Sometimes I Think About Allen’s Habit Of Making Terrible Horrible Deals With The Devil, Not Asking

shout out to past!Allen Walker for being some unfortunate rando who came into contact with the narrative and then almost instantly became doomed by it

I might make a more in depth post about this later, but there’s something about Allen and Mana’s ways of grieving that stick out to me. They’re so similar, but I think there’s one key difference:

Mana forgets, Allen doesn’t.

When confronted with guilt over hurting a loved one (regardless of circumstances) and the grief of losing them, Mana couldn’t stand to look at himself to the point he literally changed his own face. He spent years searching for the very brother he killed. He hated himself so much he became someone else (Adam). It wasn’t it his fault (Adam’s), it was his fault (Mana’s)

Allen is similar, but ends up swinging in the opposite direction. When he’s at his lowest, he couldn’t cope with it either, becoming catatonic (is that the right word?). After he comes out of that state, it’s because he needs to keep a promise that he (Allen) made to Mana. And like Mana he’s acting like a different person! But he’s still Allen and he carries the guilt of turning Mana into an Akuma directly. He can’t change his face. Everything about his appearance is a constant reminder. It was his fault, and he’s going to spend everyday atoning for it.

now, I know that cale henituse and bruce wayne have similarities. They both have an adoption problem, are cunning strategists, terrible at communicating, and are filthy rich. but I think on a fundamental level they would not get along. Bruce has (admittedly kind of necessary due to frequent mind control situations) contingency plans for friends and family. Cale would Not Vibe with that at all. He would rather die than do that shit.

plus bruce’s no-killing policy (again, valid reasons for this), and while bruce does various other brutal acts short of killing, I think this would cause some problems. cale might understand it on a moral level. But if they had to work together? They would be butting heads like nobody’s business. honestly, if they did have to team up to take down an enemy, I think there would be a confrontation a la “Ruthlessness” from EPIC the musical

I’ve changed my mind, I’m not Sisyphus anymore. I’d rather the boulder just fuck me than push it up hill.

Xena: Gabrielle and I are courting!

Aphrodite: We already knew that?

Gabrielle: But we started courting two days ago?

Aphrodite: What the fuck were you doing before then?

I am but Sisyphus, pushing the boulder uphill, hoping for respite, damned by my own hubris. (I’m taking three (3) writing interviews courses and I have no one to blame but myself.)

big fan of characters whose first and greatest indicator of something being deeply wrong with them is how chill they are and how quickly they rebound

Jiang Cheng: Is there anything you’re actually capable of doing?

Wei Wuxian: Putting up with you.

mdzs au where everything is the same except jiang cheng calls wei wuxian “edge lord” during his yiling patriarch era