Saveperfect - Redemtion

Bauhaus- Ziggy Stardust

Felt✨

“She came back from summer looking gaunt and sick, clearly not well, but oh god her body dropped jaws”.

Persepolis is a film that you should watch

i’m always feeling so much sadness these days.

my happy dreams are falling apart and taking me too.

seems as though even happiness needs company.

i don’t want to go yet.

i know one day i will not have a choice.

i’m back pretties

Felt

Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

now I’m just getting super hungry. I can’t even go 12 hrs with out eating a meal. At this point I’m considering sleeping through the hunger.

tried to fast today. 16 hours in, the room started spinning and i felt extremely nauseous and weak. when i tried to eat, my body rejected it. i cant fast like i used to, in fact I cant fast at all anymore. i’ve gotten to a point where every time that i try to, it feels like i’m dying.

listen to your body. be careful with your body. nourish your body.

My Bloody Valentine - Lose My Breath

NSFW (Nirasawa Shall Forever Withstand) cover to SMH Magazine, Vol. 12, 1998.