#self Reblog

The time came to take one path

I pondered and pondered but the good sides of both paths were seeming attractive at a time and also the risks those i have to face were unavoidable. This indecision became the most time killer for me.

But I took one today only because I love the PROCESS. I love the process and I love the process.

I am not lured by the sweet success or the devastating failure.

Whatever I do, I learn the process, I love it.

Oh i answered these, really?

9 11 15 19 20 for the ask 😜😎

9.Best month for you this year?

rn my head is blank. oho is it december really>? when had the year gone? I think the year did not go well but the best month was January( whatever I say about college, new new college, new new feelings! ;)

11. Something you want to do again next year?

Hmm. That’s a difficult question. Practically I want to take SAT again next year(lol). But if you say about habit, I want to be strong in any hard circumstances I am going to face next year like this year.(only u know frnd what I had to face this yr and I did not break down)

15.What’s a bad habit you picked up this year?

Oh! A lot!! Firstly sleeping habits. I slept about 10 hrs every day this yr on average. Secondly. my thinking habit(to lie in the bed in the daytime for thinking—>  sleeping—->omg 3 hrs gone!) Thirdly, increasing screen time( tremendously upsurged(abt 9 to 10 hrs per day)) and finally ADHD. I remembered I was totally a nerd in 2018 and now? OMG. It’s not me really.

19. What’re you excited about for next year?

I generally don’t become excited regarding any matter. But next year(most prolly) I will finally decide my life’s goal—> that can’t but exciting.

20. What’s something you learned this year?

The amount is too big that I will not be able to express in words. Actually, I learned from very small fixes of my life. And I can not help saying about your advice every day. Our discussions were really very informative over every topic( philosophical also XD). I learned how to stay calm in the worst conditions. I learned how to give mental support to my family. I learned I am also important to someone :)

#thanks for asking #end year asks #answered by rasha #asked by fahmida

I never wanna be old

And I don't want dependents

It's no fun to be told

That you can't blame your parents anymore

I'm finding it hard to hang from a star

Don't wanna be

I never wanna be old

Sullen and bored the kids stay

And in this way they wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play

And in this way they wish away each day

I don't really know

If I care what is normal

And I'm not really sure

If the pills I've been taking are helping

I'm wasting my life, hurting inside

I don't really know

And I'm not really sure

Sullen and bored the kids stay

And in this way they wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play

And in this way they wish away each day

Sullen and bored the kids stay

And in this way they wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play

And in this way they wish away each day

I changed a lot. My thinking changed a lot. Really believe me, I am not me now what I wanted. I am not comparing myself with anyone. But when I see I am getting the result of dumbness of past myself , whom will i blame? I stuck in the midway. I stuck in the labyrinth of laziness. I am warning myself, if I don't stay in my path, result will be harsh Rasha!! So, please wake up!

The hardest thing ever is to stay in one path!

Day 11,12:

No study!

“People overestimate what they can do in a single day. And underestimate what they can do in their whole lives.”

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8 th march 2020 (recognition of first patient) .today is 26 th march . I don't know what is happening in this country.

My parents, being health workers, are working without PPE. We are totally exposed to Corona. I don't fear for my family. But at least i want the real number gets exposed to all. In a densely populated country like Bangladesh, is it possible to stay safe without corona? We are all going to be infected. But at least, who are suffering and dying, their numbers get published. The wrong which Italy did, why we will not learn from the mistake? Even if we all get aware at once,we have to pay for the mistakes which we have done so far.

Bangladesh, be ready. Days are coming.

At last, you came.

You can see my another dead blog @ssrasha​

Look, when your focus changes, your view of perceiving beauty also changes!