; you deserve to eat. I don’t want to see you do this to yourself anymore.”
You could hear his tears in the way his voice ached, making your own fall faster too.
“I care about you, Y/N. I do. Just… I want you to get better. But… I don’t really know how to help with this stuff baby. I don’t know what I need to say or what I need to do to help,” He whispered, one of his hands reaching to play with your hair.
“I know,” You whispered back, “I need to tell someone.”
He hummed in agreement.
“Mr. Aizawa?” Eijiro offered.
“Yeah,” You agreed, “He’d probably be best.”
“Then let’s go. I’ll hold your hand through it, I promise. I’ll be here with you through all of it, okay?”