Sometimes I’m Just So Grateful To Be Alive It’s Annoying. Like Where The Fuck Did All These Feelings

what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the actual fuck

start here, caitlyn siehl // untitled, fortesa latifi // rien ne va plus, margarita karapanau (trans. karen emmerich) // black iris, leah raeder // the thorn merchant, yusuf komunyakaa // monster movie, nicola maye goldberg // a key to common lethal fungi, marge piercy // give me a god i can relate to, blythe baird // crimson peak, dir. guillermo del torro (2014) // the house of hades, rick riordan.

lowky fighting the urge to just never forgive my father

falling

it’s over.

the deed is done.

their power evaporates,

stardust scattered in the wind,

and time slows down.

they turn, smiling as they tip sideways

their eyes still so bright so kind so full of love

their hair swept up by gravity

“everything’s okay”

their elegant attire fanning around them

“it’s all going to be just fine”

graceful, even as they crumble

“they can’t hurt you anymore”

their weapon slides bloody from their hand.

“it’s over now”

you reach but oh they’re so far away

“you’re safe now”

too far away, and you won’t make it in time

“hush now love please don’t you cry”

crash crash burn.

they fall a glittering diamond

your knight fallen to slay the beast you couldn’t

like the tears streaming down your face

down down down where you can’t follow

and pool upon the ground unmoving

you scream you scream no no no

to lay there still

forever more.

they have a name, a name you shriek

a name I could have branded

into these words with the hiss

oh the sting the howl of anguish,

but I don’t have to, do I?

no,

not when you saw them

ablaze in sunlight

oh how you love them

you knew their name the moment I spoke.

FOUND family??? you think i just found them like this??? babes this is FORGED family. Me & the bros were scrap metal in a junkyard (very valuable, very sharp, very dangerous, uncared for) and we GOT IN THE FUCKING FIRE TOGETHER. WE did this. we said I AM NOT LEAVING YOU and melted into each other for better or for worse (it’s for better) and we are A FUNCTIONAL UNIT now. DO NOT SEPARATE. BATTERIES FUCKING INCLUDED. FOUND family my ass, we built this non-nuclear family unit from the ground up, don’t devalue this!!! it was is and will be a labour of love!!!

I abuse hyphens so much, it’s just too much fun (I must have extended imagery or I die)

one of my worst writing sins is abusing my power to create compound words. i cannot write the sentence "The sun shone as bright as honey that afternoon." no. that's boring. "The sun was honey-bright that afternoon" however? yes. that sentence is dope as fuck. i do not care if "honey-bright" is a word in the english dictionary. i do not care if the sentence is grammatically correct. i will not change. i will not correct my erred ways. the laws of the english language are mine.

"𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐈 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟; 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐫, 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞."

- Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

remember kids

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